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Day 1

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moochies · 26/12/2021 16:48

I posted another thread earlier about my disaster of a Christmas Day.

I just can't do it anymore, looking into the future I can see myself losing everything, my DH, friends, family. I was considering taking myself to a&e this morning because I was such a mess.

I'm absolutely determined to do it this time, so this is day 1.

Please join me.

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SoberMornings · 15/01/2022 15:00

People are really doing amazingly well. Such strength and such progress.

As @afaloren says you still have days in the bank if you've "relapsed".
Apologies @MinnieJackson you asked me up thread if I relapsed but I missed it as I've been off MN for a few days . I just went cold turkey and got through it but I wouldn't see it as "relapsing" if I had as (from my previous unsuccessful attempts to get clean) I don't think it's a helpful term, for me at least. I think the "relapsing/having to start right back at Day 1 again" thinking always made me think fuck it I've messed up and I don't want to start back at Day 1 it's too hard. It wouldn't encourage me to keep trying. If I think of it as snakes and ladders, I would see it as going back a step rather than sliding to the beginning of the board again, if that makes sense?

I'm aware though that @MissConductUS is probably better at giving advice/support on this and might not be the right strategy as I just white knuckled it, whereas MsC did it with professional help and has been sober a lot longer than I have.

Another thing (but which I think is very personal and people make their own decisions on) was that when I was successful in stopping I didn't drink any alcohol substitutes eg zero alcohol beer or alcohol free fizz. A completely different substitute eg nice juice or tea helped to shift my mindset as it was different to drinking. I had a lot of "routines" associated with drinking eg if I had something to celebrate I would have fizz, but now if I'm celebrating I steer clear of anything to do with alcohol/substitutes and have cake or box of luxury chocolates as my "reward". It helped to break the links in my mind I think. I also have no guilt spending large amounts of money on treaty things eg Prestat chocolates as I would have spent more on booze!

I think I had to change my life to stop drinking as everything was associated with alcohol. But that seems so daunting at the start which is why taking it half an hour/hour/evening at a time and then a day at a time worked for me. Just getting into new habits, if that makes sense?

Again this may be off putting to a lot of people Wink but one replacement habit that worked for me was exercise (and I was the type of person that previously thought getting up and walking to the fridge was exercise Grin). I joined the gym and started exercising/running and it was amazing. It replaced the routines and times I spent drinking eg 6pm on Friday I would go to the gym instead of opening a bottle and the sense of achievement I felt was as good as the sober days banking up. Eventually being able to do 5k then 10k etc was so rewarding (and it meant I could eat the cake and chocolate instead of wine as I was burning it off).

When I was drinking though, reading something like my previous paragraph would have made me sprain my eyeballs as it seemed so out of reach for me. But when I started I was that "fattest person in the gym" which had always put me off joining, I was so unhealthy I couldn't even do three minutes on the treadmill, I thought I looked shit in a swimming costume etc. Yet here I am now and I am evangelical about it. I can't even describe how much better it makes me feel, it's a thousand times more enjoyable than drinking and there are no regrets the day after, in fact there is happiness.

I never thought I would be happy again without alcohol in my life, before I got sober, imagining/thinking of a life without alcohol and all the associated routines and "fun" looked like it would be boring and shit (and I guess for lots of posters and lurkers, you are in that place too, especially when it's a Saturday!) But it isn't boring and shit, not drinking actively makes me feel a sense of reward and achievement every single morning, even twelve years later and even when I'm going through shit times, being sober actively helps me in those times too.

I would take my weekends (which were the hardest time for me not to drink as it was even more socially acceptable to crack open the wine, even at lunchtimes) literally an hour at a time. I definitely wouldn't think I can never drink again god my weekends will be shit forever. I would think if I can get through to 4pm I'll have managed not to drink at Saturday lunchtime and I've read the papers without a glass of wine at my side, I didn't think I could do that. And at 4pm I would think well I've managed so far, I'll get through to 5 etc etc.

(But as I said MSC is probably better at giving responsible, more "professional" advice than me, I'm just sharing what helped me in case it helps anyone else).

SoberMornings · 15/01/2022 15:05

Well there is me saying "one day at a time" got me to twelve years, obviously I can't count as it's only ten years worth of days! I stopped in 2012. Interestingly I can't remember the exact date now, which I never thought would happen.

MissConductUS · 15/01/2022 15:12

@Giviningup, don't think about not drinking in the future. Just get through it one day, one hour at a time. It can be overwhelming to think about never drinking again until you have enough time alcohol free to realize that your life is manageable and better that way.

Bizzywater · 15/01/2022 17:28

As soon as I go to type I forget who I'm replying to!

  • I have been going to the gym during temptation time too, exercise does wonders for my mental health @SoberMornings I think it was you who said this
  • I got through Friday, had a can of Heineken 0% which hit the psychological need for 'something' and after that I was fine
  • @MinnieJackson I think I would feel quite proud that I went out and drank sensibly but I'm not sure that's a helpful thought if you're trying to go sober.
I'm off to BIL house tonight (he and I are drinking buddies so it's a temptation). I have bought a Nozeco and Heineken and told them I'm not drinking. But my god I want to have some wine. So tempted to just do it and see how I go... wasn't at all tempted when I went and bought the AF stuff
Haggisfish3 · 15/01/2022 17:53

I got fit and gave myself permission to drink while I did that. One step at a time. Now I can feel my drinking is stopping me getting even more fit and up early in the morning so it’s more motivation to stay sober. I’m enjoying lots of nice completely non alcoholic type drinks-pineapple and lime, posh hot choc and belvoir farm ones. Just last night I actually fancied the taste of my low alcohol stout.

Lushmetender · 15/01/2022 18:00

I’ve now started drinking freixenet 0%. Not sure it’s too good for me though! Anyway. Whatever gets one through!

MinnieJackson · 15/01/2022 22:00

@Bizzywater thank you. It was such an all consuming feeling of doing it I didn't want to come on here and say I was having such a bad craving. 2 drinks is normal. I won't stay at 2 if I do it again, (don't want to risk it!) so the aim is dont do it again! The benefits have so outweighed the negatives! (Are there any negatives when quitting? Apart from temporary weight gain and cravings I can't think of any!) And I still have money in my bank account. It did kind of help as I didnt enjoy it. Much preferred my coke and soup when I got home in my pjs 😂

I need to get out more in the day so I'm not bored at night, and I don't drink at home, it's just the going out bit I crave if I've been in for days, and being sober is helping this so much.

MinnieJackson · 15/01/2022 22:01

How's everyone feeling?

MissConductUS · 15/01/2022 22:07

I'm good. The men are making dinner. 😀

teaandtoastwithmarmite · 15/01/2022 22:11

I'm good. DH is playing a gig so it's just me and DD. She's just gone to bed and I'm reading my kindle and having a cup of tea.

teaandtoastwithmarmite · 15/01/2022 22:12

@MinnieJackson I saw an advert for a alcohol free pub and lots of comments were saying what's the point but I would absolutely love it Grin

Bizzywater · 15/01/2022 23:14

Well I successfully navigated my first sober social night out in about ... 6 years!!
Feel quite tearful, not sure if it's relief or just that I'm knackered 😂

MissConductUS · 15/01/2022 23:33

Bizzy, it's probably the relief. You were probably anxious about it, and getting sober is an emotional roller coaster in general.

LynnDaBogTrotter · 16/01/2022 05:57

Please can I join your thread? I have had enough of the horrible anxiety and I know drinking is to blame.
I want to stop drinking completely but I’m a little bit frightened in case it’s harder than I have admitted to myself Sad

LynnDaBogTrotter · 16/01/2022 06:07

In fact I’ve just read a quote.,,, roughly speaking if your thinking really hard about whether you have a problem, you have a problem. So I have a problem dont I?
I don’t want to ‘announce’ anything or make any grand declarations I just want to stop 😢

afaloren · 16/01/2022 09:02

Hi @LynnDaBogTrotter and welcome to the thread. You’ll find it’s very welcoming and full of good advice.

The anxiety is the worst. I’m only on Day 13 but already I absolutely love NOT waking up filled with dread. Just take it one day at a time, I’d say. No need for an announcement!

@SoberMornings great post. I love exercise and the booze was making me too tired and feel too shit about myself to do any other than walking the dog. Since giving up the drink I’ve been back at the gym and absolutely loving it. I too like to go in my ‘witching hour’ and it makes such a difference.

Happy Sober Sunday everyone Brew

firefly123 · 16/01/2022 09:40

Welcome @LynnDaBogTrotter great to have you here. Yes think I should definitely do some exercise as that might help me feel better about myself as well as filling some of the trigger wine time!! Day 17 here. Just taking each day

LynnDaBogTrotter · 16/01/2022 09:46

Thank you @afaloren and @firefly123
I’m hoping that with some accountability I can crack this. I don’t want to be a drinker anymore… I have started my day with Craig becks book

Let’s get through day 1

teaandtoastwithmarmite · 16/01/2022 10:11

Day 21 here. Well done @Bizzywater
Welcome @LynnDaBogTrotter you'll find this group a great help.
My friend who I went to see on Friday messaged me yesterday. 'The non alcoholic beers were a good idea' so that's given me confidence Smile. Last night I was too tired to even have non alcoholic beers and went to bed early.

LynnDaBogTrotter · 16/01/2022 10:34

How have you all found other people’s reaction to stopping

teaandtoastwithmarmite · 16/01/2022 10:42

I haven't told anyone outright. My friend stopped about a year ago but her brother didn't even realise. When I've gone out I've just said I'm driving or I've got stuff to do next day or whatever.

teaandtoastwithmarmite · 16/01/2022 10:44

I did go to a friend's party and a guy from work got a round. He did say why are you drinking the non alcoholic shite jokingly but I just said I was driving etc. someone else said ah you should've walked round and I just said I'm cutting down. Just brushed it off like that. Then eventually I'll just say it's been so long since I had a drink I don't fancy it anymore.

LynnDaBogTrotter · 16/01/2022 11:10

I like those ideas, Thanks both 😊

LynnDaBogTrotter · 16/01/2022 11:15

We can do this together Flowers

MissConductUS · 16/01/2022 11:27

When I'm at a social event I get a drink that's ambiguous, like a diet coke with lemon. If you're at a posh restaurant that puts out wine glasses, turn yours upside down when you sit down and the server will take it away without comment.

Most of the time people simply don't care if you're drinking alcohol or not.

Well done ladies. Smile

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