Bring your worries over here, the Night Shift are still here to mind them

[2018SoFarSoGreat]

New thread here, since the Last Thread has ever so slowly filled up. Isn't it amazing how little our worries crept up in the night when the world was actually one big worry?

Pandemic or not, this is the place to just park your worries. We don't ask questions, or try to solve your problems. We just hold them, tenderly, carefully, until you are strong enough to take them back. If they choose not to come back, all the better.

Signing in for the Night Shift, V3!

I'm really hoping someone can look after these for me. I'm so exhusted and basically at the end of my rope. I always find when really badly stressed my PTSD triggers and I have even more issues. I've just spent half an hour on hold to Samaritans. I was going to do a thread, but I know even if I namechanged after an advanced search I'd get slaughtered by people on here.

Remember my toilet saga? It's got much much worse. The bastard reported me to landlord who has accused me of being a severe fire risk and filthy dirty and will press to evict as I'm not trying. They've no understanding of my needs, let alone covid fears, mocking me and saying they've had it and are fine and I'm being silly as I'm far more likely to set fire to their house than die of covid and murder everyone. They really laid into me. Told me to shit the fuck up etc.

I know MN etiquette means no one can understand. Not only my worst fears bring realised but covid now too. I've no chance at all. Several of them are coming to remove everything. I've no say or choice. They've a key and will force entry. I'm terrified. Utterly.

Health worse need to get letter done and can't concentrate as so terrified.

I don't even know if anyone's up. Please someone take these monsters. I don't even know if this iPad will work tomorrow as update is released. Am so frightened.

I can be here and hold these fears Becca - please try to get some rest.
If you have managed some sleep that’s even better.

Tomorrow is another day

Not managed sleep. Rang NHS direct in a state and spoke to a mental health nurse who wants me to see a dr! Going to try and rest now. I'm in such a mess

Thank you @AlloftheTime

@Becca19962014 that's good that you reached out for help! Next step is to see a doctor. So hoping you can find some peace ❤️

My missing cat. PLease. He is 17 years old and been my faithful and loving companion all these years. Where I lve is wild and the folk scorn cats . Scoffed at me yesterday then jeered that there are foxes around. Myself am ill just now too and in pain. But I can hold for others Been doing thatall my long
Bless you.

@Becca19962014

Not managed sleep. Rang NHS direct in a state and spoke to a mental health nurse who wants me to see a dr! Going to try and rest now. I'm in such a mess

Thank you @AlloftheTime

Here fpr ypu. Becca

How are you lot with tumours?
Specifically very fast growing tumours.

Meeting oncological surgeon on Thursday to see how to get it out and what’ll remain of all the important bits it has wrapped itself around.

I’m not even 40 yet. Thought I’d have another while before having to lie awake worrying about shit like this.

GP receptionist "phone back when it's really a problem, and only one not many*, we are really busy right now". The nurse was so lovely and caring I really thought it would make a difference but it hasn't

• all of my conditions impact each other so need to be considered. Or not.

Oh and my landlord turned up at 9am with gardeners with industrial strimmers making a horrendous racket and they'll be here all day today and tomorrow. Leaving me no time to get help with them coming in as meant to get out.

I don't understand.

@BaoWow you give them to me. I could do with something to bash down to size.

Seriously, this is a lovely thread and you'll find nothing but support here. I can also recommend, if you've not already found it, a support threat in general health for people going through cancer, a good friend of mine found a lot of support there from other MNers - I am not trying to get rid of you, just making a suggestion to you.

[quote Becca19962014]@BaoWow you give them to me. I could do with something to bash down to size.

Seriously, this is a lovely thread and you'll find nothing but support here. I can also recommend, if you've not already found it, a support threat in general health for people going through cancer, a good friend of mine found a lot of support there from other MNers - I am not trying to get rid of you, just making a suggestion to you.[/quote]
Thank you, Becca, that’s a very kind snd practical suggestion and I’ll go have a look.

I'm glad you understood what I was getting at! Of course you can post wherever you like, but sometimes talking to people who have been there, or are there can really help. I hope you found it ok.

@SoloISland oh dear, you poor thing! I know our cats have always been such a part of the family. You must be out of your mind with worry. I'm so hoping he has just gone for a wander, and returns quickly. It is much harder to cope when you are in pain and ill - that's double torture. I hope good health finds you soon!

Leave that pain and worry here. We shall think good 'c'mon kitty, time for home' thoughts for you, and you try to let us carry the fear and worry. We've got you for now, and you can leave it with us for as long you need to. You sound like a lovely kind soul, and we're happy to return the favor

@BaoWow gosh, worries of tumors that grow fast are a new one - but you know what? Worry will not make a whit of difference, so give us that. Easier said than done, I know (I've had the horrid lump scare, but was lucky, very lucky - as I hope you will be!) but please try.

Doctors these days can do amazing things, and I shall hope and pray that you find one of the best on Thurdsay. Until then, let us take care of all of the worries and what-ifs and fear. We've got you.

@Becca19962014 you ignore the strimming while you are wrangling that tumor worry. It will be a good distraction.

Just leaving everything here. Couldn't access shelter, just answerphone to go online, council didn't want to know as its my fault. Written begging letter to GP to tell covid very dangerous, mind racing. So so ill and exhausted.

Can I leave mine here too?
Struggling with the last few months - found out my partner had a short affair, he insists its over - I'm unsure what to believe and, I feel like I'm being love bombed now into staying.
My children are incredible but, I fear they're struggling with alot of things and keeping things bottled in ( not my partners children) and they know nothing about the affair.
My MH has been a mess for a few years.
I'm always left to pick up every piece - I carry so much on my shoulders and I find it hard to stop that.
My beloved dog has been sick recently - I was left to deal with her emotionally and physically. I'm up now because she has had 3 hours of sick :(
I really dislike my job, however I have no career path or qualifications to do anything I'd love. I would love a full night's sleep, a stress free day and some time to free up my mental load.
Sorry to leave this here. Unsure where else to leave it.
Thank you

@Becca19962014 that sounds like a very difficult day. You leave it here now. I've got you. Just get some rest ❤️

@Pinkypie86 what a long list of things to keep you up and worrying. So sorry you have to carry this load.

For now, let it all go. Pass it over! I'll hold them all and take good care while you sleep. Go on. Just cozy in and rest your poor mind and body. I've got you now.

Thankyou @2018SoFarSoGreat this thread means so much to me.

Yoy are so welcome, @Becca19962014. Wish there was more we could do.

Sending virtual hugs and healing thoughts to you.

I'm so scared that one day I won't be able to carry it any longer. But, how come I'm so good at hiding it through the day and, the evening comes and bang - here I am again.
Thank you - I really appreciate your kind words @2018SoFarSoGreat

Just leaving this day here again.

Woke at 8:30 to more gardeners. Still not help from anyone re Monday. Am terrfied, really struggling and people are noticing. I don't know what to do and I'm losing what little control I have of my mental health too. I got a really bizarre email from the council emergency housing worker as well which upset me. Am very grateful for people on MN elsewhere who helped me see they were in the wrong and it wasn't my fault, which helped and I'm so grateful.

Thankyou.

@Becca19962014 I'm glad you got some good advice from MNers! Hopefully you'll get some relief soon, or at least some answers. You must be so frustrated by all of it, on top of your pain. So sorry 💐

I'll have all of this tonight and you get some peace. Just let it all go. Go on. It's OK.

Housing issues still there. I don't know what to do.
I'm terrified. If I was less ill I'd run away but can barely move.

It's a mess. In every sense.

I'm here @Becca19962014 and will hold that worry and fear. Just rest and let me hold this for you. Tomorrow is a new day, maybe a bet day. For now, just lay down your weary head. 🌹