What wouldn't you admit out loud ?

[2ndNatureTime]

Im sure they'll be lots of judgement on here as always but here we go

I really wish I hadn't married my 1st husband. He was a loser and still is.
I find 99% of kids so dull

But not everyone graduates from university so it is an achievement? That level of graduation and above are really the only ones that are an achievement in the UK. It's slightly different in other countries regarding high school graduation, but graduating from nursery?

It's cute, but ridiculous!

I have stealth quit my job
I live my daughter but being her mum is a living hell at times

I have watered my lawn once a week with sometimes the hose (at 2am!), sometimes the watering can. It's very small, 4 steps long to walk it, 2 steps wide. But it's full of clover which is what our inherited tortoise likes to eat a lot of. I've let some of the grass grow long too because the cat likes to eat it as she's very poorly and always feeling sick.. and there's no grass anywhere to help her. I try to justify it because it's animal feed/care but I do feel bad.

I also don't like children much, esp young children. I hate the sound of their screaming voices, it's like nails down a chalk board and I especially don't like some parents these days, doing a terrible job bringing up their children.

I have my own business with my husband, it's been amazing for my family, but I'm 60 next year and really can't see a way of getting out of it . Today I spent all day today fictitiously training someone...I couldn't stop the training dialog in my head - I think I'm cracking up 😂😂

I suspect more people feel that way than we realise, it’s just not something you say out loud. I can honestly say, without being melodramatic, that I wish I had never been born. I’m not even depressed. On the contrary, as I type I feel fine. I just think life is awful - an utter horror show - and that it’s better never to exist.

When I look at my own future, I shudder. My mother is about to enter her 80s, and I am about to enter my 50s. The human body is a piece of sh*t that constantly breaks down and tortures us in countless ways, and the older you get the worse it gets. Our medicine is a joke. Frankly, we’re still in the medical dark ages. We can’t cure a goddam thing. Cancer, Alzheimer’s, MND, depression, hair loss, insomnia, Parkinson’s, you name we can’t cure it. I dread the next 20 or 30 years. I wish there was some way out, but there isn’t. Too many people love and depend on me.

We really ought to think twice before we inflict life on a child.

That I really dread my DH dying before me.
I know he would cope OK without me because he is far more self-sufficient but I fear I would struggle dreadfully without him and become kind of rudderless and I don't want to become that awful sort of elderly mother who leans on her children too much

Don't feel guilty animals are precious.

I love this 🤣

Would happily never shag my lovely DH ever again given half the chance

Same.

That one of the reasons I'm so happy I have DS now is it puts men off. I'm now fatter and greyer than I was pre DS, and determined to stay single. I don't want to share a house and compromise my way of life. I've also got the ick with men in a really big way, because of the way women and children suffer at their hands.

Somehow my brain doesn't let me think too far into the future. I've been married 3 times but to me they are separate identities of myself. I could probably marry another 3 times and think nothing of it. I can't tell anyone that's how I feel. Right now I'm on me V5. I'm not reinventing myself but just classifying periods of my life. Life is for living and I want to live my best life.

If any of my children are still living at home when they're 29 I'll definitely be skinning up 😂

I am so jealous of people with normal happy lives . Feel like I never had this .
I dislike my DD as she is incredibly self absorbed
I don't think I really love anyone or would be devastated if they were gone
I think I am a bad person who tries too hard to be good .

I’ve told my husband and made vague mutterings of “ I’d never put you through that “ to the girls re what I went through with my darling dad but not as straightforward s I’ve been on here….at least I’m not the only one who feels this way…un MN hugs to you x

That's fair, 100%

Also one of the nicest things about getting older is that am now invisible to men. I love it. Leery comments, being looked up and down, tits stared out have all pretty much stopped. I always hated harassment like that.

Oooooh yes my lovely ,felt that way for a number of years….x

That I really, really dislike my SIL. She’s rude, entitled, always plays the victim. Worst of all my parents have helped DB & her out such a lot (practically & financially) but she is never grateful and can be so critical of them when they do so much with the best of intentions.

I think DB has been squished down by her too. He’s kind of just a shadow of himself. I can’t say anything tho cos my DM would be sad.

They would not be okay with it so that’s why I don’t say it out loud!

I believe that's one of the main unspoken motivators of marriage.

Strangely enough, the exact same thing happened to me. I've been quite bitter in the past about how he used me in a multitude of ways, because he was too much of a coward to live the one life that we all get, honestly and freely. We were together for 7 years. I think there should be some sort of law regarding doing this to someone. I know that there won't ever be but it's completely immoral. I don't know whether to be open with the children about it. It's an awful position to be in.
Anyway, love to you ❤️

I wish I didn't have such an offensive opinion.

I think children are the meaning of life and I feel incredibly sorry for those who don't feel that warmth, love and nurture for children.

I also feel that although the earth is overpopulated, I don't see the point if you don't have kids.

I feel that having children, who have children, who have children, that part of me will stay alive through them once I am gone.

Most of my friends don't want kids

For years I have had in depth romantic fantasies about a man swooping in and saving me from my life. I would never admit that in the last 2 years I gave in to the urge to do this about a man I know in real life. I felt guilty and disgusted at first but couldn't stop. He made the mistake of being kind to me once. I just wanted that feeling to last a bit longer.

You’re my kindred spirit. I love this!

I worry that I'll never recover when my parents die. I had a very normal 1970s childhood, my parents never had much money but my siblings and I all agree that we had a wonderful childhood. We all felt completely loved and accepted just as we were, and we still do! I'm married with my own children now but I still feel so loved by my parents and I can't imagine my life without them