Day 1

[moochies]

I posted another thread earlier about my disaster of a Christmas Day.

I just can't do it anymore, looking into the future I can see myself losing everything, my DH, friends, family. I was considering taking myself to a&e this morning because I was such a mess.

I'm absolutely determined to do it this time, so this is day 1.

Please join me.

I’m on second dry night here. Went out for dinner and had ginger beer and a turmeric latte. I’m feeling positive.

I also have no rock bottom but my drinking has crept up from one glas a night in thirties to two thirds a bottle a night in my forties. Don’t want it to creep up more, which it will. Also got dc who are noticing and I don’t want them to grow up thinking it’s normal. And it’s definitely affecting my health.

Well, spectacularly bad night's sleep! And the bit I had was full of crazy dreams! So woke up tired but otherwise okay.

Will investigated supplements to aid sleep, otherwise I end up in that spiral of exhaustion feeding anxiety feeding stress etc, which I successfully, but harmfully- medicate with alcohol.

Day 2.

Day 2 here too. I generally gave a few days off, feel better, forget how hideous hanxiety us and then start again. It’s an exhausting, pointless cycle and I want to get off. So here we are - am feeling positive just by reading this thread tbh

Late night again - 4 am. Work tomorrow 🙄. I also have to make a big decision if I’ll move jobs. But I want a health mot as finding a few lumps and bumps that need checking out. Wish I still had carefree attitude of when I was young🙁

@Lushmetender

Late night again - 4 am. Work tomorrow 🙄. I also have to make a big decision if I’ll move jobs. But I want a health mot as finding a few lumps and bumps that need checking out. Wish I still had carefree attitude of when I was young🙁

You're out of warranty, medically speaking when you hit age 35. It's all downhill from there.

One positive I have noticed is that the bone structure in my face has started to reappear! I thought that had disappeared 15 years ago.

Seems maybe it was just alcohol puffiness!

Hi all. Just checking in. Have made it to day 5 AF but my sleep is absolutely terrible. I am exhausted. The insomnia is enough to make me drink again... arghhh.

Best wishes to all for a better night's sleep tonight.

I had a tooth extracted yesterday and woke up early when the ibuprofen wore off, but I'll catch up tonight.

I'm really impressed with how well all of you are doing. It does get easier, I promise.

Morning everyone, today will be day five for me. My anxiety is still pretty high but that's normal for me anyway. I'm pretty tired and keep having dreams that I'm drinking which isn't nice well done everyone 💪

Well done @MinnieJackson. We can do this

Hi everyone 👋 I’m on day 6. Not find it too bad considering I had ended up pouring myself a wine nearly everyday of the week 🤦‍♀️
I’ve had a few cravings but thankfully they do pass.

Lovely thread you’ve got here. And particular thanks to @MissConductUS so kind of you to take the time in supporting others

Yeah crap sleep here also. Back to work today so no lying in. Hopefully getting back into the usual routine will help.

Yes, night 2 was not great for sleep for me, either!

And I was quite bored last night 😟.

Thank you, @MrsHippopotamus, what a lovely thing to say.

Sobriety is a pay it forward effort. When I quit drinking there were so many good people who took the time to share their experiences and strength with me. Those of us who have been sober a while have an obligation to do the same with others in need of a bit of support.

Hi all apologies I've been off for a couple of days. Back at work and been trying to stay off my phone at night due to not being able to sleep. The insomnia has reached new levels and I'm still worrying about my missing few hours on Boxing Day night. Glad you're all doing ok and well done for sticking with it.

@MissConductUS I echo that. You've been a really great support

It's so great to not be doing this alone so thank you all. I have not told anyone IRL about my alcohol addiction let alone trying to stay sober. Managed to get 5 hours broken sleep yesterday which made a huge difference. Hope others manage to get some sleep today

Well done guys. I'm also sleeping like shit, but it's slightly less awful than being hungover.

Is anyone else getting into bed at 8pm?

Thanks tea. I feel a bit like I'm sponsoring you guys.

Just to help you understand the insomnia, your nervous system adapted to the depressant effects of alcohol by revving up a bit. Now without the alcohol, it's taking a bit of time to relax and go back to normal.

@MissConductUS I agree. Thanks for all of your advice. Would you mind sharing what made you quit drinking? Obviously you don't have too! Day five done ✔

@MissConductUS did you also dream that you were drinking when you quit?

@MissConductUS

Thanks tea. I feel a bit like I'm sponsoring you guys.

Just to help you understand the insomnia, your nervous system adapted to the depressant effects of alcohol by revving up a bit. Now without the alcohol, it's taking a bit of time to relax and go back to normal.

That makes sense, it'd never occurred to me.

I thought it was because we weren't getting the knock out effect of wine.

I don't mind sharing, Minnie. I had a seizure as a result of alcohol withdrawal and was transported to a hospital, where I was admitted for an inpatient detox. I was badly addicted at that point and consented to treatment.

I won't go into what a mess my life was at that point, but I'm sure you can imagine.

moochies, it's two sides of the same coin. Your nervous system was somewhat adapted to the knock out effect of wine. This is how people develop a tolerance for alcohol.

Minnie, I did sometimes dream about drinking after I quit.