How did your body hold on to trauma ??

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I think mine was most likely brain fog

Lethargy

(Binge eating too) !!!

I woke up at 2am with the worst pain in my back imaginable, took my breath away. Woke DH sobbing, and he took me to A and E where they rushed me into resus thinking it was a heart attack. I was kept in for 24 hours where they dismissed this and referred back to GP....once the sharp pain subsided, I had awful general chest pain that radiated from my sternum down to my lower ribs. Even breathing was painful. it took months of tests and finally I saw a different GP from our surgery who knew straight away what it was. First episode lasted about 4 months, and was greatly helped by an osteopath and long term naproxen use. I'm still prone to it now - after a few A and E trips just to be sure, I now just ride it out but it's never as bad as the first time.

I was at the birth of my grandchild and no breath or audible sound after delivery for 19 minutes. Baby was resuscitated by the crash team and whisked off to neonatal unit. The horror of thinking that the baby might not survive and trying to support daughter and SIL was unimaginable. Baby is now absolutely thriving thank god ,but the consequences for me ,was that I couldn’t remember babies name for a few weeks when referring to baby. I had to pause for a few secs every time.It really rattled and upset me .
Am sure the shock just blanked my brain out. We didn’t know baby name until the next day so hadn’t had any thoughts beforehand.

My brain suppresses it and tortures me in my sleep instead. Nightmares where you think you've woken up and are still in the nightmare are not fun. I always thought it was something that happened in films.
I have to get up to wake up properly before going back to sleep.

Trauma stored in the extra pounds I’ve been carrying for years (only now melting off due to jabs )
Chronic back pain on one side

Hyper vigilance and extremely jumpy all the time. Constant state of anxiety and fear. Clenched jaw. Catastrophise everything. Stomach and gut issues.
My trauma continues, it's been 40 years, abusive violent husband, then abusive manipulative son. Now we care for sons daughter, our much adored granddaughter and son uses her to abuse me. There's no escape, this is my life.

OCD, extreme reaction to loud noises.

I'm so so sorry

Gosh this is shocking

I'm so sad to read all of this

What has helped if anything??

@MarySueSaidBoo, I get costochondritis too. It’s part of my fibromyalgia, so I tape it with sports tape if it gets too bad. Two years ago I ended up getting private investigations as it caused referred breast pain. It radiates from my back all the way round to my front. Sometimes it affects my sternum too.

dissociative disorder !!

Inability to ever truly relax and enjoy being in the moment. Always expecting the worst. I just got back from a beautiful luxury spa weekend but honestly found the whole thing exhausting to the point of feeling physically unwell with stress by the end of it. Fear of everything from train crashing, bombing, food poisoning, bed bugs. I've been home 4 days and I'm exhausted and wish I never went.

Acne

It’s very good, you should

Over eating to make myself unlovable.

permanent belief in unworthiness.

chronic lower back pain.

i’m having counselling now and also reading The Body Keeps The Score. I’ve never considered my childhood and early adulthood experiences were traumatic and abusive. But now I do.

My sleep pattern is currently haywire and I seldom get more than 4 hours a night. I’m hopeful that this will eventually settle when I’ve reached a point of equilibrium.

Cracked a tooth open due to my teeth grinding.
IBS
Huge number of food intolerances.
Absolute inability to withstand any shouting. At all.

All due to DA for 20+ years.

I too never considered my childhood majorly traumatising or abusive. I am estranged from DM by my choice and know she’s a narcissist but my therapist decided to dig into it this week and I’m horrified. So many things I’d forgotten until she probed. I’ve been on the verge of tears since then every day.

It developed fibromyalgia.

I've developed psoriasis on my hand, and I believe that's due to trauma. I also developed parasomnias, like night terrors and sleep walking.
ETA - bruxism

I listened to the body keeps score on Audible and I found it fascinating but I couldn't help thinking how it could potentially be traumatising to read / listen to some of the examples of abuse he talks about, especially if your own experiences were similar / if you haven't yet fully acknowledged or processed them.

Those of you who have read it and did have truly awful early life experiences, did you find reading it triggering? I really want to recommend it to a friend but not sure if it risks being overwhelming.

Lethargy.
heart problems
withdrawn
just want to be left alone.
cant stop overeating
so so restless

Non epileptic attack disorder and CPTSD

Horrendous irritable bowel. Which in itself became so debilitating that I couldn’t go out without having a panic attack. Vicious cycle.

I’m going to say kidney cancer. I also suffer from IBS, bruxism and the resulting neck, shoulder and back pain.

I worry and stress all of the time and I swear it is this that led to kidney cancer. The adrenal glands sit on top of the kidney and I swear they just pump adrenaline out 24/7 and that’s why I developed kidney cancer.

Constant daily headaches morphing into weekly one sided migraines, tense neck and shoulder pain, chronic constipation, relentless insomnia, racing heart, tremors. Mental side effects- dissociate when in stressful situations, hypervigilance, agoraphobia, depression, paranoia, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, surges of adrenaline, panic attacks, sky high cortisol levels. All courtesy of my narcissistic mother, psychopathic sibling and the flying monkeys. Not only did I endure an abusive childhood but they continue to abuse me to this day; they hate me but just won't leave me alone and get kicks out of slandering my name and ruining my reputation. Not one person in the entire extended family has ever stood up for me or shown an ounce of compassion - I'm the family punchbag. It brings them closer together to have a common enemy - me.

Apathy, idiopathic heart failure, insomnia- 4 hours is a full night for me, having quite a detailed plan B for when/if my current lovely life implodes and the horrors I lived under for too long return.