It's the nightly 'why are you awake' post

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My sleep is all over the place.
Woke at 5 am yesterday, was in bed at 8pm, and now wide awake

Stressful time at work, and peri not aiding in being well rested.

Also had this weird cold virus for 2 weeks!

I'm always awake. 3-4 hours sleep maximum a night. Been the same for 20 years or so.

I wish I wasn't. Been uncomfortable, then got itchy, then baby crying, then had another shower, now waiting for new audiobook to download on audible. I haven't felt like this since pregnant.

Dickhead partner been snapping at me for two weeks. Spoken about it together and now feel a bit deflated and got a few other things going on too.

About to go to sleep
OH is snoring loudly
Woke up about 10.40am this morning and had a quick 10min nap during the day. I love to sleep!! Not a morning person(unless on holiday!)

I was in huge pain last night (stomach problems) so am up a bit warily hoping it doesn't happen again.

Think I'll put on a program and then try to settle as long as no pain develops.

At work-night shift. On my break having some cornflakes

tendonitis
acid reflux
intrusive thoughts
laundry to do

On call and went to bed early but now I’m awake and hungry

I'm usually a great sleeper. Have been waking up around 2am for an hour r so for a few weeks now. Not every night but a few times a week. I just woke up about 20min ago, convinced my 17yr old was calling me. I even txt him to ask. Couldn't settle (he has a room.on a different level) went to him, he's out cold. Now I'm in and out of everyone's room checking on them because I just can't settle. Feel totally anxious now and am currently googling 'going mad in the middle of the night' surprisingly, from my reading I'm convinced in peri menopausal.

Because I heard heavy breathing outside my window and got really scared. I looked outside and nothing is there so now I'm googling what animal I'm hoping it could be 😳

I had a few hours sleep earlier and then got up to do schoolwork and laundry!

Now I can’t sleep though, as I need to check my pre-teen’s phone and it looks like he’s changed his passcode. He definitely has something to hide 😞

I'm in Aus. Hot and sticky today. Hope you all get some shut eye soon.

Can’t sleep either… bloody hormones it’s the same every month and the kids will defs be up in 5 hours 😭😭

Yikes - all stopped now?

I'm also really thirsty and would love a cu0 of tea but I have this weird irrational fear of being downstairs alone in the dark. If I wake dh he would probably come with me but he was really exhausted tonight so feel bad.

I think so... I feel silly for it scaring me so much, I even hovered over pets to see if they were breathing strangely but it was definitely coming from outside front window. I looked outside with the lights off and saw no one and no movement but it's really freaked me out. Went on about 15 minutes... I was so tempted to set the alarm off to scare someone away but didn't want to be a dickhead to my neighbours. Apparently owls and hedgehogs can make heavy breathing noises bit I'd like them to bugger off elsewhere... While hoping it was that!

@Bitsiemcgee are you in an upstairs bedroom? Now I'm adding this to my irrational things to worry about list!

I'm up worrying about our parents. DH's mum is having a full-on breakdown, panic attacks and delusions, and won't let anyone help her. My Dad has Alzheimer's and his partner- who is his carer and is just such an amazing human being, we all adore her - has just been diagnosed with inoperable cancer of the oesophagus. We'll be finding out more about her prognosis in a couple of days and my brain is running wild with thoughts about how much pain she might have to go through, how unfair it is that she doesn't get to enjoy her retirement and what the fuck we are going to do about my dad, who won't accept he has dementia, won't handle grief well and lives 300 miles away. We don't drive and we're the only people who would really be able to care for him, except we don't have room and he would refuse to move anyway.

Sorry for the trauma-dump am going to go and make some chamomile tea anyone else fancy a cup?

Peri makes me anxious when I'm awake in the night

I'm sitting in the living room with my dog on the ground floor... Looking at YouTube videos of hedgehog noises like a sane person to try and make myself feel better 🙈 I've left a light on and doubt I'll be getting much sleep! I've never heard anything like it, it was like darth vader breathing out on the glass

@sprigatito , I’m sorry. What a lot to deal with 💐

I'm up with the DC who has a raging fever and cough, for the second night running.

Woken up by partner coming to bed and snoring in my face, then stayed awake with aches and pains so decided to get up for a bit. I've still got ear plugs in which feels odd. He'll snore until about 5am when he'll be dead to the world ubtil his alarm goes off. Bastard.

Having finally turned the corner with Covid, I appear to have run out of sleep 😑

Pain, and fedupness