Thank you girls. I'm not stopping long, just wanted to say sorry again for the moan. I feel so disappointed and upset, and just angry with him. Its make me feel even more worthless, and once again, bottom of the pile of priorities. Cant believe he's done this to me again. Not just the mothers day thing, but, not coming home for the weekend, and putting work first.
He's obsessed with us not having enough money, but i'm back on full pay at the moment, so we have more than we've had in over a year.... he gets paid so well for weekends, especially nights. However, i've told him time and time again, whats the point in providing and supporting a family you are never with. A family that might not always just be here, safely for him to come and find the warmth and love we have here for him. He doesnt deserve us at the moment, and I know I dont deserve this either.
Its not deliberate, I know its not. Its him being a thoughtless, forgetful t**t. He was convinced it is next weekend.... despite the fact that I'm going out saturday night next weekend and we will be in a hotel, next weekend, and he is babysitting Isobel next weekend, so I can find a bit of my life back. next Fucking weekend oh, and of course NEXT FRIDAY i'm seeing the lovely bumpless katy!
JUst feel bad, ranting all the time here... fuckety fuck, fuck fuck. sorry about my language. not like me i know, but this is what i've been made to feel. I will feel better in a bit, i'm sure. plus, v bad pain yet again, so not helping, and I think AF is thinking of making a visit.