How did your body hold on to trauma ??

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I think mine was most likely brain fog

Lethargy

(Binge eating too) !!!

Chronic back neck and shoulders pain and hyper vigilance.

It's all gone to my lower back, lots of tension, and the hyper vigilance

Irritable bowel
Insomnia
Neck and upper back pain.

Aches and pains and hyper villigence . I always jump to the worst case scenario too.

Hyper vigilance, and I can't scream. I've had to teach myself to break out of the freeze response. I want a personal alarm that shouts phrases like 'fire'.
(Oh and I forgot the IBS.)

I'm not sure if this can be called trauma. But I was on jury service for many months on a horrific case a few years ago. I can't remember many details now or the other jurors. Just a mind blank

Chronic illness, fatigue, pain, PTSD, depression, anxiety, binge eating, etc etc

@HappyMamma2023 I wonder about this, do they provide you with mental health support/follow up?

All of the above, plus dreadful chest pain.

Memory loss of/before the traumatic event.

Lethargy.

Extreme tension and pain in back and neck.

Feeling completely dead inside.

FND and ME it has been completely debilitating

PTSD for several years

I've had M.E since the age of 14 and I'm now 46, it was due to being sexually abused at the age of 4. I also have CPTSD, anxiety and depression.

Hypervigilance.
Constantly physically tense.
Anorexia as a teen, still have anorexic tendencies (don't eat when stressed, worry about being overweight if I've gained, say, three pounds).
Trouble going to sleep/staying asleep.
Tight hips.
Headaches.
I hold my breath a lot when triggered—so doing it deliberately for yoga, swimming etc makes me feel panicky.
Being almost physically unable to be in the same room as my mother.
Recently, gut issues.
Not sure if this counts as physical or mental, but phobias around being seen/looked at closely (some days it's hard to go out in public; hairdressers & dentists are impossible).

CPTSD, poor sleep, sometimes terrible neck pain, brain fog and I also have cancer as does my brother. We had a really hard childhood into early adulthood. I can be quite awkward socially but I think it’s more down to the CPTSD than anything else. But I also have wonderful skills, empathy, high emotional intelligence. Also I can cry for other people but not for myself.

It’s better these days but I started getting terrible hives just after I left my ex. They got so bad my feet swelled up till I couldn’t walk, they were all on my hands, torso, neck. They got less frequent and severe over time and 15ish years later they’re rare but it was like my body was reacting to the stress that had been building up while I tried to leave and once I was out of it the reaction could come out. Not sure it that makes any sense.

Lower back pain bloody awful

Blanked out most of my school days. If I do remember stuff it’s like I’m remembering a book I read or that it happened to someone else.

Binge eating and being enormously fat 😞
I can diet very well when my life is going ok, but the minute there’s an issue or stress I’m completely derailed.

Same for me and also acid reflux/ globus sensation

Have you read The Body Keeps The Score?

Crushing exhaustion
ongoing undiagnosed illness

This is quite timely as today I've stared listening to The Body Keeps The Score audiobook, if you haven't read it, it's probably worth a read.

I had EMDR therapy which made a big difference. I didn’t even realise I had trauma although I knew my childhood was shit in places. Coming to terms with those emotions that I buried was hard and I recommend doing it in therapy so there is someone with you to help with the distress. I still hold it decades later.
i was hyper vigilant, flinched and moved to protect myself if people moved quickly around me. Constant background buzz of anxiety although perhaps this is adhd. Or perhaps the adhd is actually trauma. Constantly restless and ready to run away from my life without looking back.

Fibromyalgia - and even getting the diagnosis accepted was a battle (I had nine and a half months off, but did return to a very draining and stressful job full-time).
I’m now about to retire (luckily I can) due to not being able to maintain working full-time (if I had chosen to go part-time it would have affected my pension adversely).
I believe my illness came about due to an abusive marriage, both of my DCs having significant health issues and then losing my DDad in a very brutal way. It all took its toll on me. I also have osteoarthritis and have significant pain because of it.

Yes such an amazing book.

I’m sure a highly stressful period (domestic abuse) caused or at least contributed to my cancer diagnosis.