What the fuck do I do now?

[PlsTryAnother]

So DP of 2 years went out last night for a Christmas party. For various reasons I ended up staying up til 3.30 when he got home. I thought hed be pleased I'd waited but instead we had a huge row about how I apparently dont trust him and that's the reason i waited for him to come home. Apparently I was expecting lipstick on his face, or perfume on him from him shagging another woman. This is mental and never even crossed my mind. He walked out cos he was disgusted at my lack of trust, then came back an hour or so later and said hes going to bed, but I need to know its over. I'm literally reeling and I've got no idea what's happened or what to do now. I love him so much, I dont want him to leave but i cant see a way to stop this happening. My heart is actually breaking

Of course it's not your fault, leaving over something so petty is ridiculous, there's definitely more to it; he has either been looking for an excuse and way to blame you (but he couldn't find a genuine reason by the sound of it), or he has found someone else, and again, wanted it to seem your fault. Sorry OP, you will be better off without him although it doesn't seem it now.

waiting for an excuse

Or, to use another word, a reason.

Sounds like the straw broke the camel's back. I'll put money on the OP having form.

I guarantee he'll "meet" someone very quickly who he'll be in a relationship with almost immediately.

You don't deserve it. This is not your fault.

Actions of a guilty man! You don't leave your partner of two years because they waited up for you.
You're well rid

Of course you don't deserve this because you couldn't sleep and waited up.

This can't be the single reason. He must have been on the road to this decision a long way before. This isn't happening because of last night - it's happening because, and I'm really sad and sorry to be so straight, because he wants out.

OR he is horribly manipulative and wants to show you that you can't tie him down. He may still continue to toy with you.

Either way, although this has come as a shock, you'll be well out, as this isn't the man for you. He can't be, to hurt you like this. If he loved you in the right way, he wouldn't be going.

Please take heart. What you did was fine. A bit neurotic that you couldn't sleep, but only a sign of love and your character. Someone who loved you would feel sorry you'd stayed up like that and take you straight to bed and make you a cooked breakfast the next day. And there are lots of guys out there who will love you for you. Think of today as the day your life opens up and your chances of finding a lovely person who loves YOU as you are, and will say you daft idiot about staying up and give you a kiss. Try and limit your regret over this guy as yes mean and you'll be better with someone else.

I mean as he's mean.

How are you op?

He found an "excuse" to leave
Thats all

I'm so sorry you are going through this

Utter bullshit. This is on him, not you OP.

Can definitely see both sides here.
I wouldn’t wait up for my DH and would fine it super weird if he did for me, but at the same time I see where you are coming from.
Think maybe you’re tired from staying up late, and he overreacted after a few drinks. Just give each other some space for a bit