"spunkbucket"

[nobodyknows0]

i thought of you guys last night, and i come here slightly.. ashamed I'm not sure if that's the right word but i have dismissed you lot before and thought i would never seek consolidation here but here I am because last night i spent a long time crying and desperately hurt and upset and one of the only things that made me feel better was that maybe you guys would be this upset as well.

I have two dc, 5yrs and 6 weeks old, my dp works full time we're not on benefits but i am at home being a full time mum atm, currently with both as it's half term.

Yesterday i was checking my fb quickly when i saw my DP had shared a post, it was in meme style (that old pic of willy wonka guy) it said something along the lines of "So you consider yourself a full time yummymummy? more like a spunkbucket on the dole you ugly cunt." which of course had thousands of comments with people finding it hilarious. It hit me like a kick in the stomach.

DP insisted he didn't mean to share it and although he initially did find it funny when he saw i was upset he removed it and posted an apology and apologised but I admit this really hit me hard i know it's because of my own issues as well with self esteem and self worth atm but i found this so disgusting that people (men and women) could describe a mum like this and laugh about it.. it really hurts

It's not really about you or your partner LEM. I am surprised however you commented you would use this word about a good looking young man. It's a vile expression. I'm struggling and failing to see how anyone in any circumstances could find a suitable occasion to use it.

I don't think OP will be back but I hope she gets help and realises the only people who should be held in low esteem are those who created, shared and laughed at the meme.

sorry everyone i was exhausted yesterday and went to bed early before checking the thread again. i spoke to dp yesterday evening, he felt really bad and explained that he didnt think about how it would make me feel even though he didnt mean to share it he shouldnt have reacted that way and he apologised. i spoke to him a bit about how im feeling i said im worried about pnd and he said i dont have to speak to him about it unless i want to of course and i should speak to gp which im considering especially if i think about suicide again.

thank you for all your support though i want to say sorry as i have been one of those discrediting the board in the past but i was shortsighted and you are actually all a kind, wonderful and resiliant bunch thank you againfor listening and caring it means a great deal to me.

Good to see you back nobody and that you have had what sounds like a productive conversation with your DH.

Please book an appt to see the GP on Monday. I had PND & anxiety and I struggled on for ages and I didn't go to the doctor for about 3 years and I wish I'd gone sooner. There are lots of things they can do or refer you for - talking therapy, CBT, drugs etc. I had ADs and they really really helped and it's been a long haul but I'm getting better all the time. You don't need to spend your days feeling that way. Please call the doc on Monday