Right so. For the most part when leadership were there I was fine. Didn’t say or do anything stupid.
towards the middle of the evening I went for a cigarette and the door knocked me a bit and one guy went “ooo steady on” but it was just that the door knocked me. And yes I was tipsy but not totally messed up.
later in the night I think I walked over and said that was rude making out like I’m some p*sshead. I also touched his arm for no reason while I said this. I then had no recollection of the rest of the conversation at all because he brought me a shot.
But by the end. My close colleague and I had a couple more and by the end it was both of us and a few others. As my close colleague and I were heading home I fell over and then because of the motion in the taxi I took home with her I had to step out and throw up.
My colleague and I are at the same level and have gone on nights out together and got like this before. But I just still feel ashamed of myself.
I’m so embarrassed and I’m supposed to be applying for a leadership role. What do I do?