Day 2

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That’s it really. Inspired by people on here. Holding myself to account on here, if that’s ok.
just reminding myself for when I want to cave - I’m permanently exhausted, down, ashamed. Feel ill getting fatter. Stuck. Tingling heavy fingers, arthritis kicking in, skin crap. Sleep crap- wake every 2 hours. Not achieving anything. Cook , drink, Fall asleep in front of tv. Every.single.night. Exhausted in the morning.
id like to have a juice or vitamin pill each day to aid health, instead I’m drinking each day to aid illness. Wtf. Also on anti estrogen pills to stop cancer. And what does alcohol do? Exactly.
first day 2 in a LONG time, a year at least.

Ah thanks, Went to bed early last night and read a book. I've woken up determined to keep this up. Its great to know there isn't yet another empty bottle to hide in the recycling bin this morning! Will keep following this thread for extra motivation.

Nearly a week

Well done 👏🏻

Keep going

Morning day 7
amazed! Slept! Wearing pajamas not sleeping in clothes (eww yuk, did I really do that?!) feel ok! Not heaps of energy but a lot more.more positive emotionally. Less achey and stiff too. - REMEMBER THIS!!!!!
Secretly hugging myself for getting this far.

Heard last night our friend been diagnosed with cirrhosis 😳he was always the jolly active one. Turns out living alone opposite a pub wasn’t the best idea.
DH pleased.
Im pleased, I’ve been stuck for years, maybe this is the way to unstick.

Thanks Tilly! That is very welcome!
Swanchaser well done ! ‘Following this thread for extra motivation’! Erm, hope you’re not barking up the wrong tree..but Now I’ve got to keep it up! ..and so do you 👍 we’ve got this .

So how about a reward night tonight?

Facepack, pedicure, that kind of thing?

Afternoon day 7
note to self (I am Mrs partridge)
for the first time in AGES I am not yawning and desperate for a nap.
definitely mood is better and aches are improved. Am surprised! Some concern over keeping going - like a skater who lets go of the wall.
Eat loads, cook early .
holy moly!

thanks Tilly what! Actually treat me? good idea..Hmm, a bath and a book😁

Day 7!! I did it!
slightly amazed!
no pedicure, but chatted with DS, that I can even speak is impressive.
definitely..less ratty, more energy. Tired in a good way. Nice feeling!
I left the kitchen mucky as my treat to me
What worked..loads of carbs before cooking. Milk. (Thanks pp on other thread that mentions it) hollow feeling filled with chocolate.
thanks for the support tilly and swanchaser - I hope it went well.

Day 8!
feeling that Need for booze. And it’s only 5. So hopped onto the other thread for support. And ate a ton of toast, no room for ethanol!
Points to remember= friend has cirrhosis . Ethanol will make my stomach ache (till I knock back more- so plain,y stomach isn’t happy, but got ignored)
will sleep badly, feel crap, get grumpy, look bad in front of DS. Be still drinking in 5 years.
Good points= feeling sooo much better. More normal, better energy, better sleep, more optimistic. Looking forward to eating more vitamins and feeling healthier. Really looking forward to being able to enjoy long walks and swimming and yoga.
I can buy heating with ethanol money!
if anyone is reading, good luck! We can do it x

Day 8 done! Well done meee!
DH says I’m calmer and less emotional. He’s not drinking either, and he is too.
hes easier and nicer to be around. Guessing I may be too. We had the first nice proper laid back evening in ages.
beginning to feel the stirrings of being excited about stuff again.
keep it up!

Wow wow wow! This thread is a journal of positivity and bloody determination!

You've cracked the hard bit! And you are reaping the benefits!

I write down the things I done this weekend because I didn't drink! Or the things I've gained by not drinking!

I found cooking hard without a glass of wine! I don't think about it now it's breaking that habit! A glass of something nice in a wine glass helps

Kombucha
Ginger ale and slice of lime
Soda water with lime / mint

Woohoo 💪🏻 you rock 🪨
(Not quite the emoji I wanted but you get the gist)

Next goal, 10 days

PS my dentist told me alcohol is terrible for your teeth

Tho tbf, dentists think everything is terrible for your teeth

Aww thank you tilly I really appreciate your encouragement. And your emoji🕴️(wastes time scrolling through all the emojis). Not sure about positivity and determination, but I’ll take it! It’s just that I realised I’ll never get anywhere with my side hustle if I drink, and I don’t want something crap that happened and caused me to up my ethanol slugs vomit intake to ‘win’
I CAN ado this! Still feeling like a duck learning to waddle.

P.s. I also appreciate your dentist👁️👁️
👃🏻
👄. ✌🏼
always wanted to do that! Did anyone mention how much longer evenings are ?

Ohhhh it moved when I posted. Poo!

Day 9 lunchtime.
Noticeably more energy and excitement and feeling positive!
consciouly looking after ME. Which actually is lovely. I’ve been starving my little inner child of affection poor girl. Amazing how little treats - taking the best biscuit (!), making a microwave tea, a five minute meditation, add up.
emotions surfacing, but that’s ok. Have a hot chocolate and a meditation - sort of a cuddle from me to me.

Day NIINNEEEEE!

Good morning! Welcome to double digits day..!!! You are doing amazingly well, keep going 🙌

rockingbird! Thank you, what a lovely encouragement to read as I’m avoiding waking grumpy DS. or rather I’d better get DS up and stop reading AF threads!

morning day 9
DEFINITELY more energy and a positive mood! Relationship with DH improving, he’s very pleased and encouraging and dint drink himself last night, though he needed one after stressful day. So now I’m proud of him too.😀
Im actually considering making a juice and getting some nutrition in me - and even! Goodness me, doin a tentative bit of yoga.
but baby steps! 😂

No, re read your post rockingbird, I’m wrong..morning of DAY TEN!!!!!!!
gobsmacked. Double digits indeed!

exploring this new feeling of energy and positivity, like you explore a sore tooth with your tongue - is it real? Will it go away? (Hope not) I like it!

I found doing a relaxation meditation podcast very enlightening. Just 10 minutes a day in the morning.. honestly it's a bit of a game changer.

Day TEN sone and dusted!
day 11 today.
sleeping feels more solid, waking less. Getting on better with DH. Kitchen more under control! Still get very tired in the day, probably nutrition, that’s next. Yesterday ate a mince pie and load of pasta.hmm. Definitely nutrition!
Offered nosseco, no thanks! And DH opened wine- I saw it as a glass of sour vinegar, hurrah! Didn’t want it at all!!!

thanks rxokingbird I tried a meditation this morning instead of leaping out of bed. Much nicer!
what does it change? I know it feels nice! I often do a five minute you tube one half way through the day. Like a mini snooze. Calms a girl down.
looking forward to sleeping in late and eating juices on weekend.

Woohooo 🙌

Focus on increasing protein, fruit and veg now

Aim for 2 weeks milestone

Excellent work!

Thanks tilly! Very nearly 2 weeks!
im eating my body weight in chocolate, what would your dentist say?!
DAY 11!
Omg, it is So nice to feel human and get to work feeling calm and healthy (ish)
feel like I’m settling down. But still feel like I’m in a strange room and looking around self consciously.
I need to be aware of the voice that’s started saying,’yeah but this is dull, just have one…’
im letting the voice just flow through me, not arguing, or fighting it. I’m just observing it and saying,’oh yeah, that’s interesting to think, I wonder what else my mind will come up with ‘ amazingly enough, it works to diffuse the desire( with a LOT of chocolate)(and reminding myself how nasty this stuff is to your body)
that mindfulness course must be paying off!

swanchaser/hope you’re ok.
note to self..relationship with DH very much improving. I’m beginning to be interested in my long discarded hobby. And to be interested in actually doing some excersise.
im looking after me - which is liberating . not cooking elaborate dinner for family, they can eat chicken nuggets! As I’ll be tempted to drink while cooking. DH very understanding! He drank a bottle tonight, not me!!!
bought a robot vacuum. Life changing! It’s encouraging us all to picjkeep stuff cleaner.
everything effects everything else.

You're doing great, bloody well done woman!! I found waking up without the hanging feeling so satisfying, especially at the weekend. The relaxation podcast seemed to give me the reset button I needed in life.. I'd been running on empty for so long. It's great that you wasn't tempted by your DH drinking last night, that's a huge step forward-make sure he's aware you won't be tempted. Don't worry too much at this point about the chocolate consumption, that's your body craving sugar from other sources. You can work on that later down the line. Keep on going, remember to play it forward if the little voices ping into your head.