Day 1

[moochies]

I posted another thread earlier about my disaster of a Christmas Day.

I just can't do it anymore, looking into the future I can see myself losing everything, my DH, friends, family. I was considering taking myself to a&e this morning because I was such a mess.

I'm absolutely determined to do it this time, so this is day 1.

Please join me.

Ah @moochies one slip up doesn’t erase all the sober days you’ve had so far. Try not you beat yourself up. Do you want to talk about what happened?

Sorry to hear that @moochies. Hope you are feeling OK. It was only 1 beer and you are doing amazingly well since you first posted here on boxing day and started this support thread. Sending all good vibes your way

@moochies
I've had a slip up and I beat myself up. I was feeling ... as @LynnDaBogTrotter said a lot of feels.
But I've made so much progress and it's hard to learn to deal with things in a different way... so it's ok. We have come so far

@moochies aww sorry to hear that but it was one beer. Just one out of all the ones you haven't had. Don't beat yourself up. @LynnDaBogTrotter my anxiety was awful for a good three weeks or so but I'm sleeping so much better now.

This really resonated with me.

Oh @Bizzywater that’s lovely…..

Thanks guys.

I'm not even sure why I did it tbh! It was my favourite beer, and I wanted it. It was only 1 so I'm not going to beat myself up about it, but I'm still cross with myself.

I haven't really even been missing beer that much, I've been really missing red wine. I just really fancied it and told myself that 1 beer in a whole dry month was ok.

Back on the wagon now!

Had people over last night and made them gin and tonics without having one myself. Feel pretty heroic if I’m honest Day 24!

@afaloren that is amazing! 😃

Hi all, for some reason this thread dropped off my "I'm On" list a few days ago and I just realized it.

@moochies, that was a pretty minor slip, don't let it bother you. It sounds like everyone is doing really well. Keep up the good work, ladies!

I went to my exercise class last night and had so much energy it was incredible.

@MissConductUS your advice has been invaluable.

Thank you, @teaandtoastwithmarmite. It is a blessing to be useful and have a chance to pay it forward.

The dreaded Friday night is here again.... how are we all feeling? Must admit this is the hardest day for me temptation wise.

@MissConductUS 
@firefly123 I'm doing good thanks. What are u doing tonight.

Another one hanging in there (and grateful to MissConduct and all the other posters). Think it is day 29 or 30 here. Still a bit tempted but more tempted by the future than right now iykwim. Like I think "oh it would be lovely to have a nice glass of rose by the water in the summer" but I've kind of dealt with the "oh it would be nice to have a glass of wine on a Friday night" as that would be "a bottle of wine and a bit on a friday night followed by dh feeling worried, me out cold, and my feeling crap - physically and metaphysically - tomorrow morning.

I'm really enjoying the mornings these days. We make coffee early after the dog goes out and have it in bed doing the NYT crossword before the day starts properly.

MissConduct, you are probably going to get the same 18 inches of snow we are getting tomorrow! Out now to put the trash barrel on the porch and get the snowblower in position.

@justforthis21 I totally know what you mean as was thinking about this myself. I'm doing well now but going to a festival in the summer with DH's family who are massive drinkers and I know I'll be tempted then.

@justforthis21, it sounds like you're doing fabulously. It is helpful to focus on how good you'll feel in the morning if you abstain. I get up early, feed the cats, and then exercise before breakfast.

Are you in the Boston area or further north? We're expecting about a foot of snow here and are under a blizzard warning. DH got a new snowblower this year and we have room for it in the garage.

Good evening ladies, very shortly hitting two weeks sober. Had a funeral today, and managed to avoid the post -drinks by being designated driver. Still not a peep from my partner about my new sobriety…..

Happy sober Saturday, one and all!

Well done, @LynnDaBogTrotter. Don't let your partner's silence on the issue trouble you. He has no doubt noticed, is likely happy about it, and just does not know what to say or wants to give you space. Not drinking is normal, even if it is not normal for you. If you raise the subject and tell him what you are trying to do and why it will give him the space to express his thoughts and feelings about it.

The blizzard has arrived and the birds are mobbing the feeder. If you look closely you will see that there are two on the perch ring, one on top and one on the garden fencing waiting to get on. I mention this because it occurs to me that in my drinking days my main focus would have been about how much alcohol I had in the house and what I would do if I ran out. It's so nice not to have that worry anymore.

I've had a bit of a revelation this evening. I decided to try moderation again so I bought a mini bottle of Prosecco. I've been having a alcohol free Prosecco and enjoying it.
Tasted the 'real' Prosecco and tasted awful. Thought maybe it was a horrible brand. Tried some rose I knew I loved. So bitter and actually undrinkable.

When I read Jason Vale's book (part of it, I found it hard going) it talks about not liking the first taste of alcohol because it's a poison. I think I get it now. Maybe I can actually be sober

Feeling less confident today. Got the Sunday evening blues and desperate to demolish some wine

Hang in there @Bizzywater. You posted here and that's brilliant. What can you do to take your mind off it?
I completely understand what you were saying about alcohol being a poison.

Thank you @teaandtoastwithmarmite (actually best breakfast ever)
I've got Heineken 0.0. Had a healthy dinner and I'm going to distract myself with a book

@Bizzywater ha ha love that comment about best breakfast ever. You are my person
Well done for getting distracted and a 0% Heineken. I had 0% leffe last night and it was really nice