Mindfulness, Moderating and Not Texting In The Kitchen !

[Amdone123]

Morning all..hope you're all ok. Well I had busy weekend. I didn't quite stick to my plans : I drank Friday evening ( didn't eat), and drank last night, too. I don't feel great today but I am looking forward to having a break. I know I want to get back to being af and all its benefits.
I was thinking that I am able to stay in and not drink. My next step will be going out and not going mad !

@youboozeyoulose, awh, hope you're feeling better soon. Rest up and try to sleep if you can.

5th day at gym, and eating well, and small amount wine, sleeping well, so all good so far.
However, friends are coming over this pm as a last hurrah before our term starts tomorrow.
My plans are to mix Prosecco- which is so much lighter than wine, and nosecco, and to be very , very , very mindful.
I want to sleep well tonight , and be hangover free for tomorrow!
Hope you feel better soon @youboozeyoulose, and have a good day all x

Hope you're well soon @youboozeyoulose and good luck for your mindful moderating tonight @buntyforgirls. I was out last night at a booze drenched event, I stayed sober and drive home at a reasonable time and chalked up another dry day. 13 in total in August. Feeling most proud of myself. Dry again today, and looking forward to an early night, I have my period and I don't sleep well whilst I'm on, so need to get to bed early.

@Hohofortherobbers, you should be proud of yourself. You're doing brilliantly. @Buntyforgirls, you can do this.

Ahhh so I had a small glass of wine this evening. Broken dry September on the 1st day! DH and I have PIL staying for a couple of days so we had babysitters and popped out for a meal. However, I shall not best myself up because it was a sensible, impromptu one glass with food and I did not order a second despite the waiter encouraging me with the 'another glass?'

@DirtyDancing well done with your restraint when the waiter came over!

I'm currently up doing work because I can't sleep without my nightly half bottle of red. It's now 12.15am so I can safely say that's day one in the bag.

Hopefully sleep will come more easily tomorrow.

@DirtyDancing, hey you did great just having the 1. That's what it's all about - enjoying it sensibly. I think that's great. I did similar. Got in from work, drank 2 bottles of bud ice cold - just so nice. I then thought well, that's a good start! Go n buy wine n cigarettes now and have a 'good' night but I didn't, so I'm pleased I stopped that thought. Had a bath n got in bed. @youboozeyoulose, well done on Day 1. You'll sleep better tonight.
Hope everyone else OK. If you have a slip up, just keep trying. I've got 2 days now to do nothing. Well, I might do some housework but at least I'm not thinking I'll drink today, hangover tomorrow then be ok for Saturday! That's how I used to think.

Got a feeling I'm going to be glad this is a 30 day month.

Gawd, I've failed! Big time! I'll check in tomorrow- oops, oops and more oops! Xx

Thanks! Felt really groggy this morning though. Just after 1 glass of wine! Seems like having so much a/f time has reset my body against booze! So I'm back on the wagon. Out for dinner tomorrow but will drive. @Amdone123 popcorn ready for the details on this one!!

Morning all ! Popcorn at the ready !
Well, no intention to drink but I know why I did. I've had a strange week wondering why I'm doing this. I lost my mojo. I was even thinking of coming off mumsnet so I could just do what I wanted. I know no one here puts pressure on me. You lot have been great. I put it on myself.
So, a lovely day, sun shining. Thought I'd have a couple of glasses. No. Asked dh to bring another bottle and cigarettes ( I had 11!)
I feel rubbish this morning but the good thing is I now know what I want. I can't moderate where wine is concerned so I'm not drinking it anymore. If I carry on, it will kill me and I won't see my granddaughter grow up. I know that sounds dramatic but it's true. And also the reason I wanted to quit in the first place.
So, tomorrow I don't have to worry about drinking because I'm not going to. This is the last hangover.

@Amdone123 Really glad to hear that you've made that positive decision and decided to stay on Mumsnet! There's no great temptation than when it's a nice day is there.

Do you plan to give up completely or just wine?

I can't remember who on this thread posted mentioned this before but I'm finding the best thing about being AF at the moment is not going through the mental gymnastics of what I'm going to drink/not drink/when/how many. The pressure is off now I don't have to think about it.

@youboozeyoulose, morning. Definitely agree with the mental gymnastics. It's a pain in the neck so it's easier to take it (literally!) off the table. I'm just giving up wine. I can't drink it full stop. I wish I could say I had an allergy to it but then feel bad for people with genuine allergies! Thank you for reminding me of how , well not easy, but easier it is without the pressure. I'll drink lager tomorrow and when I get fed up, I'll drink diet coke. It won't be easy but I have to remember how crap it makes me feel.
I'm not giving up giving up. Hope you're ok. You're doing really well. I know I can get there again.

@Amdone123 You can definitely get there again!

Morning all. Hope you're all ok.
Well, I'm getting ready for my day out. Plan to drink lagers only. No wine ! I felt awful yesterday.
I've had a bad start to September, but I can either sort it out or go out today, get drunk, probably show myself up and suffer tomorrow. Repeat cycle.
Also, if I can drink lagers today and still enjoy myself, I can do it anyday. Today will be challenging but I'm up for it. Wish me luck!

Hi all!!!
Have been busy catching up on/reading how everyone is doing!!
Sorry I’ve been quiet… no particular reason but I’ve been busy/unwell. Am ok now- just a bit run down! Today is day 7 A/F! Considering opening something later but wondering if I’m doing that cos I’m feeling a little flat! So maybe I won’t!
Anyway…
@Amdone123 I love and admire your honesty! And am so glad your staying on MN! We are all in this together and your right there is zero judgement! It will happen to the best of us (slipping up) I’m sure!!!!please remember how many wins you’ve had on this journey too! I hope today goes well xxx
@Buntyforgirls @youboozeyoulose @Hohofortherobbers sounds like you guys are doing well too!!!
And any body else on the thread… hope your good and happy :)

Looking forward to catching up with you all soon on how it’s going xx

Sadly , I have let myself down mj20...
@Amdone123, I could have written this!
I too, reset to old habits , and a bad start to September, and felt like avoiding the thread!
I started with good intentions last night- 2 g and ts, not wine, aim to go home ... but shared bottle of wine came out and I was keen to join in. M and M went out of the window- poof- just like that. And far from being coerced I was full of enthusiasm.
I feel shame and disappointment with myself, but will keep on keeping on.
Good luck moving forward all! X

Hey @Buntyforgirls! Good to hear from you!!
I’m sorry your feeling disappointed etc- but as I said to @Amdone123 try and remember how far you’ve come and how well you’ve been doing!
I’ve often wondered with myself where the line is when it just all goes out the window (as really I’ve had years of trying to be mindful and moderate) and I’m yet to figure it out!
Again- please don’t avoid the thread- we are all here for each other in the good and the bad! Tomorrow’s a new day and I’m sure you’ll feel brighter xxxx

Everyone is doing amazingly. I welcome the honesty on this thread, please all keep sharing your realities. It's the one place I now feel able to come, share, be truthful. It's refreshing and makes me realise I'm human, just doing my best.

A/f weekend. Slight urge for a drink last night but just had an ovaltine instead. Oh how things have changed! lol Next weekend will be harder as meant to be seeing a friend who's big party person, but day by day for me at the moment. Need a plan for that though

Placemarking and popping back tommorow

Hi everyone! I'm alive ! Not kicking but alive. Thanks for all your messages : you're all so lovely and kind.
Well, yesterday...oops. I was determined not to drink wine, so much so that I didn't want to go. But I had to. Met at 1pm after an hour's travel, lots of waiting around for others, queuing , bag searches. Painful. Got into the arena for the show. Ordered a large glass of wine. The show was awful. At the interval I looked at my dsis and knew she felt the same ( we're very close !), I said I'm going to a bar. She felt awful leaving but I couldn't bear the thought of another 90 minutes. I was just honest with my lovely neice who organised it. So we sat in a bar and had a laugh. And I drank wine. Meal good. Nightclub fun - some lovely videos of me dancing ( great!). Don't remember getting home.
Anyway, I've been thinking about getting a Lifecoach for a while so I found one, messaged her and she's ringing me tomorrow for a chat.
I really want to give up. I can't do it anymore. I know I've done really well with you lot, and I know I can do it but I need help ! Professional help ! I know I sound dramatic at times but once again, it's beautiful outside - I want to be out there, walking, enjoying it, but once again, I'm lay in bed, eating macdonalds and drinking gallons of diet coke !!
I'm still on here obviously. You're all a great support and I'm so pleased for those managing to stay af - or at least, moderating. I desperately want that again. At least I've no plans now til Xmas so I can dedicate myself to making some changes.

@Amdone123, I do hope you are feeling better, physical and emotionally.x
I’m in a similar place, and feeling flat and a little anxious about things that I was coping well with. Sleep is dreadful too.
Well done for your positive actions.
Well done for those continuing to moderate, I am taking it all one day at a time I think, now, as projecting and planning didn’t seem to work out.
Onwards and upwards!!

@Buntyforgirls, I'm feeling fine, thanks. Just so confused as to how I can be adamant that I'm not touching it again and then, there it is in my hand. I wasn't even craving it. I just needed it I suppose because I am addicted.
Weird how planning is a double edged sword for some of us. I have to plan but of course that means I'm always thinking about it ! It's a bit like being 'on a diet ' - you probably eat more cos you're thinking about it!!
Sorry you're feeling a bit down and anxious. You're right to just take it one day at a time. It will be ok.

Morning all!!!
Hope everyone is doing ok today!
So yesterday I decided to drink… half way through a bottle of Prosecco I got another bottle of wine in…. But luckily finished the Prosecco (over the course of a couple of hours) and decided I was done!!! Thank goodness- or I’d of been regretting that today!!!
@Amdone123 well done on this positive step! I believe any self development is the way forward! Keep us posted how you get on with the life coach!
@Buntyforgirls I hope your doing ok and anxiety etc is settling a little…

Sending everyone lots of positivity for a good week ahead :) xx

Morning all ! Well done, @Mj20, that was a success ! I remember you saying that you might have one. You're doing really well. @Buntyforgirls, how yer feeling today?
I woke up, a bit fed up, but I slept terribly. I obviously don't sleep after a session, but now it's even bad the day after. Anyway, I've just spoken to the lifecoach. I'll give you more details later - but basically, she said I sound like I've done a lot of work ( I have!!), and that there's just one step left. She's been there so that's good.
Have a great day everyone.