I'm not saying I should not pay it I have not said that at all . I had not realised thete is an a email I can write to if I have problems paying so I will do that.
I'm just a bit upset that environmental have emptied it all over the floor etc. And then said you did that. When in fact it was all inside the big box. Tje other stuff was in the actual bin. I should not have out the white bits of wood there.
How can I fly tip my own front garden? I'm hoping they can't take mire pics of my garden because i can't afford to get that taken judt now.
No excuse I get that . And I get that I was extremely selfish. But I was trying to make things better in the house. Life has been awful for a very long time.
My own son has been physically violent to me. He's bigger than me. This went on for a long time also smashing my house up on lots of occasions. It's been awful. Things that my younger children witnessed and had to live with . There's been times I have not bedn able to bath/shower for weeks on end because I have been to scared to leave the room.
My son also tried to kill himself.
My grandson was almost put onto care due to my daughter suffering DV my side of the family and her had to be moved fast under life in danger because of her ex . He's in prison now .
There lots of stuff I have not added. But its been hell there's been times I wounder if my kids are better without me. Logically I know that's not true . But it just felt it .
Things have started to get better . Hence getting the house sorted. Trying to make it into a better home a nice place to be etc. It's never Been just about the house it ran deeper than that.
I understand that does not make it ok I know what I done was wrong I get that .
I'm going to back of from the thread. I should never have made it.