This is a very confused person indeed. Early on she says "Not once in my 26 years had I been pregnant and I had planned to keep it that way. Life was hard enough, why add to it?"
But not long afterwards "I knew he’d be happy, we’d discussed having kids and it was something we both wanted…someday."
Mind you, the later paragraph on how "angry" she was when her first husband (a) wasn't all that happy when she "came out" as NB and then later decided he was trans (what are the odds, eh?) suggests a person with a massively self-centred view of the world. In my opinion.
An opinion supported by this bit: "“Motherhood” is a concept that is ruling my life right now, and any masculine traits I might have clung to have just gone out the window completely. It sort of feels like I’m slipping away. I’ve spent the last 6 years building this love for myself based on my identity, and I’m watching it get blown full of holes. I think I’d be in worse shape if I hadn’t anchored myself by building my identity for myself and myself alone."
As others have pointed out, I see she's assigned her child's sex before birth...
Make your mind up, love...