ok INCREDIBLY sorry, not had time to look at thread, so apologies for no personals... just wanted to say, have weighed and lost 4 lbs!!!!
Am in slight hurry as we are going up to newcastle to be with DH this weekend. He has to work saturday night, so enough was enough. I told him i'd had enough. I've asked if we could go up there every week for the last 3 now, and he's said there's no point as he's working odd hours all the time incl days and nights. Which doesnt bother me, even if we see him for an hour day and are under same roof for some of bedtime...
Anyway he called this evening to say he's got to work saturday night again so he can't come home, but would be taking wed-mon off of the following week. I just said, really coldly, and calmly ( which shocked me a lot) that we are no longer really having a relationship are we. He cried, ( unusual and ) and said immediately please book the first train you can tomorrow, doesnt matter how much it costs, or fly if you'd prefer.
So, I booked the train. we can't afford the plane, but would have been quicker. I just can't justify it, when the train is prob easier and so much cheaper at short notice. ( still bloody expensive though (£99 )
I"m really really excited. I was shocked at my lack of reaction to him saying he wasn't coming home. So i'm pleased that i feel excited to be seeing him. If that makes sense?
He told me he's been distant because it helps him cope with not being here as if he thinks about it too much, and lets himself get 'emotional' about it, it really hurts to be away from his girls and he can't cope with the hurt. Why can't I just switch off like a man can? makes perfect sense to him!
so will love you and leave you all ( with another epic post ) and see you early part of next week.
Take care, be good, keep up the good eating.
xxxx