I've been lurking for ages finding a place of sanity amongst the hystericals. I fear I've become an anti dementor dementor in that I can't see any form of life resuming and we will be stuck in this half life forever. It all seems to be doom and gloom, people shouting about others getting too close, spying on neighbours, everyone is going to die and kids will never go back to school.
I don't understand anyone who says they won't see close friends and family indefinitely or even for the rest of the year/another year. My parents and my in-laws are missing the kids so much and because they live a fair drive away we can't even see them from a distance. There is no way they won't give them a hug until a hypothetical vaccine and no way they will not see them for that long too. It's not fair to keep us all apart from our friends and family for an indefinite period of time.
If there is no vaccine what are people going to do? I was hoping the majority would just accept the risk and we go back to living but seeing the amount of people asking for a longer and stricter lockdown I'm not so sure they will.
I just can't see an end in sight, my mood is plummeting by the day making me not a very nice person to be around. The 4 year old should be at school, the 2 year old having a weekly day at nursery, interacting with other children, learning new skills and living a happy life. Instead they are stuck with each other and us for company. I'm really lucky that they have such a close relationship so they are loving spending all their time together but they still need time apart with children their own age.
I was considering taking a break and going to stay with my mum (even though it's not allowed) but it's a 2 and a half hour drive away and she was recently stopped at one of the points I would have to drive through. She had a legitimate reason, what would mine be? My marriage is on the line? Not exactly true but I know my husband is struggling with me being so low all the time, maybe a break from me will do him some good too. My mum is worried her neighbours will report her when they see us at hers so doesn't want me to go really. None of us are worried about the virus, they are in their 50s, fairly healthy and I had symptoms weeks ago so maybe I've already had the virus and am unlikely to give it to them or catch it again.
I hate what we have become as a society, neighbours spying on and reporting their neighbours, people being stopped on their journeys and asked where they are going and why.
I've said all along I would rather die than live like this which makes my husband cross. I'm too chicken to do anything but it's still true.
Rant over!