Eating Disorder Recovery

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I'm documenting my journey to try and recover from an eating disorder over the year. I know I'm not alone in this struggle, so thought I'd share my experiences.

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Hi everyone.

Jokers , so sorry for your loss. I hope you are taking care of yourself.

So has anyone else fallwn foul of discounted easter eggs? DH got bargain huge eggs for £1 yesterday. Kind of a test of will power to not eat them and also make sure I don't restrict.

How is everyone? x

Complete self sabotage for me. Eating far too much and all the wrong things. It will click into place soon but it just isn't so far. It hasn't helped that I haven't been well. Extremely dizzy so spent most of the last 2 days lying down or I would have fallen down!

Not feeling aa dizzy now so doing food preparation for tomorrow jus not all at once or I will get dizzy again.

Going to try and stick to it tomorrow.

How's everyone else?

Sorry you're not feeling well. The food prep sounds like a good idea though. Any idea whats wrong?

Don't know. As well as being dizzy I go from hot to cold. Not much fun!

That doesn't sound good. Hope you feel better soon

Thank you.

Oh yuk Purple that sounds horrible. Take it easy and I hope you feel better soon. Do you know what kicked off the 'self sabotage'?

How about you Fighting, any news?

I don't know sleep. I think sometimes I just think every day stuff like eating shouldn't be this hard and I then go in the complete opposite direction to restricting.

Just wanted to say - I love you all.
I'm an emotional mess and just telling everyone I care about that I love them.

huge hugs jokers, thinking of you.x

I made a bit of a decision tonight. I have started sharing some of my photography on the blog . I'm so nervous, but it combines my two favourite things. I have so many that I could use, just need to find the time to edit.
I started hours ago and have been totally lost in it, stopping myself from binging earlier. Feel free to check them out, nothing spectacular (some are new, some are older when I had less ability, but they all mean something).x

Its strange how something so simple can show so much meaning and emotion. X

I agree.x

For some reason my saved pages on my phone has got rid of all my saved pages so don't have the blog. I went back to the first page to get the link but when I click on it it takes me to a sign in page. Any chance of a new link please?

Fantastic Purple I agree with what you say about it being part of your therapy. I read a quote the other day from a woman who had had a horrific time-years trying to escape a violent husband who, after she left him, kidnapped and murdered their small son...she writes poems and paints and said that these things literally kept her alive and got her through the darkest times - that is how valuable creative expression can be.

Sorry, I meant that to fighting of course!

wp.me/4dGvE

should take you to the blog purple

I'm excited, I have finally managed to get an appointment to see my trainer for a new programme just over a weeks time. That place is sooo busy!
How's everyone's day been?

Just had a bit of a tearful meltdown. I can't get off this self destructive path and I am miserable. I can't even look at myself in the mirror at the moment.

Have you been to see anyone like your GP recently purple?x

I can't face going to see the doctor. I know I can do this. I just need to get through the first few days and I will be ok.

Purple I think you should go too, you need help to get out of the diet and control mentality, it's just a vicious circle you are trapped in, how many times, how many years have you 'started again' with some diet or other? Thinking, no this time I've got it, this time I can be 'good', I can make my body look how I want this way? Isn't it plenty to make you see that it doesn't work for you? I am happy to chat if you want....xx

huge hugs purple, I know this is so hard. Are you feeling any better this morning?x