Name changed for this.
I have been a pregnant 15 year old, thank god not from rape as that's another horrendous element to this story. I knew I was pregnant from around 12 weeks but I concealed this until it was impossible to conceal anymore and then acted surprised when it came out. I was too frightened to access any healthcare and I basically buried my head in the sand that it was even happening to me.
During the period where I knew, I repeatedly punched myself in the stomach. I tried throwing myself to the ground, I jumped off a quite high roof enough to badly sprain my ankle, I contemplated stabbing myself in the stomach. Anything to try and trigger a miscarriage.
So I find this case very hard, no you absolutely do not think straight. However, I doubt I could not have gone on to kill a living baby, the baby that was in my tummy during that time where I was trying to myself and 'it' was not to me a baby.
That being said also, I was lucky, when it did eventually come out, I was supported and loved by those close to me and gave birth to and brought up a beautiful healthy wonderful child who I love very much.
If I had not had that support, if I was alone, frightened and panicked, who knows. I doubt I would have taken those actions personally but I can see how someone could.
It is horrifying what she did and I do not condone it but I feel for her and I hope she gets help.