Handhold / words of comfort - didn't get job i really wanted and was sure I would get

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I work in big tech, it was dysfunctional / toxic when I started but I could handle it.
From 2023 onwards the redundancies have been coming in waves. i took mat leave in 2024 and returned recently.

Now Its crazy - no psychological safety AT ALL in the office. It is like stepping into Kafkaesque nightmare.
I need to get out.
I have 2 kids 3 and under and the job market is horrendous.

By some miracle I got a referral for a job I'd be perfect for at a nice company that pays well!
I did 2 recruiter calls, 3 interviews and a presentation which took days to do!!!!

They left me hanging for 3 weeks (i emailed a week ago and was ignored by the recruiter)
another recruiter emailed me yesterday to say i didnt get it.
They had very good feedback but they went with someone else.

I'm devastated.
I really thought I had this job.

I am just spinning

The job market is a terrifying prospect.
Between 2 close mat leaves and the office environment my confidence is shot.( I somehow pulled it together for this interview)

Tell me something to make me feel better because I just want to cry had have cried all night and some of today. 😭

I feel trapped and hopeless.

Congratulations! Brilliant persistence.

Keep going!!! And good luck!

My theme song throughout this was "we gotta get outta this place" by the animals.

I would sing it in my head Every. Single. Day. as I walked in the revolving doors...

I read on another thread about job fatigue and i found it was true by the end some of them were blurring into each other slightly and if i hadnt got this id have needed a bit of a break before going back into it.

I absolutely love that you had a theme tune! I’ll be banging that out tomorrow morning while I finally apply for a role I’ve been procrastinating about. Thank you!

@PenAndPapyrus really hope you applied for that job! 💕

I keep getting rejection emails though from other jobs and somewhat laughably the company who originally rejected me after I got the final 2 in APRIL send me a no reply email last night saying they were "progressing with other applicants" 😅😅😅
absolute clowns...