Also please don't feel sorry for me. I'm not a victim
You were having what you thought was consensual sex with adult men when you were pre-teen. You thought it was reasonable for a 15 year old to have a sexual relationship with a 30 year old man. Keep telling yourself you were not a victim but as someone else said the level of cognitive dissonance needed to get to that belief is mind- blowing.
You clearly also have no idea what "grooming" means.
But you need not worry about anyone feeling sorry for you given your posts on this thread.