I have come to some conclusions about my eating and wanted to get them down in black and white so to speak so that when I doubt myself I can read them back. Does that make sense
Ok so, after really wanting chocolate(which I think is my main problem) over the last few days, and resisting, I have concluded that I dont need chocolate. Quite obvious but whenever I get down I turn to it as a comfort, but really that silly as it makes me feel worse because I know I won't lose weight by eating it like I was.
Crips do not fill you up. I had some on, erm, monday and really I didn't need them. I was no less hungry after them so it was a bit silly eating them.
I am losing weight for myself. So if I fall off the wagon and give into temptation the only person losing out is ME.
I have realised that I need to work really hard to lose weight. It won't happen overnight, mores the pity. I have to start exercising and looking after myself. No-one else is going to do it. It's down to me and me alone. I am really finding he support on this thread and the support from dh very helpful. It's such a hard thing to do. I need someone there to tell me I can do it(how pathertic is that?!)
I want to feel happier looking at myself and the only way to do that is to lose weight. I use to like my figure before I met DH. It's not his fault I have put on weight, just one of those things. I want to look how I did pre DH. I want to feel sexy and confident. I want to be able to wear clothes I like. I know that sounds silly as you can get clothes n all shapes and sizes that you like. But atm I refuse to buy anything too expensive as I don't want to stay this size so I hope to not have to wear them for too long. So I tend to only buy clothes on sale, and then I kinda of settle for whatever is not too expensive.Does that make any sense?
Ultimately i'm not bothered what the scales say or what the size of my clothes is, I just want to feel better about myself. I want to smile when I see my reflection. When I go out it'd be nice to get some kind of attention like my friends do. I am married so would never do anything but I just miss that ocassional attention of being noticed, does that make sense. It just gives you that confidence that actually you're not that bad.
Thanks for letting me get that out. Not that anyone had much choice but it feels better to have typed it out. I have to say I have wanted to lose weight for some time. But couldn't really get up the enthusiasm. I now feel that I can do it. and I am in the right mindset to do it, well, ocassionally not, but in the main I am
Sorry to waffle on