@PinkSparklyPussyCat
I've had it now, I can't cope and I'm turning into a paranoid crying mess. I feel guilty complaining as I'm luckier than a lot of people but I can't cope with my job, I'm becoming more and more wound up about everything and now I'm worrying as I had my eyelashes tinted this morning (please don't judge, appointment was booked ages ago) and the woman said she'd been to the pub last night. I'm missing my Mum and I can't see the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel any more.
Good move on the tinted eyelashes, they won't smudge
I'm focusing on the spring when the daffodils are out, and it's lighter. That is a guarenteed good thing that will happen in the not so distant future.
I've been trying to think of what I was focusing on prior to this. Surprisingly tough. I crumpled in June, a good 6 months ago, when it was clear that my DCs were not setting foot in school before September. So I clung on to September. Admittedly the school holiday period was easier as we could do 2-3 outings a week in reasonable weather, and pretend it was something reminiscent of normal. And September busied up a bit, and it was inevitable that winter was going to be tough, so I'm blundering through until Easter. I planted up some pots with winter bedding and bulbs as a symbol of things to look forwards to.