I am black. Not trans black, but black parents black.
Rachel Dolezal was peak trans for me. When I honestly couldn't answer how trans race was any different, as my friends lambasted her for "appropriating the trans narrative", i began to see big big holes.
Rachel D loves black culture, Africanism and Black history. She sees herself with dark skin and braids, dates black men and women and wears dashikis. Is this what makes someone black? Does liking dresses and Sex and the City, wearing make up and being a feminist = woman?
Lots of white people tell me I'm not "very black" because I don't fit a stereotype in their head. Yet the thing that makes me black is my skin tone, my heritage, my parentage. Rachel Dolezal was born of two white parents. How can she be black?
Additionally, how you are treated by the outside world affects how your identity is shaped and how you connect with your community. I was aware that I was black, and the weight that carried, from I was jusrt out of toddlerhood. I learned the significance of the NF graffiti on our wall. A kids in my reception class wouldn't touch me, told me I wasn't good enough because I was brown. I didn't see many children like me on the television so I was white in my dreams. With long blonde hair and blue eyes. I used to put a towel on my head and pretend it was my hair. Later, so many other young black girls said the same. I was studious and well behaved to a fault, but teachers immediately pinned me down as naughty. I had a white best friend and we were equally clever and very similar in temperament. A teacher told me I'll never get to (friend)s level and I should be okay with that. I developed an eating disorder on the back of learning that everything I am is the antithesis of beauty. As I grew older and found a voice, I realised it was always the same story with young black women. Our personalities and life made us different but what united us was our pain.
NOT dashikis, which I've never worn. Not braids, which girls with less curly hair may never wear. NOT our love of black history, or culture which is diverse throughout the diaspora.
Rachel Dolezal is a white woman with no idea what it means to be black. If our struggle makes her angry then GOOD. But that's all it is because she's never felt it as we truly have. If she found things she could "identify" with, someone's poor Southern upbringing because she's rural, that does not make her black. Blackness =/= poverty. She has no fucking idea.
And can I reliably be trans white? If I dye my hair red, bleach my skin and listen to Taylor Swift can I join team white? When people call me racist names, can I say "ahem, i'm trans white!" Can black guys use it when the police stop them for driving too nice a car? Can I be trans asian? Or is it just for confused white people who are obsessed with our cultures?
When I began to see the double standards in the trans activists saying just how compleeeetely different transgender was to RD, that's when i began to pick the whole thing apart.
And to a pp who said a black man can say something is cultural appropriation and be listened to - sorry but i laughed. That's the funniest myth on mn that racist always gets listened to. Trust me, racism is just as ignored and shut down as misogyny.