You go in for the mammogram and the tech is already stood there? You’re undergoing this already agreed painful procedure and you’re watching how the tech’s hips join her body.
You go in with your eyes closed?!
You know how when you go down a flight of stairs, your body just does it, without slow step by step deliberation? Well mine does anyway. Because I've done it so many times before and I'm lucky enough to be healthy. It's like that. Almost out of my awareness. Until there's an irregularity - like a missing step - that wakes me up and makes me pay attention.
And actually in a smear /mammogram scenario I will be hypervigilant to any irregularity. That's the joy of ptsd.
I guess you don't have the same experience. That's ok.