Thank all so much it means the world.
I'd like to share the poem I wrote after I sent the uni the gdpr request, it was cathartic for me to write.
The day I dread the most
My dearest darling daughter, with wonder in your eyes
I dread to tell you of the wolves, lurking in disguise.
For now your life is simple, you are a joy to behold,
But I will have to tell you all the things I wish that I was told.
That life can change completely, that happiness can end,
That the one that you should beware is the big brother type of friend.
For when trust is given freely, the consequences we can't ignore,
I didn't know that he would be the first to take advantage, to shake my beliefs to the core.
Because I believed naively, in a bond that wasn't true,
In a world of pain and sorrow, his ideas were fresh and new.
I put him on a pedestal, captivated by intelligent conversation,
I never had a warning that his actions could cause this kind of desolation.
When I reached out for help I was sadly turned away
The blame put on my shoulders, it should never have been that way.
The hatred all consuming, the bitterness it grew,
Until I couldn't trust anyone or believe the things that I once knew.
This complete betrayal was not part of my plan,
Something that would never happen, had I been born a man.
Why did my girlfriends leave me, when I passed out that night?
Why did no one question that something wasn't right?
The answer is we trusted him, this big brother type.
Charming, funny, older, wiser, we all believed his hype.
That he wasn't like other men, the ones who pose a danger.
This was someone I loved, like a brother, not a total stranger.
For now you are too young to know how cruel the world can be.
But it is my life's mission to protect you from the things that happened to me.
One day I'll have to warn you of the wolves, lurking in disguise.
But for now my darling daughter there is only wonder in your eyes.
(And now I'm off to work before I cry!)
Ps I see a wolf here 🐺