Day one and onwards

[Hazelnutmochi]

Thread two for those on the 'day one for those starting out' thread. New joiners very welcome 😀

Afternoon!

I did have a couple of cans of beer on Saturday and Sunday night, but nothing like I used to drink so not so bad.

Now back on the wagon again and will not have anything to drink this week.

@Ynwa12345 Day 18 is brilliant! Well done x

Hi all, glad everyone made it through the weekend without any huge mishaps. All ok here, just fecking bored and trying to avoid my new addiction (sugar)!

@Sneachta I started the Pembrokeshire murders last night too. Only did the first episode so far but seems ok. Just finished the serpent which is worth a watch. With nytol dont mess about with the herbal crap, get the one-a-night from over the counter. I'm horribly addicted to it. Have been taking it for years and if I forget I'm wide awake at 2 or 3 for hours. If I take it, I still wake up often but get back to sleep much easier.

I've been looking at holidays lots and just wish I could book something. Vaccine drive seems to be going ok so fingers crossed.

Well done on your day 18 @Ynwa12345 do you reckon you will drink in Feb?

@HearMeRoarr glad you enjoyed Nina is not ok. Have you watched The Queens Gambit, or read it? That's a good one.

Morning everyone @writingsonthewall I binge watched the Pembrokeshire murders it does get really really good. I’m a sucker for true crime.
@Ynwa12345 great achievement on day 18 I’m sorry you’ve not been sleeping too well. Weirdly I have had two aweful nights sleep again. Sunday night Ddog decided my head was the best pillow on earth! And last night I’ve sleep funny and hurt my neck. This week is not my week!
Last night I had an argument with a neighbour as my DD was out playing on her scooter on the street and mardy bugger neighbour shouted at her for absolutely no reason and made her cry DD is very sensitive and I was watching her via our cctv so I’m absolutely positive she’d done nothing wrong. And i absolutely lost my shit with him. Not my finest moment but he has a history of bullying the kids on the street and because DD was the only one out playing last night she was his only target. Not on my watch! I was so mad. I went from normal lovely me to the demon baby out of the incredibles in 0.5 seconds. Wanted a drink so badly to calm down but I didn’t so I am proud of myself for that.
Sorry for the massive ranty essay!

Morning everyone! I need to get on the Pembrokeshire murders too but finishing randomly watching old master chef on Netflix I life a cooking programme but can't actually cook myself? Literally I can't cook. I made the Christmas Dinner but come on that was roasting a turkey in oven.
@LegallyBlondeee wow neighbour sounds like a right c £#*&++++++++ what the hell? What did he say to make her cry? Poor dd. People literally have nothing to do! It's sad. Can u imagine putting this on aibu or something they be like Oh you are ageist and the guy has mental health problems (coz obvs everyone in mn knows people irl who ppl post about!) ha but u know it's no excuse to shout at a little person... I'm sk lucky my neighbours are absolutely amazing I'm good friends with one. She has also stopped and started drinking through out the years. She ended up in rehab tho but she's doing dry Jan with me now.
Day 19. I feel still a bit I can't explain it I think too much just as I'm about to sleep about past trauma mainly. Horrible family situations and in laws etc I thought I'd got over a few things but clearly not. My counsellor once said u just have to sit in all those bad awkward feelings instesd of drinking to block it.. Anyway I have issues with my tax do need to phone the tax people which takes an hour to get through!

Oh and @writingsonthewall I'm not sure about Feb. Right now I have no desire whatsoever to drink wine I've gone completely off it. So let's see what happens come Feb. Its really good the try dry app where u tick off the days so you see all these ticks in a row and money saved calories saved etc etc.
I was wondering @LegallyBlondeee do u get the vaccine soon as you are a health care worker?
Hope everyone is well.
Home schooling is urgh.

@Ynwa12345
I’m wouldn’t dare post that in aibu they’d throw me to lions 😂.
I’m not a health care worker, although I can’t tell
You what my actual job to roll is ( all very secretive and yet very very boring) I work in a sector that supports public safety and national security. So I will be the last on the list given my age. I do know many people that have had the vaccine though and the spectrum of side effects is very wide from practically zero to feeling like full blown flu.

Ooo secret MI5 job @LegallyBlondeee??? I actually went to apply for a job with the MI5 looked really interesting but I didn't in the end... Lol
Hope everyone is OK? @Sneachta? How's it going?
I'm hitting a brick wall with my positiveness currently and me and H are fighting more and more. I don't get why he doesn't go for his runs anymore in the morning I have found he's better when he's exercised. We bought a rower on finance but we haven't received it yet so maybe when that comes we can use it (and the fing kids don't break it) I feel shitty as not done enough exercise either.
Anyway let's hope covid pisses off now.
Also don't worry about days and how many etc you have to be happy with what you achieve and what your goals are. I don't know what will happen once Feb 1st comes but just taking one day at a time!

@Ynwa12345 lol!!! Unfortunately no not MI5 although. I did once date a guy that did work for MI5 at some point, and he was a free mason, real weird guy. Safe to say that relationship didn’t last long lol!
Sorry your DH is getting right on your tits. I go from once extreme where I hate the way DH breathes to being almost teenager like in love. DD is away this weekend so we’ve planned a nice nap tomorrow afternoon after work. How sad that I’m looking forward to a nap! Lol

Ooh I'm intrigued by the top secret job too! I want an interesting secret job.

Day 150! No clue how I've got here, day 90 actually feels like only a few weeks ago.

Well done on day 150 @writingsonthewall!!! Absolutely amazing!

Morning everyone. I PASSED 6 MONTHS last Thurs. I'm currently 188 days congratulations to you all on your days, writing 150 indeed how quick did that come around.

Difficulties logging on now as all at home like yourselves in the UK, 2 ipads broken so I throw one my phone. We know home schooling is going to on till Paddys Day. The SN schools aren't back, they were, then they werrnt, they were, now not. Just a big fat mess over here.

Ymna the DH is still off it too? That's deadly (even if he is driving you nuts)

Still have the very odd day when I'm angry I cant drink but revert back to some notes about alcholol stats etc and it goes away. Kids at home do not help the stress levels. I am so pissed off as I was really beginning to self care. Now I'm wrecked again

Next book on kindle is the Nothing Man?? Supposed to be good. Oh and Married at First Sight Aus season 6 is really keeping me going, daft bunch

Hi @Sneachta I did wonder where you had got to but I didn't get a notification as I always do for someone writing on this thread!!!
6 bloody months omg that's a massive achievement you are amazing hats off to u!!!! With the kids and esp SN and you working it must be so difficult esp when you were in a routine with self care. I feel the same in a way had my middle of day back and working Sundays and that's all gone to shot... I had my vaccine Saturday felt really wierd and out of sorts up until yday. And now I can work a hit more at ease the work has dried up due to covid and now there's all this stuff about vaccines not coming etc it's all a bloody mess. But yes not drinking still im on day 27 now. I do think about the drink but last night my H and I were lying on the rare occasion in bed (while the kids were watching ipad in my room) and we were giggling and all sorts like we were drunk but we hadn't touched a drop! Was hilarious and put a smile on my face I'm hoping he doesn't drink after Feb 1st but let's see.... Hope everyone else is OK x

Glad you're feeling better @Ynwa12345 and how lovely to hear you and your h having a giggle together. Hope he decides to stay off it after Jan.

Well done on your 6 months @Sneachta that's brilliant.

All ok here. Off to Charing Cross hospital tomorrow to take part in a vaccine trial so am excited for a fat out!! That's as exciting as it gets at the mo!!

Well done on all the days everyone!
Congratulations on 6 months @Sneachta, that's amazing! Well done. I'm also watching MAFS Aus, so funny. I've kind of ruined it for myself though and googled to see who is still together.

157 days today! Feeling pretty positive at the moment. Have so much energy and feel so much calmer.

Hi @Hazelnutmochi congrats on your days really really amazing! I'm on day 28 now seems like it's been longer this time just this month but I've done it before so can do it again.... Also feeling slightly calmer but I'm always annoyed with one thing or another drink or not hahaha but helps me deal with situations better...

Thanks @Ynwa12345! I still can't believe it.
Well done on 28 days, you can definitely do it. What's your plan after dry Jan? I find it do much easier to cope with things now sober, took a while for my mind to stop automatically going to wine though. I have a sweet treat every evening when dd is down now and really look forward to it. DH made some chocolate hazelnut brownies the other day which are amazing!

Sounds amazing I wish i could bake! Is your DH also sober? I am having profiteroles as I type wiping choc over my screen lol
Home schooling is dire and I felt bad today as I went mental at eldest... Took him to the park after his afternoon log in call and there were loads of ppl I was like don't play footie as its physical contact but he did what can I do?
@writingsonthewall how was it today?????

That sounds so tough @Ynwa12345, I am grateful I have a preschooler!
DH is a very moderate drinker, he would probably drink a bottle of beer in the time I would drink a bottle of wine! He can very much take it or leave it.

Hi @Hazelnutmochi and @Ynwa12345 glad you're both doing well. Well done on your days, 1st Feb tomorrow ynwa, are you going to carry on? What about your h?

Where the heck is everyone else?

@Ineedaslap
@SaladBowlsAndBasinsAndBuckets
@LegallyBlondeee
@HearMeRawwr

Hope you're still good @Sneachta
And come back Rupert and @Newernewist

I'm ok. Day 160 today I think. Will be 6 months on 24th Feb. Quite unbelievable really. I still have my moments but all manageable. I'm mostly concerned with how I will
Manage when life goes back to normal. Espec in the summer when the sun is out. Sunshine always makes me want to drink more. Pub gardens, holidays, bbqs, festivals. I could so easily go back to square 1! Still, will worry about that later on.

My vaccine trial Jab was fine. I reckon I had the placebo though as zero symptoms. But that's fine, I don't mind. Both my parents are booked in for their vaccine next week so that's good.

Hi @writingsonthewall. You are doing so well! Wish I was.
I've had a trying weekend so have had wine.
I'm going to try and start again, but need the relaxing effect at the moment.
Hope everyone else is doing better

Hi @writingsonthewall hope you are well amazing journey and I can't believe it's coming up to 6 months... So glad I found you all through this thread.
I'm not sure what will happen I forgot it's Feb 1st tomo! H says he's opening champagne.. Er OK.
Glad your parents are getting the vaccine! I had to Google when will lockdown end I'm so so fed up of it honestly I'm done in and it's effecting the kids so much. I haven't been feeling well I need to see the doc I think for the old water works!
@Ineedaslap good on u for trying and for coming on the thread. I found when I was drinking I felt I couldn't write but it helps every little bit and no judging going on.
Yes @Newernewist where r u and I hope you are OK
@Hazelnutmochi I think I Complain too much hahaha when H was working long hours he was never around so at least he showers one of the kids in the evenings everynow and then! Hehe
@LegallyBlondeee how's it going love?

Hi @Ynwa12345 it’s legally, I had to name change as I thought i recognised a post from someone I knew IRL. Things are so good. DSis in law has had a miscarriage and I don’t know what to do for her, what to say to her as she is utterly heartbroken. She’s my best friend in the whole world and we’ve been through so much together at it’s breaking my heart I can’t be there for her in person to cuddle her while she cries. So we’ve had a bit a of a heavy weekend. I’m off the drink again from today though as I did feel better when I wasn’t drinking c l

That sound say not so good

Oh no @FingerDancer I'm so so sorry to hear this as you have said how close you are with sil. My condolences. Life is shit enough at the moment I don't blame u for drinking... And the fact you can't give her a squeeze is even worse. Hang in there...

@Ynwa12345 it’s utterly crap. I miss her so much. I’ve been best friends with her for 17 years. Me and DH have only been married 3 years. Safe to say she wasn’t impressed when she found out me and her brother were at it 😂. Think I’m going to go for a shower and get some clean pjs on and watch bridgerton for the 15 millionth time with a Diet Coke in a posh glass!
Hope your okay? What’s your plans from February onwards? It’s DDs birthday next weekend so I might have a few drinks next weekend to celebrate. X