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My wife is dying

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SanJunipero · 13/01/2019 01:26

My beautiful, wonderful wife is only 33 and I'm sitting next to her bed in the hospice tonight watching her die. She's had cancer for a long time and I knew this was coming, but it's so very hard to watch.

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Coffeebean76 · 13/01/2019 01:58

@AndNoneForGretchenWieners

I am so sorry xxx

Awwlookatmybabyspider · 13/01/2019 01:59

My thoughts are with you. Flowers

AlexaAmbidextra · 13/01/2019 02:00

I’m so very sorry. Heartbreaking for you. I send you both love and prayers. 💕

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SanJunipero · 13/01/2019 02:00

@AndNoneForGretchenWieners I'm so sorry you're facing this with your husband. It's just never what you imagine, is it? I keep thinking back to our wedding day and all the plans we had.

She is so beautiful and brilliant. Scarily intelligent, but always so kind and loving, and so much fun. I've told her that our little boy is asleep across the hall and I think that's made her happy.

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GretchenFranklin · 13/01/2019 02:01

Flowers Thinking of you both OP x

Cantthinkofabloodyname · 13/01/2019 02:03

I'm so sorry that you are both going through this.

springtimeyet · 13/01/2019 02:05

I am so sorry. 🌸

delboysskinandblister · 13/01/2019 02:07

This is heartbreaking, I am so sorry. Flowers x

Starfish2045 · 13/01/2019 02:09

I’m so sorry how utterly heartbreaking Flowers

Coffeebean76 · 13/01/2019 02:10

The way you speak about her is so beautiful . She knows you and your little boy love her so much and she has had such an amazing life with you both.

ohnonotyetplease · 13/01/2019 02:15

How incredibly sad. Praying you'll be comforted OP. Keep reaching out for support like you have done here. Will be thinking of you both x

ThumbWitchesAbroad · 13/01/2019 02:15

Really so sad for you - so very sorry Thanks
I'm glad you're there with her, however hard it must be for you (been there with my mum).
How old is your little boy?

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SanJunipero · 13/01/2019 02:16

It is comforting to know that she knows how much we love her. She told me yesterday that she couldn't have asked for a better wife and I wrote that down as I don't want to forget she said that. The last time she spoke was when I said "I love you" and she replied "Not as...". I asked her if she wanted to say "Not as much as I love you", because that's what we always say, and she smiled and nodded.

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ImPreCis · 13/01/2019 02:20

Do keep talking to her, talk about how you met, your favourite memories of your life together, reassure her about your darling boy. Let those wonderful comforting thoughts be the ones she carries with her.
My thoughts are with you all.

iogo · 13/01/2019 02:20

I'm so sorry. x

Tweety1981 · 13/01/2019 02:21

You are so brave . It must be so difficult for you but it’s so wonderful that you are managing to be with her until she leaves . And she must be so happy to know you are by her side .. and knowing your little son is nearby ... tell her everything you want to say ( as you are ) you have clearly cherished every moment you have with her and you will have those memories to carry with you always ( with no regrets ) ...

Smotheroffive · 13/01/2019 02:27

You think you will lose her tonight SanJunipero? Don't know what words for such pain and sadness as this. Do call on the hospice staff though, don't spend time worrying she might be needing something, just ask for help to ensure she has all she can in these her last hours.

My heart goes out to you. Peace and light to you both Flowers

Chickenwings85 · 13/01/2019 02:30

I'm so sorry OP I truly am. Life can be so utterly cruel at times. I wish I had the words to say to take away this pain. What you are doing right now for your darling wife is truly incredible and very brave. Just know you have all of us here and please feel free to private message me if you ever need to talk in private.
Sending you, your wife and your darling son so much love.

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SanJunipero · 13/01/2019 02:30

@ThumbWitchesAbroad He's only nine months, so he doesn't understand what's going on. I'm grateful for that. My heart is breaking, though, because she loves him so very much. Earlier on, she kept saying "my boy, my boy".

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SanJunipero · 13/01/2019 02:34

@Smotheroffive I'm not sure. She hasn't eaten for days and she can no longer drink. Her breathing's very deep and laboured. She's always such a fighter, though. All I want now is for it to be peaceful.

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SanJunipero · 13/01/2019 02:35

@Chickenwings85 Thank you for being so kind x

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Madonnaslonglostbeautyspot · 13/01/2019 02:42

My thoughts are with you. You’re not alone. Xxxxxxxx

Chickenwings85 · 13/01/2019 02:50

@SanJunipero you're so welcome. I honestly meant what I said about private messaging me if you need to chat in private.
The way you speak about your wife is so lovely she is lucky to have you. Please keep us updated if you can and only if you want too of course. Lots of love xx

Strugglingonagain · 13/01/2019 02:54

I am.thinking of you, your wife and your family tonight x

BellMcEnd · 13/01/2019 02:58

Sending you love and light. I hope you have plenty of support? It’s so sad and unfair x

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