Officially my heaviest and time to change. Anyone with me?

[DreamingOfADifferentMe]

Hi all,

Well, having just returned from a gorgeous week's holiday, I decided to take the plunge and step onto the scales. Bloody hell.

I'm officially the heaviest I've ever been. I look awful. And I'm desperate to change. I've spent the last few days reading threads on here that I think will inspire me and I'm determined to make a change.

I have a number of milestones to get to, including a holiday in October, but the big one in my head is going to see the GP in a few weeks' time for a repeat prescription for my contraceptive pill. Last year, she made some reference about my weight as they may not have been allowed to prescribe it, given my high BMI. She did, and prescribed me a year's worth, and they're nearly gone. Have I lost weight? Have I heck - I'm actually heavier, and I can't bear the idea of going back and having the same utterly humiliating conversation.

So, I'm just debating the best approach. I know low/no carbs works really well for me, though I can struggle to stick with it, but that's what I'm going for initially.

This morning I weighed in at 15st 11, and I'm just 5ft 4. I'm a size 18. This cannot be who I am. I am not the woman who looks back at me in the mirror.

My mission is to shift, ideally, around 3st initially. I know that I look and feel great at 12st something, and even though I'll be far from a size 10 skinny minnie, I will feel fantastic. Then, when I get to that point, we'll see.

However, when there's such a long road ahead, I know I get easily defeated. So, does anyone fancy a hand to hold along a similar path? I'm happy to give tonnes of support and will cheer folk on, anyone fancy returning the favour?

Best laid plans and all that....

We got to F&B's and there was a sign on the door saying they were having maintenance issues and wouldn't be open til 10. So we told Dad to arrive later, and then at 10 they'd changed their sign to say they were now opening at 11.

So we decamped a few doors down and ended up having breakfast at Chiquitos! Not my first choice, but they had a great selection.

I did indeed end up with the pancakes and bacon - but they were a smaller portion than you'd get from F&B's where the pancakes are massive.

Not hungry til dinner time and have not gone mad either. I'm fancying something sweet now and may have a cornetto later. :)

So
B - pancakes and bacon
L - nothing
D - some beef kebab things cooked in the air frier. With nothing actually - I nibbled but didn't make them into a proper meal
Snack - a couple of tuc biscuits (very salty!) and the potential ice cream.

I'm watching bake off second slice and would love to make something. I'd love to whip up a batch of pancakes and have a couple but I only like them with chocolate spread and that would be a lot worse, cals wise, than an ice cream. I really have to avoid the temptation to bake when I'm dieting as I love to do it, but DH doesn't like sweet things weirdo.

Back from my welsh Wales holiday! Last couple of days slipped a bit, didn't get the steps in but after driving 3 hours home today I made the effort to walk and get milk and bread for tomorrow morning. As I live in a village with no shop, this neatly accounted for the rest of my 10,000 steps for today as I had to walk to the next town for it. (There is a footpath all the way).

Back on it tomorrow with a vengeance, I think for the first time ever I've come home from holiday lighter than when I went.

I may even get on the scales in the morning...

Bad news on the diet coke front though, 4 cans today - I will break the habit I will!

Glad to see everyone still pluggin away, this thread is making all the difference to me :-)

I live in Wales socks. That's good going to come back from a holiday lighter than you went. I took the DDs to Eurodisney at April. We made pigs of ourselves with the pastries and hot choc at breakfast each of the 4 days, pinched bread and honey and fruit to take with us for lunch and didn't have very healthy food in the evening.... and I still came back a lb lighter than I went because we walked and walked and walked....

Dh is making jam in the kitchen using our plum harvest and it's handy - it's stopping me going into the kitchen to find or make something to eat.

I weighed myself. 15st8

Fuck a doodle. If that's lighter than when I went away, things were worse than I thought.

Oh well, at least I know now!

Charley, which bit of Wales? We were in Llanelli. DH is Welsh and that's where his family are from.

Well done for braving the scales Socks!

Friday
• 2 bowls of cereal
• 250ml water
• Small wedge of brie with grapes
• 10 wotsits
• 2 slices of fruit toast with butter
• 500ml water
• Two cream crackers with butter and cheddar
• Large plate of chicken and veg curry with white rice
• 500ml water

Not too bad but I should've had a more satisfying lunch I think. Today at least I prepared a lightish lunch before sitting down - given how well that worked yesterday with the crackers too, I think that's going to be a key to prevent me overeating.

Hi all, back for good now after a few days up in the north of Scotland for a favourite auntie's 80th birthday.

I have eaten so much cake and trifle

But that's behind me now.

Have just booked next year's skiing holiday. If that's not an incentive to get fit and get back into my ski pants, then nothing is.

Off to walk the dogs. They don't know what's about to hit them

Finished the day on 12,500 steps. But eaten too much, finishing the kids leftovers.

And tomorrow is DH's birthday so we are going out for lunch. Sigh. Will just have to go for a LONG walk tomorrow!

Just found a fab app called Happy Scale - I'm on iOS, but hopefully there is an Android version as well. Basically you weigh yourself every day and it uses averaging to smooth out the natural ups and downs so you can see if you are actually losing weight or not. You can set goals and intermediate milestones as well. Hopefully get me over my fear of scales!

Saturday
• Small bowl of cereal
• Cup of orange juice
• Bowl of cucumber, carrot, apple and celery
• Cheese dip
• Packet of crisps
• 500ml water
• Wrap with steak, veg, cheese and sour cream dip
• 500ml water
• Magnum
• 250ml water

AAAAAAAAAARGH terrible food day today. Didn't have anything after breakfast until gone 1pm and then suddenly felt really wobbly so grabbed anything easy i.e. carb fest. Ugh. Think I need to remind myself to eat a proper lunch a little earlier because this has messed me up a few times now - I get used to feeling a bit hungry because I'm not constantly snacking, but I let it get too far. I'm getting more and more nervous about work tomorrow so really wanting to bury my feelings in chocolate!

Still feel really hungry but I'll be starting dinner in a little bit (a nice hearty shepherds pie - including cauliflower hidden in the mash, mwahaha) so can manage without anything else now. Kind of feel like the damage is done though. Hope I haven't completely buggered up the week. :(

Hi ladies,
I've been lurking for a few days and would love to join you if I may? I am 8kg heavier than when I fell pregnant, and my dd just turned 6 months old. I can no longer use that as an excuse! I've just gone back to work and am really disappointed I've not slimmed down (especially compared to all my other mummy friends!) I'm
Having to buy a new work wardrobe and feeling really upset about it all. I'm 5"6 and 77kg. Weigh in days will be Monday and am generally just trying portion control, but reading the thread has made me think MFP could be a good idea again too.

Ooo I'll download that app just as soon as I've updated the expired card details on my iTunes account - one of those annoying jobs I keep forgetting to do until I want to download something.

Well I weighed in this morning and have not lost one single lb!!! Body fat decreased by 2.2kg since last Sunday though so that's something. I was feel so disheartened this morning about it but then AF arrived this afternoon so I think that could be the culprit! Phew!! Must keep up the motivation and hope for a nice big loss next week! X

Hope weigh in day goes well for everyone! And welcome Mimosa, of course you're welcome to join, and be kind to yourself, 6 months is not a long time!

Morning all,

Sorry to have been so quiet. I'm in that dreadful 'three weeks into the diet' crash and just feel bloody miserable about it. My motivation appears to have waned dreadfully, and even though I'm not being bad, I'm also not being brilliant. I weighed in this morning and I'm 15st8. So a whole 3lbs lighter than when I started, which feels beyond crappy. I'd so hoped to have cracked the 14st something by this point and can't help but feel like I'm failing.

Time to grab myself by the scruff of the neck and give myself a good talking to, I think. I'm trying to focus on my goals and see if that helps motivate me. I have the dreaded GP appointment next week, and my October holiday is just 9 weeks away. I so wanted to feel lovely during that, and at this rate I'll be the size of a house still, and will want to hide away.

Feel free to give me a 'stop feeling sorry for yourself, you miserable mare' kick in the head...

you're not failing! You are still lighter. Baby steps will still take you in the right direction.

Buffalo that's a great fat loss!

Welcome Mimosa :)

I can't weigh in today - didn't have a chance as have family here and am a bit embarrassed (it's the Wii Fit scales so can't just hide in the bathroom) . Will do tomorrow though as it'll just be me and the DCs.

Back to work this afternoon and dreading it. Still feeling incredibly dizzy.

Right Dreaming, come on let's sort this out now, you can crack this! I know that 3 week slump well, and usually I start by slacking off a bit, not being bad but not proactively being good either... Then eventually just slip back into old habits.

9 weeks worth of a sustained 2lb loss is 18lbs!!! That would take you to 14st4lbs! Almost a stone and a half! What can you do today to make you feel better about this by tonight? I've got horrible period pain today and I can't go out in the car as annoyingly left DD car seat in DPs car and he's gone to work so I'm going to go out for a long walk and really focus on no snacking (terrible for snacking during AF), and drinking lots of water. Why don't you join me and we can check back in tonight and see how we got on??

Hello all, sorry for going awol. I'm not caught up on the whole thread yet but just wanted to check in and say Dreaming I feel exactly as you do. I've had a bad week food wise, family were visiting so there's been lots of meals out and also snacky food-on-the-go type meals while we've been doing other things. I've also not been out for a run in forever although I have been doing a fair amount of walking on day trips.

I wasn't going to weigh in until after my holiday but forced myself to this morning and am at 15st5, so while I'm not quite back to where i started, I'm really not far off.

This is the point where I normally just totally give up, but I am 100% dedicated to not doing that this time, I'm getting back on the wagon food wise (should be easy enough as I feel DREADFUL after a week(ish) of bad, convenience food). Holiday on Thursday for 5 days but I'm going to load up on salad before then and then restart from the beginning when I'm home next Tuesday.

So, chin up Dreaming, WE CAN DO THIS!!!

Will catch up on the whole thread soon.

Righto, thanks for the butt kicking and yes, chin is marginally up but determination is still there and not waned despite the lack of get up and go.

To spur me on, I looked up an old diary from a few years ago where I was very strict with my diet and logged how much I lost each week. This showed that in 9 weeks, I'd lost more than 2 stones, which is incredible. So, focussed once again and ready for action.

Buffalo, Mess and Fuzz, thank you all so much, and yes, onwards and upwards and hopefully a less narky Dreaming tomorrow. Here's to continued success and Fuzz*, my lovely, I really hope that today went OK and you're not too exhausted by it all now.

Come on dreaming, 3lbs off is 1lb per week - which is a safe and healthy rate of loss. I know you want more - but you will keep it off more easily if you take it slow...

You are doing great, you really really really are.

I've been OK today - diet not so great, but I bought Just Dance (cheapy second hand version - I love Game!) and a new WiiFit board as the old one was broken. It was £7.99 second hand, I was gobsmacked, but they are old news now. I then set it do I could step while watching TV and did an hour of step while watching Chicago Fire and Made in Chelsea. Made it to 12000 steps, so still managing 10,000 per day and it seems to be working. I think.

We'll see, but I'm still going and still motivated, which is a bit of a first for me after 3 weeks. I'm dead good at giving up me (lots of practice!)

Thanks Dreaming I did manage my shift but was very very dizzy the whole time.

Food has been terrible today, too many snacks to keep me going!

Come on dreaming, 3lbs off is 1lb per week - exactly - and in a year that would be a jaw-dropping 52lbs. Just imagine that Just keep plodding along. There will be good weeks and bad, but as long as there's more of the good ones, you're going in the right direction.

Not a great day here on the steps, but good food-wise. Have just logged the whole day on MFP and now I'm off to bed before any temptations throw themselves before me. I'm sure this will be easier once the kids are back at school.

Well, weighed in and lost a pound this week. So, not amazing but still in the right direction!

Monday
• Small bowl of cereal
• Banana
• 250ml water
• Four cream crackers with butter and cheddar
• Cucumber
• Nutella sandwich on 50/50
• 10 Wotsits
• Apple
• Satsuma
• Individual Kipling cake
• Bag of crisps
• 500ml water
• Tuna mayo, two boiled eggs, celery and avocado
• Magnum

Tuesday
• Small bowl of cereal
• Half bag of crisps
• 1 strawberry pencil sweet
• Hamburger, small fries, small Coke
• Small handful of candy
• 250ml water
• Large plate of carvery with trimmings (lots of veg)
• Large Pepsi
• Profiteroles with cream

Clearly two very bad days foodwise!

1lb a week is good! It's weight off, not on, and it's all a step in the right direction.

I'm not weighing until Saturday, hoping maybe 1.5lb off...

Well done fuzz, all in the right direction and that's what matters. I've had a couple of days of poor food choices and haven't logged anything in MFP so I need to rein that in today and log everything so I can't cheat myself into thinking it isn't too bad.

I'm really struggling drinking plain tap water, I think we need to buy some bottles of water, it tastes so much better!!

Does anyone have a nutribullet?

Do you like filtered water Buffalo? I have a Bobble Bottle and water tastes much nicer from it (especially at work where the tap water is horrible!)