49. How To End A Story - Helen Garner
Finally finished this whopper of a book, which in retrospect might have been easier to manage on kindle, as it's a brick (just over 800 pages). However, I was gripped by it, despite stopping partway through and then starting again purely for a breather.
Garner has always kept diaries, and these extracts cover 20 years from 1978, when she was still married to F (everyone in her personal life is given an initial) and was living with him and their daughter M in Melbourne. The marriage with F breaks up. Eventually she meets the married V, another writer, and begins a relationship with him.
At this point I started to feel very angry indeed, because V, as he emerges from her entries, is a dour fun-sponge, rarely missing an opportunity to sneer, laying down impossible ground-rules (once they finally move into a flat together, in Sydney because he won’t countenance Melbourne, she has to go out all day, every day, because he works at home and can’t endure even to hear her moving about in another room. She has to give up her piano, and her beloved Bach. She has to sell her car. She can’t have friends to stay. And so on). There’s more, much more, but after a solid year of Garner turning herself inside out to save things - and despite them by now actually being married - it emerges that what he insisted was a 'friendship' with another woman, 'X the painter' is an affair, which he then continues to lie about…to both women. All of this is sadly familiar to anyone acquainted with the MN Relationships board, but I still cheered when Garner finally moved out.
Throughout all this, she writes so, so well; is so funny and sharp and wry and self-deprecating, that I often couldn’t put the book down and had to just read one more entry, then one more, then another…
I know @cassandre rated this, and it’s a bold for me.