Tell us a secret that no one else knows?

[GloomyWaters]

Me...by the end of this year I will be divorced...DH has no idea!

@MonicaGellerBing

I won £2,000,000 on the lottery

Wow! Congratulations! This week "it could be" me!! 🌈

@DeeDimer

I had an interview this morning...and got the job :)

Congratulations! Best wishes for your future career! ☘️

MonicaGellerBing have you literally told no one you’ve won that much?
I’ve always said to DH if we do very well I’d love it not to show. I wouldn’t change our style of living and would stick to our old car as believe in the simple things in life but I would love the feeling of no pressure and being able to do useful things.

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@bard6817 does your company have any Permanent Health Insurance plan as you sound like a candidate for that.

[quote Aquafizzle]@bard6817 does your company have any Permanent Health Insurance plan as you sound like a candidate for that.[/quote]
I left work last year - not really knowing what was wrong with me and tried to keep my work reputation intact, just thinking a bit of rest would do me some good... And then I got worse...

@Bard6817

At age 52, I’m done with work.

Worked since 16, been a workaholic my entire life.

About a decade ago i was put through a meat grinder that nearly killed me. I now suffer PTSD as a result, yeah i have nightmares about business meetings, constant chest pains, palpitations constantly, now suffer from vitiligo, headaches, and there’s about a dozen other small and individually meaningless symptoms. But together, my body feels like i’m a bit of a wreck and i can barely do housework, and as i can’t handle any stress whatsoever, i’m a pretty crap listener to my partner.

NHS is too busy to help me. So many minor complaints, each taking forever to check out and never resolve anything.

Cant afford to retire without my pension…

So basically being forced back to work. I don’t want benefits, i just want to retire. GP is useless and doesn’t think i’m ill even though there is clear medical evidence now - and i’d rather commit suicide than work another day.

Is there a way you could work for yourself? I had a similar work experience and know how horrible and trapped this can make you feel. I created a number of small businesses using my work skills and life is better - if less wealthy! You sound like you'd have a lot of work experience to draw on?

@EssentialHummus, I did that as default. Don't know why but I can't say the word, hence fckd and s*x. I never swear either but apparently not as restricted in my actions .

Good plan @TurquoiseDragon,hope you get the job.

I secretly smoke in the garden when making dinner

@Ballbagisnotmyname I was in a similar situation as you a good few years ago. I also felt detached as you describe. I reached a point where I really didn't like myself for the situation I got myself in, but then I thought, why should I even care? It got to the point where it was so screwed up, and I thought I may as well continue as what did it matter? I thought I was getting enough from it anyway, but I really wasn't. It got to the stage where I was continuing almost as a way to punish myself, if that makes sense. I would say I allowed him to use me. I can't blame him for that, as it's what I allowed.. I slowly began to realise that I deserved more and I was worth more. I was not worthless as I'd began to feel. The kind of situation I was in, and like the one you are now, it takes away your self-value. I don't want to sound preachy, but ending the cycle of what us happening with this man will begin to lift you out of how you feel, or don't feel, as the case may be. You are worth so much more. You are too good for that. You deserve more. xx

@user1490954378 Thankyou, it’s a ridiculous situation to have gotten myself in and I know I will get out of it soon - I’ve made the first step by telling my best friend, I’m supporting her through a major crisis at the moment so will sort myself after, admitting it has given me the push I need to face up to this mess! Thankyou @SleepingStandingUp and @SunshineCake for the advice, really needed someone to just say how it is, I’m going to start making plans to sort my mess out! Xx

[quote Ballbagisnotmyname]**@user1490954378* Thankyou, it’s a ridiculous situation to have gotten myself in and I know I will get out of it soon - I’ve made the first step by telling my best friend, I’m supporting her through a major crisis at the moment so will sort myself after, admitting it has given me the push I need to face up to this mess! Thankyou @SleepingStandingUp and @SunshineCake* for the advice, really needed someone to just say how it is, I’m going to start making plans to sort my mess out! Xx[/quote]
Good luck. You've got this.

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@Bargebill19

A new thread has been started.

Do you have the link please ?

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Very much appreciated thank you

I'm so unhappy in my life and there is nothing I can do to change it.

I have a terrible relationship with my mother, a husband that I have nothing in common with and he is unable to support me emotionally in the way I need due to our differing personalities. I only had kids because he said he would leave me if we didnt have them. I knew I was too selfish of a person for children and tried to explain that to him I genuinely enjoyed the first few years but now I feel like I am just surviving each day. I care for a family member and resent every second of it especially as I am expected to take over lifetime care of this person when the time comes.

All in all, I feel trapped. Hideously trapped.

@MonicaGellerBing

I won £2,000,000 on the lottery

No you didn't. The scary pigeon made Phoebe drop the bowl...

@JustJustWhy it's not the pretty lady's fault.... coooo

I've never told anyone this. The only people who know about this secret are myself and the person involved.

When I was 15/16 I was in a serious online long distance relationship with a 30yr old man from Canada . We met on an adult dating site, I joined it because I was a horny teenager and wanted to have some fun online. I originally lied about my age as the website was for 18+ but the more we started talking on a deeper level rather than just a sexual one, the more I grew to like him as a person and started falling for him I had to confess. I was 16, just about to sit my GCSES when I told him my real age. He was shocked and wasn't really sure about what we should do about this. But he admitted that he had fell for me too and it was something he couldn't ignore.

We started talking online via msn messenger, webcams and microphone head sets and then progressed to hours long Skype video calls. We would talk every day. We would send each other cards and gifts in the post to which I use to work in a little shop, and he would send them
To me there so my parents wouldn't ask questions about getting post from Canada. We would have online date nights and dinner together.

We were genuinely in love, we connected on such a deep level and together we started saving money for when I was genuinely 18 to run away and move to Canada so we could be together. We planned what our house would be like, where I could go and look for work, when and where we would get married, planning on children and how many. The whole lot.

6 months before my 18th birthday he confessed that he met another woman at his gym and that he started having feelings for, and that he couldn't let this opportunity pass by, especially as I'd started having cold feet about literally just running away and moving in secret.

We ended things and I was absolutely heartbroken. He was my first proper love. He never took advantage or groomed me because I knew exactly what I was doing and what I was getting myself in for. I wasn't naive about any of it.

He ended up marrying the woman he met at the gym and they look so happy together.

I'm happily married myself to a wonderful man only 3 years older than me. and wouldn't change this for the world, but I often wonder what could have been?

@TickTockBitches

I miss my ex best friend like crazy, she was the only one who had time for me. I know about her new engagement and the baby. I wish we could go back to what we had. I miss the children too.

I really want to message her but I won't.

Why?

I've a 🧁in the oven😜

My grandfather abused me but everyone else in the family worshipped him so I can never tell them