Day 2

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That’s it really. Inspired by people on here. Holding myself to account on here, if that’s ok.
just reminding myself for when I want to cave - I’m permanently exhausted, down, ashamed. Feel ill getting fatter. Stuck. Tingling heavy fingers, arthritis kicking in, skin crap. Sleep crap- wake every 2 hours. Not achieving anything. Cook , drink, Fall asleep in front of tv. Every.single.night. Exhausted in the morning.
id like to have a juice or vitamin pill each day to aid health, instead I’m drinking each day to aid illness. Wtf. Also on anti estrogen pills to stop cancer. And what does alcohol do? Exactly.
first day 2 in a LONG time, a year at least.

Hi, are you still here? I left and didn’t post for ages, embarrassed that I slipped up a couple of times and instantly went back to my old habits. I’m now on day 5 and first goal is to get to day 14, in the hope of seeing some real positive benefits to keep me going. I went a bit(!) heavy on the wine and whiskey for a while, and luckily the thought of dry mouth and headaches is keeping me straight so far…..

Oh thank goodness you have posted!it’s so nice to hear from you!
I have done the same as you and went a bit heavy on the wine one Friday and then it slipped into the next eve and the next..I was too ashamed and a failure and rubbish to come back on and say, ‘suprise’! Though I thought about it a lot! Rather hope everything would go away. So it’s so nice to hear you’ve got through the drinking times and are on day 5! That’s absolutely brilliant, well done.
im going to use you to inspire me if that’s ok. I’m on day 2. Not great, but a start. I got to chugging down wine as quickly as possible - glugging down a mug full in one go. Not great.
dry mouth and headaches, brilliant. Will focus on those too, and the other one a lovely PP said which is to imagine yourself tomorrow waking up happy.
sooo chuffed you got back on the wagon, and really chuffed you posted. So nice to have company!
thank you .

Me again.
im hitting the booze big time again. I’m so ashamed and fed up. It’s because stuff is happening at home that I find it hard to deal with. I’m hoping posting on here will help. Also going to read all the other threads. I’m so over this!

I'm just going to quote my own post I'm afraid

AA
GP
Smart recovery

This is too much for you to do on your own there is lots of help out there

Thanks so much fusion I was in denial I think, the time has come to go to the gp.
thanks for waking me up.
x

Hi, I'm new to this thread but just wanted to say I'm right here with you . Just can't seem to stick to it . Something always pops up at home and I think sure I need a drink I'll start tomorrow. I'm getting so fed up with myself! Constantly trying ! I did 5 days AF recently and was so happy with myself but that's been the longest stretch I have done in years ! I'm back to day one again today and feel like crap .

The fact that you started this original thread in November shows you it's not as easy as it sounds. The early days of quitting 1-5 are ok (ish) then you feel all proud for doing so well and the little wine devil creeps in..! We've all been there, no judgement from me. You have to play it forward - how will you feel tomorrow if you drink tonight. For me that was a real game changer, waking up with a banging head.. remorseful for drinking, promising myself today would be different then by 5pm the thoughts started creeping back in. It's a vicious circle and only you can stop that. Go and see the GP, find support and don't beat yourself up for not being able to just stop. It's OK to have a couple of force starts - I had many.. just remember the end goal and keep on trying. Big hugs xx

How are you getting on op?

Just saw this! Thanks for asking!
cant believe I started this in November.! Thanks for pointing that out rocking ird
I am treating myself to some counseling because, you know what, I’ve scrimped and saved on beauty products and haircuts and goodness knows so I’m treating myself to this, and it feels very good to do so!
funnily she’s not really mentioned alcohol, apart from try schloer or watering down the wine, instead we are working on my assertiveness skills as DH is being quite controlling it seems. Who knew! But definitely if I can avoid his stress, I don’t want to drink so much.
I’m delighted to say I’ve cut down! I have yet to stop completely, but on Friday night had a teeny glass and that was enough (phew) I still get cravings before dinner so it’s a chocolate first course for me!
the most helpful comment was from you, rockingbird and all the others who say imagine how you’ll feel tomorrow.
also, know that you now will be awake all night.
its still early days (again) but is that a flicker of optimism?!
it’s helping that DH is laying off the booze too. I think a LOT of this is due to the people you are around.
Massive hugs to everyone going through this. We have all been lied to!

Am re reading this thread and can I just say, HOW BLOODY BRILLIANT you all are. SO supportive of total strangers. There is such wonderful advice and kindness on here.
tilly how are you doing?
How is everyone doing? Xxx

Glad you are doing well op! Unfortunately I believe Tillly passed away some weeks ago. (unless there is another tilly on here in which case massive apologies)

Hi shining that’s massive. I’m so sorry Tilly and all who love you.
There’s so much to say, and nothing to say at the same time.
so so sorry 💐

I used to see her on the cancer threads but there was a message from someone who knew her personally. Very sad, she was lovely and always had great advice and support.

She really was.
Crap, too many people get this cancer bollocks.
Very very sad.