Officially my heaviest and time to change. Anyone with me?

[DreamingOfADifferentMe]

Hi all,

Well, having just returned from a gorgeous week's holiday, I decided to take the plunge and step onto the scales. Bloody hell.

I'm officially the heaviest I've ever been. I look awful. And I'm desperate to change. I've spent the last few days reading threads on here that I think will inspire me and I'm determined to make a change.

I have a number of milestones to get to, including a holiday in October, but the big one in my head is going to see the GP in a few weeks' time for a repeat prescription for my contraceptive pill. Last year, she made some reference about my weight as they may not have been allowed to prescribe it, given my high BMI. She did, and prescribed me a year's worth, and they're nearly gone. Have I lost weight? Have I heck - I'm actually heavier, and I can't bear the idea of going back and having the same utterly humiliating conversation.

So, I'm just debating the best approach. I know low/no carbs works really well for me, though I can struggle to stick with it, but that's what I'm going for initially.

This morning I weighed in at 15st 11, and I'm just 5ft 4. I'm a size 18. This cannot be who I am. I am not the woman who looks back at me in the mirror.

My mission is to shift, ideally, around 3st initially. I know that I look and feel great at 12st something, and even though I'll be far from a size 10 skinny minnie, I will feel fantastic. Then, when I get to that point, we'll see.

However, when there's such a long road ahead, I know I get easily defeated. So, does anyone fancy a hand to hold along a similar path? I'm happy to give tonnes of support and will cheer folk on, anyone fancy returning the favour?

Im so frustrated. Just seem to be constantly 'floating' around 62kg, despite eating well and exercising. Its like im 'stuck'

That's really frustrating Emma - better than gaining though, I guess?

Wednesday
• Two bowls of cereal
• Cherries and strawberries
• Bag of Hula Hoops
• Satsuma
• Pitta with tuna mayo and cucumber
• 500ml water
• Jacket potato with butter, baked beans and cheese
• Magnum

Hope everyone is doing well. Or at least 'better' because I know it's easy to be really hard on ourselves. And every good decision will help.

I have eaten crap food today. Pretty much bound to the sofa as the room is spinning whenever I move (I have labyrinthitis). Feel sick but in a headachy way not a gonna-puke way, which is almost a shame as maybe then I wouldn't feel like grazing!

Thursday
• Two bowls of cereal
• Bag of Hula Hoops
• Cheese straw
• Nutella sandwich on 50/50
• 500ml water
• Satsuma
• Apple
• Sautee potatoes, onions and pepper with 2 fried eggs
• Chocolate lava pudding
• 250ml water

See?! Crap.

Why's it so quiet round here? :(

If it's because people are falling off the wagon... no worries, the wagon will stay there til y'all hop back on it

Friday
• Sausage baguette with ketchup
• Small hot chocolate
• Mini chocolate brownie
• Jaffa cake
• Big glass of apple juice
• 500ml water
• Apple
• 2 slices fruit toast with butter
• 2 oreos
• 500ml water
• Handful of tictacs
• Jacket potato with tuna mayo, sweetcorn and spinach
• 2 caramel chocolate rice crispy bites
• 500ml water

Pretty crap still, found it SO hard to curb the snacking this week. I mean it's more than what I would've had otherwise, but still, too much! Again I didn't have lunch (it's a major issue with some of my shifts, it throws me all out of whack) and just gorged on stuff. Ugh.

Hey can I join too? Have been struggling with my weight the last couple of years as put on loads with pcos. Finally had enough!! Xx

can I join? I'm at my heaviest at around 14 and a half stone. I gave birth three weeks ago to a ten lb ten oz baby, (was technically heavier then) and suffered with SPD during pregnancy, which made me immobile. I literally couldn't get out of the house by the end of it, was on crutches most of that time and still need them for longer journeys now, but less frequently so hoping as I recover I can shift some weight too.

Welcome Amberley and fatty!* (Congrats on the birth! You'll have to change your name though :o) It's quiet round here but do keep posting.

Saturday
• 2 crumpets with butter and raspberry spread
• 8 cream crackers with butter, 2 slices of salami, 2 slices of cheese, carrot and celery
• 500ml water
• 7 thin sponge fingers
• Bag of Hula Hoops
• Lamb and feta patty with potatoes and lots of veg
• 500ml water
• Wham bar

I have done really badly this week and am once again dreading weigh in tomorrow. I feel like I've put on what I've lost, I just haven't had the willpower not to snack.

Hey Fuzz

Don't worry about it being quiet peoples motivation comes and goes, but as long as we keep doing what's best for us and trudging on a day at a time the thread will still be here for when people want to join or start again!

Saturday

• 2 liters of Water
• 1 glass of fizzy pomegranate and Elderflower.
• Raw Celery, tomatoes & peppers with tasiki dip.
• 2 slices of chargrilled Mediterranean Veg pizza.
• Handful of toasted pitta chips.
• Olives and Feta.
• Chocolate brownie Square.
• Cheese fondu
• Parma ham
• 4 slices of French Bagette.

Went a bit off track yesterday as had a few friends over for picnic in the garden. Luckily they are both vegetarian so it stayed relitivly healthy but still ended up having a few naughties. Oh well will have to work twice as hard on my workout today.

I've been quiet as I was at Rewind festival all weekend with no phone battery or signal.

Fallen off the wagon (way too much beer and nibbles!) in a big way, but back on it this week. Dancing all day long does get the steps up, I think I did 22,000 yesterday :-)

Hi all, sorry I've been quiet, I haven't fallen off the wagon, honest!! All of this hacker stuff made me a bit uneasy so I stayed away for a bit and only changed my password today :)

It's good to catch up with everyone. Only one week until the deadline for the first mini goal on my original list - Be under 15st 7lbs by the end of August, eek!!

We've been out for a big meal together today for my grandmothers 80th birthday, I really loosened the reins and had pate, fish and chips and then lemon drizzle cake, it was delicious and I enjoyed it all but I felt so uncomfortably full afterwards and it wasn't a nice feeling at all, I'm actually looking forward to my granola and salad tomorrow haha!!

I finished week 2 of Zombies Run this morning and ran further than I have done before followed by swimming 30 lengths so I'm feeling really pleased

Nice to see you both! :) Blimey, 22,000?

I have really struggled to control the snacking this week. I've still not eaten as much as I had before but there was definitely a loss of willpower! And yet today, I am about to have a little something now as I am genuinely hungry a good few hours after dinner, but haven't even wanted to snack otherwise.

Sunday
• Large pancake with 2tsp sugar and lemon juice
• 8 cream crackers with butter and cheese
• Carrot and cucumber
• 500ml water
• Jambalaya with chicken, chorizo, rice and veg
• Individual Kipling cake

Seems much better today. I have really struggled with water the last few days though, so I'm going to fill my bottle now and put it in the fridge overnight. Otherwise I'll just forget, or not be able to find it, so I won't end up drinking any til lunch.

I'm glad the wagon is still here, because I need it!

I'm sure I have put on the 4lb I lost at the start of the summer hols.

I need to look at what is in my fridge and plan for the week. I have very little on this week to stand in the way of a good weightloss, I just need to stop snacking and baking!

I'm too scared to step on the scales because I know they will have tipped over into the next stone up and I can't face seeing the number 14. I haven't been that weight for 20 years and I am extremely disappointed with myself.

S'ok Charley I think I've put on this week too, my eating habits just seemed to go backwards. Didn't manage to get out for any walks this week either (although I've been doing my other therapy exercises) - a week back at work - having been off sick for a month - has utterly done me in both physically and mentally. Really, really pissed off with it now.

I was off sick for 4 weeks following an op, did half a day at work, then started the school holidays with my girls. I'm so far out of my routine it's unbelievable. I've got my mobility back though and am building up my stamina again. Ddad is poorly (terminal) so we are having family lunches etc and spending time with him and making nice memories, but it always seems based round food.

One more week off, but with nothing particular food-based planned so I can count my cals and fit in a bit of exercise.

Then it's back to work in Sept with the salad packed lunches and being on my feet all day in my classroom. And a child-free day when I can fit in some exercise. I hope it will be easier to lose weight then.

Oh no, sorry about your Ddad Charley :( (((hug))) I think you just have to do whatever you can to get through this time and not worry too much about food and weight. It does sound like it'll be easier when you have the routine back when school starts - but be kind to yourself.

Thankyou.

A new week beckons. Hope I can do better this week. I've not snacked and had a decent breakfast with water. Lazy lunch planned (got those crappy Dairylea thingies for one meal this week as I'm in a lot of pain!) but that can be it til my 4pm break at work. If I make it through the shift that is - nearly phoned in sick this morning but I have to show I'm still trying. I won't lie about how I'm feeling if they ask, though.

Weighed myself and BMI slightly reduced although not lost a pound. Still, better than I was expecting as I really thought I'd put on. Not great though, so hopefully I can use this disappointment to keep me on track this week!

Breakthrough this morning - DD asked for one of the sweets I'd bought, and I said both DCs could have one. I didn't have one. I do like that type of sweet, but realised when I had one of them last week (yes they've actually stayed in the packet since then! ) I didn't actually like this brand, it was really sickly. Ordinarily I'd have eaten one anyway. But I didn't. :)

Can I join you guys?

I am also the heaviest I've ever been (except when pg!) at 13st6. Feels awful just typing that :(

I'm 42yo and have 6yo DS and 3yo DD. DH is also overweight which combined with his diabetes isn't great but he doesn't seem to care!

I'm going to try and make healthy choices for the next couple of weeks and then start properly from Mon 7th Sept. Not a good idea to start sooner as we're off on holiday to France tomorrow. (Hoping for some sun but not sure we'll get it!)

I'm using mfp. I will weigh in tonight after I've done my Wii fit.
I forgot to say I have 3 kids, 6yo DS, 20 month old DD and 23 day old DS.

I've suffered SPD since being pg with DD and it never went away so mobility has been an issue. it seems to be improving now and will do more once I'm back at physio. that could be a while though.

I find my problem is a lot of junk. so I'm stopping snacking at nights and sticking to my calorie allowance on mfp. I didn't post over the weekend as a trip to Blackpool meant I went off track a bit

oh and I'm 24.

Hello all, I've been offline for a while as we were at a festival which was amazing but sweet God it wasn't good for my waistline. I couldn't take any food to cook so was just at the mercy of the fast food available there. I tried to be good, and we walked miles and miles, plus there was nowhere to sit, so I've spent hours on my feet, but to no avail.

I made the mistake of looking at the scales this morning. Horrendously, I'm back up to where I started, and I feel utterly miserable. I've let myself down when I started so well, but I also know that this is a real wake-up call that I can't afford to take my eye off the ball. I have to tackle this and do it 100%, every single day. I know my mindset doesn't cope well with set backs and I need to tackle this properly and in a way where I won't derail myself easily.

I'm really struggling with the appointment this week with my GP which has been looming over me like a heavy black cloud for months. I've truly dreaded it and now it's nearly here and thanks to the last two weeks, I have nothing to show for the effort I put into losing weight and so I'm now just resigned to having to face the humiliation of discussing my weight, and will have to just grin and bear it, knowing that it will never happen again. I hate it. There's so much more to me than my weight, and yet, in appointments like that, I know it's all that people can see.

But, drawing a line under it all, in 8 weeks I have my holiday, and my birthday, and I need to shift as much as possible. Just after the holiday I also have some black tie things to go to, and I'm determined I won't be a lump in a frock. This morning the scales said, again, a miserable 15st 11. My first goal is 14st 9 which I haven't been below in a couple of years. After that, I'd like to get to below 14st, which I've not managed since I had my second baby, so nearly 5 years. If I can get to 13st something by the holiday, I will be beside myself.

What do you reckon, fellow dieters? Reckon that's even vaguely doable? Sorry to be so dour today, any words of encouragement and support will be much, much appreciated today.

I'm still 14st 7, despite sticking to 1300 calories and doing loads of walking, pushing the double pram and lugging around both babies who when carries together weigh over 30lbs!

Oh Fatty (sorry, we need to change your name, it feels mean to call you that), don't lose heart. I've just read how you've only just had your littlest one and your body is undoubtedly trying to adjust to the changes hormonally and physically. Don't do too much to diet, as your body will freak out and hang onto everything you put into it to ensure you're strong and have enough energy to look after your little one. Plus, when you have dreadful lack of sleep, that can interfere too. Go steadily, and I'm sure the pounds will melt off, but don't do too much too soon.

Congrats by the way and huge sympathies with the SPD, I suffered dreadfully with it with my three and still creak and ache now.

Sending you lots of encouraging vibes.