The Saxenda Sisterhood

[Saxendastarter]

Hi all,

As the last thread is filling up I thought I'd start a new one so we don't get lost.

https://www.mumsnet.com/talk/weight_loss_chat/4788207-im-starting-saxenda-this-week

This is the follow up from "I'm starting Saxenda this week" I'm personally journaling my way to a hopefully healthier and happier life. I'm journaling what I'm eating, the weight I'm losing (and gaining) and trying to see the positives outweigh the negatives on a daily basis. I'm joined on this thread and journey by many amazing women who are all very supportive and who are also sharing as much or as little as they like.

I'm finding I'm opening this thread instead of opening the cupboards, the fridge and the food delivery app on my phone and feeling less in my struggles and frustration and writing about my days makes me realize my life isn't all bad.

I'm thankful for all the voices in this thread and feel supported by the sisterhood of women from all over facing the same body struggles as I am.

I post some pictures and photos and I really like it when others do too.

If you're new please join us if you want to and let us know how you're getting on with your Saxenda journey. Come here for compliments when you deserve them and commiseration when you need some. You're welcome whatever your age, wherever you are and if you have 1kg or 10 stone to loose.

I've been on Saxenda for 10 weeks and lost 9.2kg (1st 6.2lbs) so far. I started at over 96kg and am now 87 and a bit. I have at least another 20kg to go to be happy with how I look - but knowing that the Saxenda sisterhood is here makes the journey seem less intimidating.

@WhiteNumen Thank you for sharing. I was lucky to get early diagnostic and treatment and didn’t sort of have a passage through No mans land to get a diagnostic. My ex mother in-law ( we weren’t married but together for 10 years from when was 16 to 26 so as close as ) recognized, even through my smiles and laughter that I was suffering. She took me aside at a family gathering when I was just 17 and just showed me her médecine cabinet and everything she took to function, she is bipolar and highly medicated. She told it was okay to need help. My family is much more of a « when the going gets tough the tough get going » mindset and see mental health issues as self indulgent weakness. I’ve been NC with pretty much all of them a part from a brother and sister since I was 19 and was sectioned when I crashed after my first professional exams and got a sermon about the fact that no one was shooting me and I was an embarrassment… And although she is now retired ex MIL was a kick arse lady lawyer - like so amazing she was quoted quite a bit when I studied law. She was a right pain in the arse and otherwise quite a busybody and would pull the breadbasket away from me at any meal as soon as I hit over 52kg in such a French way - but she saved my life and found me the help I needed. She’s very much of the opinion that sometimes only a chemical straight jacket will help. Even though I haven’t seen her child in 7 years she still checks in from time to time.

I do worry about the interaction between Sax and my ADs but I know that I am surrounded by enough people who care for me enough to pull the alarm bell if they think I am getting unwell. Starting by my cleaning lady who has in the past called a close friend of mine when she thought me working from home two weeks running on her day and not having done my washing up was a sign …

Welcome @MsLK14 ! For me the buffet is the ultimate Saxenda moment ! Let us know how it goes for you and if you get your order.

@Everdecreasingcircumferences I always find mummy tummies charming and think about the story they tell. The obsessing is hard and I’m also guilty of it.

@CiderJabs Im sure you’ll rock that bikini. I’m used to French beaches and pools and being the largest so the hotel pool here was surprising for me with ladies of all sizes in bikinis and they all looked good in different ways!

@Sotiredmjmmy Nothing to add to what you’ve posted but this is the jingle I have in my head when I read your username

@Saxendastarter pretty much same story, the shaming was awful too, and the feeling of never being enough that stays with you.. I'm 38 and I still feel like a little one at times! But glad you have a good support system. Trust me when I say without it it's 100% harder. Friends have left me when I was on my lowest more than once. And now it's just me.

I'm back home and usual after a day at the office ( I WFH 4 days a week luckily) I crave crappie food. I need to endure it, remember saxenda is bloody expensive and that the pizza doesn't even taste that good! One more day!

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@WhiteNumen I feel you.🌹🌹🌸💐🌺🌷🌻 It took me to my thirties to find friends that weren’t just fair weather, one who is now a very good friend was sort of on the outskirts of my life. She sent me a random text the last time I got out of two weeks of inpatient care and I told her ( we were no longer working together and so I just sort of texted « I got out of hospital yesterday so not up for much don’t think I can do another zoom apéro » ) she’s normally a bit of a raving party animal but she offered to come over ( it was covid, but not strict lockdown and she argued that it was an urgent need so she should come as I was just out and had separated and was back home alone) she bought food and fancy pancy stuff to make alcool free cocktails - said she’d had no idea I suffered. She abandoned her husband and spent a full week with me just mooching about and watching crap and helped me sort my backlog of work emails and did a shitload of my work actually. I was doing another « Thankyou Thankyou Thankyou » and she just came out with ( in her very strong Chinese accent) « Oh Sax, we’re too old to be dealing with fair weather cunts and I’ve been close to murdering my husband through lock down so Thankyou for giving me an escape ». It made me laugh for the first time in weeks because she’s normally so trim and proper and modest even when she’s raving drunk and I don’t think I’ve heard her ever say anything ruder than « damm ». She never mentionned her stay to other aquintences but what she said really stayed with me.

Im sure you’ll find a friend or friends and it’ll come out of the blue. The good do outweigh the bads in life just as good people outweigh arseholes … sometimes it’s just hard to recognise who the good people are. In the meantime this board is here!

And instead of snacking this evening can you give you feet a good soak and some pre summer love whilst watching something you enjoy ?

Im mumsnetting with a view while FPOTM deals with work calls ….

Thank you @Saxendastarter it's refreshing to be understood for once. She does sound like a good friend, I'm very happy for you!

I've been good, had 300 cals left for dinner and made a salad with boiled egg and a slice of toast, that should do!

@WhiteNumen what app is that?

@WhiteNumen I'm so jealous! I have to stick to 1100ish cals to loose. It's shit being short!
Thank you @Saxendastarter, I'll make a start looking through those!

Had a not great afternoon after a good breakfast and large salad for lunch. I know it's not hunger that led me to eating two miniature magnum style ice creams just now. Struggling since starting my new job last week, I dont do well just sitting reading stuff on a screen at home all day. Am supposed to be researching for some tasks for a qualification I'm studying, and I just can't focus at all.
Sorry for the woe is me post, not felt like this for weeks but the the last couple of days have been draining, thought I should be honest about my off day.
Tomorrow is going to be a better day.

@Everdecreasingcircumferences
youre right about one thing - tomorrow will be a better day.

It’s one day and two mini ice-creams … I mean look at the amount I drink in my daily diaries - I think I go over the équivalant of 2 mini magnums of calories just in alcool most days … it is what it is. C’est la vie! You’re aware which is a great start. But those ice teams aren’t going to ruin anything. Take care. New jobs and studying are stressful. Be kind to yourself.

I’ll level with you all I wasn’t QUITE able to resist the buffet however usually I’d be polishing off a bit of everything, I settled for some mini sausages and a slice of bread. I resisted all the muffins and doughnuts which I usually crave like crazy but I just didn’t feel the urge to even try them

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Hello all! Sorry for quietness, have been trying to have a break from my phone.

I am sorry that there has been so much 'discussion' around Saxander. My mental health is also massively compromised due to my weight, but I am very good at putting on a big smile and so people don't know. But I have to really pull myself into gear to do anything these days. So I will feel no guilt...

That said, I am getting concerned about supplies! My endocrinologist appointment is finally in 2 days!!! I have spent three months building up to this moment, I will be devastated if they say no.
I don't know anyone else taking it in RL here, so let's see.... (also, I want my insurance to cover this!!

This thread is a great thing, thank you to all for contributing, especially with such candid honesty. Between this and instagram stalking related hashtags for success photos (I love transformation photos!), I am feeling inspired and prepared for the journey ahead.

@Saxendastarter I can see a big difference! Keep it up. (Also, thank you for the book recommendation. It's ordered!)

And loving the holiday photos...

@CiderJabs the app is called nutracheck, I have android so not sure if it's also on iphone. You pay a small fee to use it, but better and more accurate database that myfitnesspal

@Saxendastarter loving your holiday pics, statues and paintings fascinate me

@ThisMustBeMyDream ahah I'm a shortie too, but 1500-1700 is my sweet spot, more if I actually do my 10k steps. It might seems odd, but more controlled eating and decent activity rewards me with weight loss.
(During my hypomania episode, when i lost 25kg, I was eating around 1800cals and doing 10-30k steps a day, once managed 50k.. don't recommend.. I couldn't move the day after lol

@Everdecreasingcircumferences I'm sorry you are having an hard time, are you able to work at the office? I'm the opposite, I feel great at home but when I've to get in I get cranky and exhausted quickly.
Try not to be too hard on yourself.. you are allowed to eat ice cream.. if you are doing CICO see it as a weekly thing, and not daily.. some day you eat more and can be compensated by others.. and I'd you don't.. Well, you won't be gaining fat for that..
You are right l.. tomorrow is another day l, so don't beat yourself up too much.

@MsLK14 ahh office buffets.. they do sneak up on you. Great job though, you have allowed yourself some but didn't go overboard. Your mentality is shifting and that is great

Thank you @WhiteNumen - I know nutracheck and I think it does look different on Android! I've used it before but I didn't get on with the exercise bit- however I do agree their database is the best one around.

I'm in the processing of deciding if I need to calorie count. My jab days are almost over so I need a plan of action. I've used Noom before (both paid and free) and although the database is crap, I'm used to it and have added a lot of my favourites so that helps. It's just such a faff to log everything!

Scales still showing 10-9.2 this morning. So I've made it to a stone in 8 weeks which im pleased with as I've been on a low dose all along. I need to lose one more stone ideally and whether I can do it cold turkey is yet to be confirmed. Im scared of taking weight loss pills unless they have been personally recommended. So if anyone has one they have used and saw some benefits pjs let me know.

Does anyone drink jeera water? I have just been reading up on it and apparently it is very beneficial for people trying to reduce appetite...

All - simple online pharmacy are showing stock of groups of 3 pens BUT they’re saying only existing customers who have ordered from them before… so if you’re looking and have ordered there before GET IN THERE!!!! 😁

@justsaxy I think that's made with cumin isn't it? It's meant to boost your imune system and regulate your gut. I used to drink it when I was having chemo (don't ask!) and it tasted horrible (but to be fair everything tasted like metal anyway). I don't know how much it actually helps but it's natural and supposed to have lots of healing properties, or so my Indian friends tell me. If you like the taste it's worth giving it a go. You can use cumin powder as well if you can't get hold of the seeds.

Yes that's the one.

I might give it a go, I have a big bag of cumin and I quite like the taste in cooking.

@Saxendastarter @WhiteNumen thank you ❤. Today has been much better so far, still struggling to concentrate but feel less low. I think what I found hard yesterday was I knew I was eating the ice cream because I was seeking a mood boost, back to my old habits essentially, instead of just eating ice cream because I fancied it. When we had our visitors the other weekend I didn't feel guilty for enjoying chippy tea or some booze, and I will no doubt have an ice cream when we're out as a family tomorrow as those are the right occasions for it. What I am a long way off changing is what my mind craves when I'm feeling low/tired/stressed - and that's what's led me to needing saxenda in the first place.

However, these are the moments to take stock. I am still at the same weight I was 11 days ago which is frustrating, but on the other hand if I think of the many, many times I have weighed myself in the last 5 years and desperately wished for a figure as low as I am at today, I have to accept I am already achieving. Slow and steady stays off longer - need to tattoo that to my brain!

Love the support in this thread, we all have our reasons for being here and none of us deserve to be made to feel bad for wanting to improve our health.

@justsaxy I love transformation photos too! Really gives me hope and motivation to see someone who was my size and then has shrunk to a size 14 or 12 or 10. One day that will be me!

@CiderJabs I calorie count & find it really helpful just to give me a sense check. I use the App on my Samsung phone, and because I'm a bit of an odd ball I have a note book from amazon. It is a wellness planner really but I use it as a place to do journaling, note targets, self doubt & general feelings.

@Everdecreasingcircumferences I absolutely get what you are saying. It's that hunt for a dopamine hit, which food gives us instantly, then we are in a cycle. It is so hard to fight sometimes. Glad you are having a better day today. You are doing really well.

Thank you to everyone for their honesty and openness - In way everyone's body tells a story of the life they have lead, wobbly bits and all.