What I couldn’t understand was he should have been in absolute agony. But he didn’t appear in any physical pain nor did he react like he was in physical pain.
I googled it, and apparently adrenaline and endorphin surges due to acute mental health crisis or manic episodes can mask pain so you don’t feel it,
he has previously expressed he was struggling with deep regret and shame due to his gossip past, and being publicly disliked, and on this horrific video he was saying this is what ever one wants etc
which does appear linked, but the fact he could do all that to himself and not feel it , not react in pain, for me is really shocking, and shows just how severe this was. He couldn’t even feel what he was doing.
He will bear a lot of scars as he mutilated himself,and I hope for everyone’s sake, inc his own, he gets the help he needs to recover. Both physically and mentally as he won’t need a constant reminder every time he looks at himself.