Thank you!
You’re right @ByeByeMissAmericanPie. If I hadn’t done it there would have been zero benefit to any of us.
I don’t even know why I asked if I’ve done the right things For me, divorce means a failure. That’s just me though and I don’t and wouldn’t say that of anyone else. it’s comforting that you all agree I’ve done the best thing.
@AcrossthePond55 I’d never really thought about care before. As he ages he’ll probably need it, but slutbunny will be at work to pay their rent and bills and food, so she wouldn’t be able to help. How sad if he ended up in a crappy care home, no visitors bar her. What a miserable end to a life.
Everything is back to normal here now. DD4 and DS were back at school today and I realised that today was the first day I’d been alone in the house for over a month. I missed them!
I’ve started using a journaling app. I read back through my previous threads and it doesn’t feel like me. I’m hoping by writing something down every day it will help even more. I was so, so sad wasn’t I. I still feel it now but it doesn’t consume me like it did. I’ve kind of settled into the feeling if that makes sense.
DD4 is having her mock A levels rearranged given that she missed them last month. DS has another set of mocks coming up too. They stood around in queues for testing today for two hours. I know it has to be done but that’s two hours out of the day..some teachers were absent and there were only four students on their school bus today. I imagine it’s being repeated in every school everywhere.
And @Billybagpuss I accept your daffodil challenge. I didn’t see any today so will be on the lookout next week…you’ll have to let me know when you find yours. I like flowers. If I was rich I’d have fresh ones in every room of the house, every week. I’ve also got a shortlist of new bedlinen that I need to decide on. And I want a new duvet. ExH would only ever allow a 4.5 tog summer weight one as anything heavier was apparently like “being encased in concrete”. Mr NM has a 13 tog and that’s really too hot for me, so I’m undecided between a new one the same as I have now, or a cosier one the next warmth up. Decisions, decisions.
Although I’m keeping busy and still putting on a smile, inside I am still not properly happy. Is that normal, or should I not be giving this any thought at all by this stage? I feel safe and secure when I’m with Mr NM but of course I’m not with him all the time.
I so hate ExH. I really really do.
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