@Atacamadesert we have to live and engage with our friends and family. I too would struggle in a night club to not drink.
I would go and decide nearer the time. Everybody on here has different goals. I still say to my DH ‘I might not last all year you know’ and he just replies ‘one day at a time is good enough.’
I’ve been looking at this protracted withdrawal syndrome which is related to drugs and alcohol as I feel some of my symptoms (fatigue, muscle and body pain, weird dreams etc) the last couple of weeks fit in with it.
What are the windows and waves of protracted withdrawal syndrome?
‘Often times those experiencing a withdrawal syndrome may experience days when they are partially or totally free of symptoms (this period is called a “window”), followed by days of mild or more severe withdrawal symptoms (this period is called a “wave”).’
I am taking time to reflect just how much I drank (a lot and often) and I know I wasn’t physically addicted in the sense I had detox symptoms but I can definitely relate to this syndrome.
I am in a position to take a year off work (self employed paying myself from my BA). I don’t have the same stress in my life I did last year. Those of you with stressful jobs and kids at home (my son has gone to Uni) have it far harder than I do and I respect how much more effort this must take.
I don’t want to encourage you to drink but I don’t want to demonise you for wanting to either. It’s your personal journey and look how far you’ve come already. If you have a drink no big deal just get back on track and recommit to a significant dry spell again if that’s what you want. If you feel ready to moderate then that’s fine too.
Listen to your mind, body and soul it will guide you best. I’m beginning to finally recognise this fact at 50 years old!