Say here things you can't say in real life

[squirrelnutkins1]

Interested to hear things people really wish they could say in real life, but can't, for whatever reason.

This is a safe space..... let's offload!!

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Would you like to go for a coffee? I would love to get to know you. (And I fancy the pants off you!)

The reason I was crying this morning was because DD woke me up in the middle of a dream about an old bf who died. At 6.25am I was 17 and in love and at 6.26am I'd lost him again. And I'm so so happy with you and with our life but the dream came out of nowhere. I could literally smell him.

I worry that leaving my unhappy marriage has left me a happier person but a less good mother.

Had I not, I wouldn’t be co-parenting separately, working 50 hour weeks in a job well below my abilities and education, that leaves me too knackered to do all the lovely things I would have been able to do had I stayed and been able to work minimally part time.

But perhaps a happier, more knackered mum is better than a very sad one who is around all the time?

SIL, go fuck yourself

I wish I could just tell you that I don't need to "forgive myself" for those two years in my late teens; I don't need to "forget it", or "put it behind me", or remind myself that I've changed. I don't need to "try not to feel bad about it" or regard it as a foolish choice that I fixed.

Because I'm not sorry. I don't regret it, I don't feel bad about it and I've not changed that much. I don't want to forget about it because I was surprisingly HAPPY then. I look back on those times fondly.
I ENJOYED IT!

But I do appreciate your concern.

Oh yeah and spanx underwear has changed my world

To the poster who is in love with a very close friend .. please?!

I mean please tell him !

I’m finding life hard. I’m overwhelmed with the responsibilities of looking after my children and all that I have to do.
I’m not well and I won’t get better I have to keep going. I need more help but I won’t accept it. I’m so very lonely and hate everything about my self

Your daughter is a lying,nasty,spiteful dirty slag. She is full of jealousy I hate her and you for not teaching her right.

I hate that you always make everything about yourself, you'll never see or acknowledge it but the way you behave has ruined our relationship. I wish you'd be more sensitive to others' struggles (like they have done towards you) and get over yourself. You think you're a great and caring friend and family member but everyone knows how self-centered and lacking in resilience you are.

The reason your children can’t get a diagnosis of ASD or ADHD or whatever initials you found on the internet today is because they are NT little shits. And they next time they attack my son at school or on the way home, I will call the police. Now get off your phone and be a parent.

When I was 18, I had a 'fling' with my now fil who was 50!

Late DH - i hate that you died and won't get to see the children you loved so much grow up. I will always love you. It means so much to me that you told me to be happy and not stay alone. Its like you gave me permission to love again.

A - thank you for everything you have done for us since dh died. You are amazing. I wonder if you realise that i love you and that i fancy you, cos a snog and a cuddle would be great (for starters!)

B - i still don't want to have to see you ever again after the way you treated your ex. You are a despicable arse

@ashamedandregretful so many questions! 🙊
Nice to have a safe space to share tho! X

If I was guaranteed a quick painless death tomorrow, I'd take it.

Grow up, put your big boy pants on and accept you are responsible for your own shit. I am sick of listening to you whine & how we are still together after 16 years I will never know. I wish I could leave, if I could afford it me & your dd would be out the door faster than the speed of light. You are boring & I don't even fancy you, if we never have sex again it won't bother me. Also, your mother, she is a needy old lady when you show your face but behind your back when you aren't looking she is a capable, manipulative cow.

That felt good & also sad at the same time. I really need to sort my shit out in 2019.

How can you rip children not much older than babies from their loving mother?

How can you do that?

How could you, knowing you were going to die.... not leave something to your children and your beautiful grandchildren and instead left everything to the hatchet faced bitch you married

Your son thought the world of you... you first class prick!

@Gettingonwithlife I feel exactly the same

@squirrelnutkins1 I've obviously named changed so I will share the story- it started on New Year's Eve when I was only 17 (birthday in January), my boyfriends parents had a New Years party and I got very drunk and extremely sick. Boyfriend ditched me to play games with his brother and friends so his step dad (now my fil) looked after me. He cleaned me up in the bathroom and kissed me. I was in total shock and told my boyfriend straight away who was annoyed but waved it off as him being too drunk. When I turned 18 a few weeks later fil started texting me being quite jokey and flirty, and the next time I saw him he kissed me again. That lead to messaging, meeting up for lunches, and eventually became more sexual- we never had sex though as he couldn't get it up! 🙈
I soon came to my senses and felt awful. I was becoming more and more close to mil too so the guilt was eating me. I went to work abroad for a month and came back trying to put it all behind me. My boyfriend and I became more serious and I soon fell pregnant (still aged 18), we moved out of our parents houses together and I avoided fil as when I saw him he would still try it on by going in for a kiss or would squeeze my butt. He eventually got the message and left me alone. It's five years in now, my partner and I are still together with two children. And it's like nothing ever happened- it's not even awkward between me and fil. No one else but fil and I know about our fling and I worry all the time that it will all come out eventually.

I hate everyone in my workplace. Every. Single. One

To an old boss:

I hated every minute of working with you.

The end.

I don’t love my mum. She always preferred younger sister, and did nothing to help me when I was bullied relentlessly through 5 years of senior school, leading to lifelong depression. My dad loved me and I loved him. He died in 2000. I sometimes think the wrong parent died.

I think the world would be better off without me. I am fat and useless. I wish I could go to sleep and not wake up.