[quote AgnesWestern]@RedToothBrush I look for humanity in everyone, but I don’t always find it. I’m really struggling with Putin. He probably cares about his own children and grandchildren, but no one else’s. Obviously there are people throughout history who did completely evil and disgusting things, but I’m not sure anyone is ‘born evil’.
For the record, I think Putin is a horrible human being, I just meant I can’t give up hopes on peace talks and an end to all this, as it feels like giving up completely, to me anyway, others will have different opinions I know.
I’m lucky in that I’ve been cushioned from harm and I grew up in the 90s and early 2000s (born in 89) so haven’t had to experience much myself and I know I’m very fortunate in that sense.[/quote]
I think I find the concept of 'innocence' and not being aware of the world hard to deal with. For me its something that has always been there. Thats not been my life experience. Its always been something that is possible and part of life - my life. Not people who live far away that I don't know. Family and personal experience mean its 'real'.
It probably is why I perhaps come across strangely on this thread - too direct with it for some tastes. I think for various reasons (my love of history, politics and media) its always been there, important close and I'm probably quite frankly more desensitised to it now than most. Its been 'there' in my mind since I was ten years old.
I was talking about this with friends last night and how I don't blink at stuff on twitter anymore that years ago you just won't have seen. There was a particular lecture that stuck with me which was about editoral choices in war, and we were shown stuck from Iraq that was never broadcast by the BBC to shock us and illustrate the point. Now I think that type of stuff would be shown without too much concern. They don't see the world in the same way and find me odd and strange to understand.
So yeah, for me its not normal (thats definitely the wrong word) but its certainly not shocking or something that happens to other people. I am very very aware that it absoluetely happens to 'people like me'.
I find the way that I've always dealt with it is to be head on, 'ok this happened/is happening' and wanting to understand and deconstruct it from multiple angles and perseptives to almost get to this 'why? how could this possibly happen?' idea. These things make sense then, even if they are truly horrific and the reasons groseque.
It probably sounds fucked in the head. Probably because it is. But for me its the exploration of what it is to be human. That includes its deprivation and how utimately can also lose it value of life and respect for others and crazed pursuit of power. For me, the idea that normal people can support and do the most terrible things is part of that. Ordinary Bob down the road can kill Fred his neighbour he's known and been friends with for 20 years under the right conditions.
I think the simple truth is a sense that I can't protect my son from life. Just as my parents couldn't protect me. And my grandparents couldn't protect my Mum. And my great grandparents couldn't protect my grandfather. And my great great grandparents couldn't protect my great grandfather.
The best I can hope for is to explain this to DS.
I actually wouldn't want him to have a completely sheltered life either because thats not how the world is for the majority.