10 stones, 140 lbs, a whole bloody person to lose!! Anyone else?

[10stonestolose]

Age:45
Starting weight: 19st 10lbs on 01/01/17
Goal: 9st 10lbs
Plan: low carb, high fat

Well, it's the biggest I've ever been. Feel horrid, but determined to make this the last year of being a fat person. I''m going to diet the shit out of this mess I'm in! I've see threads to lose 100lbs, but not 140. If anyone else is in the same scary boat and fancies friendly, non-judgmental journey sharing, please say hello and share away.

lots also having cravings today - a colleague brought in a chocolate cake just for me and her last night so I couldn't say no, but my god it's set off the sugar monster today
Trying to be sensible, had a really high protein breakfast so I know I'm logically not hungry and going to try baked strawberries and yoghurt for a sweet hit (they're in the oven now) but the temptation to crack and eat the kids Christmas chocolate...
Might try drinking more, I think it's to do with having something to do with my hands/mouth more than anything else sometimes that sounds like something from a 'carry on' film doesn't it?!

Koko, we're getting there...

I like your idea of adding it all together in terms of how many women we've lost on a particular day wobbly. Perhaps we could add up our total monthly loss on the last day of each month?

Enjoyed a chilled afternoon off and managed to stick to plan. Made baked lemon chicken for dinner and thrown it in the oven, just off to find some green veg to go with it and dinner should be on plan too, so hopefully i'll have got through the day unscathed. I definitely haven't drank the amount of water I should have though, so I'd better get guzzling!

Love the pic holy....we are definitely unicorns.

Be strong holy, you can do it!

Holy I managed to resist all day- My fingers were twitching, mouth watering & couldn't think about anything else. But what a good feeling to resist- It must be similar to how a drug addict feels! I so want to be a unicorn & but I don't think unicorns wear knickers as big as mine

Came across this through twitter today and found it really struck a chord (Apologies to it being a link to the DM) It made me think again about my relationship to food - to the secret eating, parents poor attitude to food, constant dieting and failing, food obsession (friends food obsession), bad/sinful food etc etc.

KOKOing today, this time next week we will have finished January & belt is feeling a bit looser today which is always a bonus. Soup for lunch and possibly a stir fry for tea, bit boring but quick. It is hard at times to keep meals healthy/low cal but varied and interesting.

Oh wobbly I'm sure they do! Big pants with rainbows on ! That article sounds like my autobiography...it's a bit depressing isn't it. I've got to get the weight off and don't want a counsellor to distract me from that for now, but as I get close to my target weight I think I do need help to make the permanent changes and so food isn't that important in my life. My aim is somehow to learn how to think like a slim, moderate eater who eats for fuel not comfort.

Breakfast and lunch good so far for me today. Might have to be a bit inventive with dinner as fridge is looking a bit bare. Walking tonight though, so don't have time to nibble and I never feel like it when I get back.

Only 5 days left of Jan, let's make it count!

Hi, I was here under a different name earlier, but 'YorkiesGlasses' was grammatically annoying, so I went back to an older name!

I had an odd week. I ate pretty mindlessly, but only had low/no-fat stuff in the cupboards and on my end of week weigh-in found I'd lost 4 pounds without trying! So then I ate an entire packet of Wagon Wheels and put a pound back on. I really need to avoid the scales altogether... I'm under 250 pounds now, but barely.

Good article in the DM ( not a statement I am accustomed to make).

My DM was naturally slim, no hips, tiny waist, ate normally but food just fell off her. DF v Different and if course I inherited his genes as well as comfort eating. Have been saying for ages to doctors that overeating is a serious mental issue, glad it's finally being recognised as such.

Good news here, another 2lb off, so half a stone. But I'd taken off half a stone pre Christmas so I'm now a stone down on where I was at start Dec. And a dress size down.

Won't be quite so good this week as went out to dinner last night to celebrate retirement and had two glasses of wine, mussels and risotto ( which for the first time ever I couldn't finish). Exercise needed..

I'm doing ok but not great with my diet the last couple of days. Part of it is ive had a really bad cold and haven't been able to get to the supermarket and so have had limited options and had to go to the coop which is bloody expensive and a total fail on my part to not eat crap. I conned myself into thinking I could make low carb desserts but they actually weren't low carb and extremely high in fat, I got them off a website that said 'Low carb' but they obviously don't really know the meaning of that and it wasn't until I started to enter it into mfp that it dawned on me. I blame the cold for the foggy thinking. I'm going shopping tomorrow!

As someone who has three dogs and very much believed in force-free, reward-based training, this picture very much sums up one of my biggest problems with food.
Just as I reward my labs with food, I also have a habit of rewarding myself with food.
I think it's ingrained in human culture - so many celebrations involve great feasts (Christmas, Weddings, we go for meals when someone graduates or gets engaged).
Even now I have to slap myself out of thinking "oooh when I lose X amount of weight I'll treat myself to a doughnut/chocolate/cake".
However so far I've found the trick is to "reward" myself for no reason. I'll have a whole bowl of jelly, but it's sugar free and I'll have it whenever I feel like it.
I'm need to break the mentality that food is a reward, rather than a necessity.

Can I join please?

Currently 19 stone 2 and gained 3 1/2 stone in the last 12 months

I'm trying to calorie count and get my binge eating habits under control.

After a good day have just filled my face with chocolates. Noooo.

Welcome lagirafe

Oh no Orlando, was there a trigger?

DS wanted to open the last box if Christmas chocolates...

So weighed myself this morning and have gone down to 19 st 10 - lost another 4lbs this week. Am really pleased.

DS cooked lentil and tomato soup at school today so I'm going to have that for dinner, when DH comes home.

I meant to post that last night.!

BONUS- breaking news this morning, my coat now does up! So pleased, now not cold.

I'm trying not to weigh myself but feel a bit lighter already!

I have decided to avoid all chocolate / cake etc as I am unable to eat these in moderation I am going away with my DP for a night on 17th Feb and will allow myself a treat night then.

I've been to M&S this morning for a couple of "treat" pots of rainbow fruit so I don't feel I am missing out over the weekend

Jake That is a great loss for the week well done! And not cold- that feeling when clothes are loose is great isn't it. If you are anywhere near me you definitely need your coat done up this week- it's bitter.

Orlanda ........the curse of the leftover Christmas chocolates-earlier in the thread someone (apologies to poster- on phone so can't scroll back too easily) shared an analogy about the having a flat tyre & it not slashing the others, it's one day you can pull it back. But a stone & a dress size overall is a great achievement.

Welcome Lagirafe more the merrier.

Just back from my little lunch time walk- even had a little jog so as not to freeze my bits off- I don't think I would have done that at Christmas but I do feel lighter and able to run up stairs etc.

Feeling organised with food choices today, not only homemade soup but a slow cooker chicken curry ready for tonight- fingers crossed- this seems to stop me eating crap or getting home and eating the contents of the fridge. Another KOKO day today.....why isn't this weight loss thing more instant? Have a good day everyone.

lagirafe welcome along, its binge eaters anonymous here, so you've come to the right place!

Gator...well done on the 4lbs off and for getting under the 250lbs mark. If it wasn't for those pesky wagon wheels. I think I'd be just the same if left alone with a pack. They'd start calling my name and I'd be done for.

Orlanda...well done on the 2lbs off! I'm with you on trying to convince people this thing is as valid an eating disorder/mental illness as any other. I think unless you have this addiction to food (and it is an addiction we have to come face to face with at every mealtime), people really don't understand, do they? I want to poke the 'eat less, move more' brigade in the eye with a sharp stick. It'd be interesting to see how well the reformed alcoholics, drug addicts and smokers would have done at conquering their addiction if they still had to shop for it weekly and consume it 3 times a day. Does anyone expect that they'd be able to partake in lifelong moderation under those circumstances? No!!! Yet the obese are derided as undisciplined and weak-willed in a way none of the sufferers of other eating disorders or addictions are. Sorry rant over. Sorry that that last box of Christmas chocolates came back to bite you.

Narc.....hope you're feeling a bit better. It's really hard low-carbing with an empty fridge too. I've also found some online low carb recipes to not always be what they seem. Just get yourself better and you'll soon be back into the swing of it.

Box....yes the food as reward thing is so difficult when it's deeply ingrained. I'm used to turning to food as a reward, as well as when I'm happy, sad, to celebrate, for comfort, out of boredom. We've all got to find other rewards that work for us; I'm pretty sure mine will be clothes once I'm fitting in size 16 and below.

Jakeswife....congrats on 4lbs off and I bet being able to do your coat up feels wonderful!

Wobbly...oh if only it was instant! I've got a slow cooker that's been sitting on top of my fridge freezer for the last couple of years unused. You've just inspired me to dig it out. That would be perfect for the days I'm running DD around to after school hobbies. We both walk in starving and I never feel like starting from scratch then.

I've had a pretty good week. I do think sometimes my portions are too big though, so must address that and I need to get my steps up a bit. I need to try to be extra good today as it's my weigh-in tom. Have a good weekend all!

Feeling a bit demotivated as I seem to have hit a bit of a plateau. Going to try drinking loads of water and doing a bit of exercise this weekend. Got tax return to do though ugh!

Demotivated too angel, on 4 weeks today and feeling grumpy and tired, don't know if there's a reason or just cfs shite
Having curry for breakfast, it's 'free' on sw and the kids are having chocolate brioche and waffles and I want to rip the sugary carby goodness out of their hands and shove it in my mouth so quite frankly porridge made with water wasn't going to cut it this morning

I agree with pp about it being an addiction, I get 'high' from food and when it's my only treat (single mum, demanding job, no real friends in the area, no spare money plays tiny violin) then I do look forward to my evenings with a bar of chocolate/glass of wine/pack of biscuits

Struggling with addiction here too today.
I've had a protein snack (chicken & egg) but it's not satisfied me.
Lunch is salad with mozzarella and beetroot but I am craving sweet things. Might see if a can of Diet Coke will help!

Sorry to those struggling too but it's nice to know I'm not alone!

Lagirafe Hartleys Sugar free jelly is a lifesaver for me. Sweet and I can eat the whole bowl guilt free.

I lost 4lb at weigh in today. That makes 8lb in three week and means I'm now officially under the "10 stone to lose" bracket

for you all finding things a bit tough today. Weekends are always harder I find. Holy your curry for breakfast is inspired though!

Box....4lbs off is brilliant. Have a shiny half stone off sticker

I've found a 'free' lemon curd/posset type recipe that I'm going to try to get over my sugar thing plus I'm baking as Mondays meeting is 'bring a snack' so I'm going to make diet-y carrot cake...hopefully will keep me out of trouble for the rest of the day!

10,

EXACTLY! You can't go cold turkey because you have to eat the bloody turkey...

Well, yesterday I rewarded myself, with a new nightie! ( Yes, I wear nighties, prob the last person in the hemisphere, planet, galaxy to do so). Just what I wanted, pure cotton, TKMaxx and £15. And, yay, when I checked the size it claims that it's even the size down... mind you, a) I don't believe it and b) that's still ginormous and c) because it is pyramid shape it covers the hips...So I have another tent I can fit into with comfort. But one of these days I shall be a nymph in diaphanous glamour..