I am a boderline alcoholic... And I need help

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I will drink at any chance I get.

Regularly will have 2 bottles of wine with husband in one sitting. He buys 1 and I will know he's getting one and buy another.

I won't consider anything less than 13%

I actually found myself at the weekend, when being offered a courtesy drink by someone, considering whether i needed to go out again.

My husband has called me out on it when I said I might go out for wine with a friend in the week. I agreed this weekend that we would only drink at the weekend and limit it to 1 bottle of wine between us.

"So I just sit back and watch you turn into an alcoholic? Because that's what you're doing"

This is the sucker punch. Right there. And asking whether it is right for our DS' future.

I feel fucking awful. Its there. Black and white what my husband thinks ad feels.

What the fuck do I do?

How are you doing OP? Are you going teetotal or cutting down? What tactics (if any) do you need for the weekend?

Yes, how are you op? I’ve managed three sober nights in a row and I’m damned chuffed.

Good for you Haggis

Have sinned and not read the whole thread, but if no one has suggested it, the Brave Babes Battle Bus is a long-running thread on MN which is for anyone who experiences themselves as having a problematic relationship with alcohol.

I can remember starting to feel reliant on alcohol when I was younger before I had my dc. We (dh and i) would drink lots with the aim of getting absolutely leathered. A litre of vodka between us once a week in a night, two or three bottles of wine another night. I can remember feeling the need for it and feeling anxious and crabby if I didn't have it. It stopped when I went on a weight loss drive and then shortly after had our children, I don't drink at all now, I very occasionally have one glass of wine and that gets me tipsy, I have no longing for more. Instead of cutting it right down op, try having one night a week that you have alcohol and limit what you have. I honestly think that once its not constantly in your system you stop needing it.