thank you for sharing that Madbad - it is always interesting to have personal input from someone with direct experience. Apart from working with a transgender person many years ago and some people who live locally to me (although I would never presume to start asking them personal questions about their lifestyle, they say hello and I say hello and everyone's happy), I have little direct testimony to work on.
I'm sorry that you had such emotional challenges in your childhood.
Could I ask, was it an emotional sort of feeling of wanting to be a girl, or more of a physical manifestation, or both? Without prying too much, were there any childhood difficulties, sibling loss, parental difficulties etc etc that you have subsequently found to be a trigger for your feelings? or did they just grow?
You mentioned that at age 6 you didn't have the words to articulate how you felt - at what point did you find those words?
I must admit I am slightly intrigued at your rather low opinion of us on FWR, is that from personal observations of the interactions on the boards, or did you have preconceived ideas before coming here? There do seem to be fairly strong feelings out there that we are all awful - we are not komodo dragons wanting to eat you up.
I hope, from spending some time on this board you will understand that we are not all against transgender people, in fact you on many threads you will have seen quite a degree of sympathy for people in such distress but our main focus, and I hope you can see that, is that we want to protect the children (and ourselves) from marauding males (we have been programmed for this for millenia).
From what you say it would seem that you have not had major surgery relating to this? I hope you can understand that the impact on young girls (and boys) of having major, life changing surgery and hormone treatment is huge and should be treated with extreme caution (personally I believe that no one should be able to consider it until after age 25 when the frontal lobes develop fully and people can assess risk and consequences fully) and as there seems to be such a high risk of the clinicians getting it wrong and misdiagnosing (or the young people self diagnosing - this happens in no other clinical situation), that we must take this very seriously and err on the side of extreme caution.
Anyway, thank you for your time on this.