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My wife is dying

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SanJunipero · 13/01/2019 01:26

My beautiful, wonderful wife is only 33 and I'm sitting next to her bed in the hospice tonight watching her die. She's had cancer for a long time and I knew this was coming, but it's so very hard to watch.

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S0dabread · 16/01/2019 12:20

San, sincere condolences to you and your family. Heartbreaking. You sound so lovely. Sending you and your little boy love and strength. I hope he will be a constant comfort to you and will help heal the pain.

MulticolourMophead · 16/01/2019 12:22

I'm so sorry for your loss, and hope you and your little boy find some peace. 💐

It does feel odd to start with, the doing normal things alongside the enormity of the loss. Be kind to yourself, don't rush into things. Xx

spiderlight · 16/01/2019 12:26

So very sorry, but glad you were with her at the end. I held my dad's hand while he died a few weeks back and it has been a great comfort to me knowing that his last moments were peaceful. It does feel totally surreal to come home and still have to do all the everyday stuff though.

You and your little one are very much in my thoughts Flowers

Mellowingslowly · 16/01/2019 12:27

So very sorry for your loss. Praying for you and your little son Flowers

confusedandemployed · 16/01/2019 12:33

Sending love. You did right by her and she went knowing how much she was loved and wanted Flowers

SarahAndQuack · 16/01/2019 12:41

I'm so, so very sorry to read this. I will be thinking of you and the baby.

Torvi · 16/01/2019 12:43

Oh San, I'm so very sorry.

Make sure you lean on those around you. Sending love to you and your boy Thanks

Eightmagpies · 16/01/2019 12:43

Thinking of you and your son. I'm so sorry for your loss xx

catlass · 16/01/2019 12:45

I'm so very sorry sweetheart. Sending so much love to you and your beautiful boy xxx

mummymayhem18 · 16/01/2019 12:51

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you have lots of friends and family around you at this hard time.

waterleg · 16/01/2019 12:53

I’m so sorry for your loss, and to hear that your DW was suffering at the end. The fact that you were there, loving her, will have eased her suffering somewhat; even if it didn’t feel like it. Wishing you gentle days. 💐

GoldenGumballs · 16/01/2019 12:58

San so sorry sending love. You have been amazing and everything your lovely Wife needed. Take good care of yourself and your lovely Son x

MrsTommyBanks · 16/01/2019 13:00

Oh San. I'm so sorry. Be kind to yourself. It might not feel like it now, but you will find comfort that you were with her at the end.
Keeping you and your boy in my thoughts and prayers Flowers

CuppaTeaAndAJammieDodger · 16/01/2019 13:04

I'm so sorry to hear this. It must be so incredibly hard but try to find peace within yourself that you both had each other when she passed away.

MidnightAura · 16/01/2019 13:10

I’m so sorry. Condolences to you and your DS.

Take comfort in the fact she passed surrounded by love and her DW was by her side. She is no longer suffering.

Please look after yourself.

Stilllivinginazoo · 16/01/2019 13:11

Sending love to you are your beautiful son.im so sorryFlowers

fourquenelles · 16/01/2019 13:19

So sorry. Thinking of you. Hugs.

ThumbWitchesAbroad · 16/01/2019 13:23

((((hugs)))) Sanjunipero for you and your little boy.
It will feel quite strange and unreal for a few days yet, I'm sure - this is normal. Pretty much whatever you do or feel now is on the normal range for someone in your position - grief hits us all differently.

I'm sad for you that she's gone - in body at least, her spirit will always be within your heart and your memory. Thanks

Borntobeamum · 16/01/2019 13:25

Although you were expecting it, it's a tremendous shock to your whole system. Be kind to yourself when you can, take time to remember the love you and your dear wife shared, and I'm sure you will see her spirit shine through in your son. Much love 💕

tessiegirl · 16/01/2019 13:43

So sorry to read this Flowers

marvellousnightforamooncup · 16/01/2019 13:43

FlowersI'm so sorry.

minmooch · 16/01/2019 13:47

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Your love shines through every post.

When my son died the only thing that got me through was the knowledge that he was no longer suffering. The shock was immense too even though I knew he was going to die.

You were with her right to the end and that is such an honour to be with your loved one as they leave this world. You know she was not alone.she knew she was not alone.

We each grieve in different ways but go gently on yourself.

I'm so very sorry. Love and strength to you all x

Yulebealrite · 16/01/2019 14:03

Sending you strength
Flowers

crosstalk · 16/01/2019 14:13

So sorry OP. You have your child to care for which will help in some ways. Make sure you have support after your DW's funeral - somehow everything up to then keeps people with you and you are still doing something for her.

At the very least you both enjoyed profound love, happiness and fun together - and a delight in your child. Remember that in your sorrow.

Smotheroffive · 16/01/2019 14:14

Oh San, so very sad for your loss, take your time, and be kind and gentle on yourself while you process all that you have just been through. Do visit her to help you come to terms with this, once you have rested after your vigil of love by her bed. Your last moments together sound just beautiful, as best as they can be, holding her as she departed.

Much love and strength to you. (Keep talking when you need)

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