Officially my heaviest and time to change. Anyone with me?

[DreamingOfADifferentMe]

Hi all,

Well, having just returned from a gorgeous week's holiday, I decided to take the plunge and step onto the scales. Bloody hell.

I'm officially the heaviest I've ever been. I look awful. And I'm desperate to change. I've spent the last few days reading threads on here that I think will inspire me and I'm determined to make a change.

I have a number of milestones to get to, including a holiday in October, but the big one in my head is going to see the GP in a few weeks' time for a repeat prescription for my contraceptive pill. Last year, she made some reference about my weight as they may not have been allowed to prescribe it, given my high BMI. She did, and prescribed me a year's worth, and they're nearly gone. Have I lost weight? Have I heck - I'm actually heavier, and I can't bear the idea of going back and having the same utterly humiliating conversation.

So, I'm just debating the best approach. I know low/no carbs works really well for me, though I can struggle to stick with it, but that's what I'm going for initially.

This morning I weighed in at 15st 11, and I'm just 5ft 4. I'm a size 18. This cannot be who I am. I am not the woman who looks back at me in the mirror.

My mission is to shift, ideally, around 3st initially. I know that I look and feel great at 12st something, and even though I'll be far from a size 10 skinny minnie, I will feel fantastic. Then, when I get to that point, we'll see.

However, when there's such a long road ahead, I know I get easily defeated. So, does anyone fancy a hand to hold along a similar path? I'm happy to give tonnes of support and will cheer folk on, anyone fancy returning the favour?

My typos are horrendous, I do apologise. It drives me crazy that I can't see the bottom line of text as I'm typing on the app so I never know what typos I've made until after I've posted.

Still haven't had one! I waited until 10am and then took DD2 out for a walk in her buggy to try and get her to nap (success!). Got back about 10 minutes ago and have decided to wait until after lunch. But DD2 most definitely did not want to nap so we had rather a long walk to persuade her, so am up to 8634 steps today already. Should make that 10,000 today no bother especially if I go out for an hour this evening as well.

Made pancake for the kids for breakfast and was very restrained myself, which im please about. It seems to becoming less important to eat something than to be considered about it. We are going out for tea this evening so I didn't pig on the pancakes. Good choices.

buffalo 6lbs is amazing! Even with timing differences, you have still obviously been moving in the right direction.

I still don't really dare weigh so I'm not sure exactly how much I am - only that I am heavier than my last known weight still, going by clothing. When I get into a certain pair of jeans I might get on the scales and have a look. Probably should buy a battery for the scales as well...

Sounds like everyone has been doing really well, I'm so proud of us all!
Had a fab day in London yesterday, did treat myself food wise but had a banana for breakfast and then had a big meal out at about 4pm so was lunch and dinner in one, great big burger with all the usual sides, then an ice cream a few hours later, and a lovely pint of cider in the evening. Stuck to Pepsi max and water other than that though, and we walked everywhere - my pedometer app showed 20,200 steps and 14km (almost 9miles) walked by the end of e day, I was pretty chuffed! Having a virtuous day food wise today to try and undo some of the burger damage before weigh in tomorrow

No twinges in my knee at all yesterday so thinking of trying a run much later today when it's cooled down.

Hope everyone's having a great weekend

I cracked. Diet coke a-go-go...

But not until 1pm. That means none before 1pm tomorrow...

mess sounds like a fab day out, and 20k steps is amazing!

Thanks, I was really happy. Well actually I didn't believe it to start with, I assumed the pedometer had included the tube journey back to St Pancras at 11pm (hence why we didn't walk that bit) but then I tested it when I drove home from the station at it definitely cuts out at high speeds so must have walked that much. Still can't really believe it but can feel it in my legs today (inner thighs rather than calves weirdly!)

I have a diet Irn Bru in the fridge that I'm having today, I don't even worry about diet drinks too much, I know they're not great but they're also better than lots of things and I would feel seriously deprived without the odd Irn Bru (always diet) and Pepsi max.

1pm!!! That's brilliant Socks!

And thanks I'll check out that mapmyrun thing. Our local area is a maze of little streets so should be able to get varied routes.

Achy achy legs here. DD1 wanted to go out running so I walked with the buggy with DD2 and she ran up and down in front of me - I even did a few short runs myself. We went back to the beach for ice cream - it's 7.5km away so I am on nearly 20,000 steps today. But I am very tired now. Treated myself to ice cream though - lovely to be totally guilt free!

3 cans of coke in total. See what I can do tomorrow...

I've had an ok day after having 4 days completely off diet.
I got plenty of exercise in for me. DD2 had a friend over on sleepover and I took them swimming and then to a local country park for a walk and a play at the park. So I swam for half an hour and walked 2 miles today before lunch.

I have had...
No breakfast.
Subway club sandwich with low mayo and lots of salad and a cookie for lunch (500 cals)
Lamb and beef kebabs cooked at home in the air frier for dinner.

Only downside was a slice of my homemade oreo/baileys cheesecake that is very calorific - but it fitted in with my cals for the day especially once the exercise was taken into account.

I will weigh myself tomorrow to see what I weigh as a start point for this week. It will be over what I last weighed in for as I've had a few foody days, but it feels good to be back in control.

Ohhhh Charley that cheesecake sounds AMAZING!

Just attempted to run again but my knee wasn't playing ball and the app was in complete meltdown, I might have to download a different one. Went for 2.5 mile walk instead, with some power walking thrown in.

Sort of looking forward to weighing in tomorrow, even if I don't lose I'll be happy not to gain due to my drinking, chippy tea and burger! How's everyone else feeling about weigh in day?

Wow, some amazing exercise going on. I managed a slow mile yesterday. Still it's up on a normal day, I guess.

Managed to get myself back on track yesterday and today. MFP reckons my daily maintenance calorie limit is 1810, yesterday I had 1395, today it is 1520. I aim for between 1400 and 1500 a day, so am happy with them. Already made my smoothie for breakfast tomorrow which is 201 calories, then lunch is a shepherds pie, tea I dont know yet. Will weigh myself again tomorrow if I can, and get into the Monday weigh in.

On the liquid intake, water is best, but I really struggle and am currently on flavoured fizzy water, and the aldi sparkling fruit crushes (normally raspberry and mint). They have sweeteners in, but run to approx 20 cals per litre. I do try and drink 500ml water a day, and then resort to the flavoured stuff, with the aim of eventually increasing the plain water/decreasing the ther stuff. However, I figure any liquid is better than none, and at the moment, if I restricted myself to plain water, most days I would only drink the 500ml and no more.

Socks, I managed to cut down (and eventually cut out) my love of caffeinated fizzy drinks by reducing the size I bought. So I went from 500ml bottles, to 330ml cans, to 250ml cans daily. Then I went for every other day. Suddenly I realised I hadn't had one all week. Now, I cant say for certain the last time I had any. Probably a couple of weeks ago. I dont know if that would help you any?

Good luck everyone with weigh in tomorrow!!

It's gorgeous, Mess. But I entered the ingredients in to Nutracheck and it said it was about 700 cals per serving.

I had TWO slices the day I made it. Oh dear.

I set my account to give me cals to lost 1.5lb a week. And with nutracheck you can choose 'high' days and it will give you extra on those days and conpensate on other days.

I've set Fri and Sun as my high days and it gives me 1940 cals on those days and 1330 on the rest of the days. I try to come in a bit under though but the allowance is good for days that I struggle.

What I need to do is not give up for days at a time and keep tracking on good and bad days alike.

Absolutely Charley I can be very 'all or nothing' (in all aspects of my life TBH) so it's easy to think oh, I've fallen off the wagon, may as well have a few more days off too. Your way of allowing for high days and low days sounds really good!

Where do you get 250ml cans from please lrb?

Sunday
• Chocolate croissant
• Slice of salami
• 10 wotsits
• 500ml water
• Jacket potato, baked beans and cheese
• Carrot and broccoli
• 20 chocolate peanuts
• 500ml water

Not a great day for me really although I managed decent exercise (for me I mean!). I felt so rubbish about yesterday that I didn't have lunch and that really messed me up, I was thinking about food all day! I will be careful in future to never skip meals, even if I only have something little. Thankfully I resisted the urge to really pig out this evening. I am now very hungry though!

I may have to get a long walk tomorrow - need to get to the GP and pharmacy and I have to do it early in the morning, and I have no money for the bus down (the bus route is funny so we can't get the bus back home anyway). I'll have to rest at the park before heading home so at least the DCs can get some exercise. Not sure how I'll manage as I've not walked anywhere near that far since this latest relapse started. I have a GP appt tomorrow morning too so will be two days in a row (although I will make sure I have bus fare for the trip down on Tuesday in case I'm feeling worse). I'm pleased at the prospect of getting some decent exercise though.

Wondering if they sell avocado in the co-op next to the pharmacy, as I forgot to order any and I'm really craving it! I'm definitely doing pasta for the DCs dinner and I'd love to have mine with only a few bits of pasta - enough to satisfy the urge - and heap the rest onto avocado as I planned. Yum. It'll either be bolognese again or tomato sauce with salmon flaked into it (I disguise it in there for the DCs, but I might steam a separate one just for me).

We've nearly filled up half a thread already! Sounds like we are all making progress. I am still dreading the weigh in. I'll have to get it done quickly in the morning before I head out, but I won't be able to post until later. Fingers crossed for everyone!

Sorry fuzz, they are mostly 150ml, not 250ml (Pepsi seem to do the 250ml). You can get them in most supermarkets, often with the mixers rather than the normal fizzy stuff, but if you can't find them ask as they will be there somewhere. Asda currently has them at 4 for £1.

Is there anyone who would be able to give you a lift tomorrow? I'm guessing not, but if it is possible, please ask. I know I have helped out friends in a similar situation before now.

Charley the cheesecake sounds amazing. I am really glad I'm not much of a baker, I dont think I could have the restraint to keep to a small amount.

I have tried to lose weight several times over the last few years and have struggled with falling off the wagon as well, often after 2 weeks and staying off the wagon for months. Am determined to crack it this time though. One week in so far .

The thing I am trying to keep focussed on is that I have put this weight on over the course of about half my life. It has taken 18 years to get to this weight. Thus it isnt going to come off in a matter of months. But if I can just lose something on a weekly basis, it will come off quicker than it went on [hopeful emoticon].

Reading this thread on Friday really helped me not go majorly overboard, and I will try and use it if I need to in future. I ate a muffin and a chocolate bar when I got home from work, and was on course to either have a take away or a McDonalds. But reading the bit about not letting one slip affect the rest of the day made me stop and think, and helped me stay mostly on track (or at least stopped me going so far off piste I ended up on a different mountain altogether ).

Urgggghhh. Woken up having had a horrendous dream that I was pregnant and not fat. While I love the idea of 4 kids, the reality would be not good. We can't afford it on any level. This is exacerbated by having currently pelvic ligaments achy pains exactly like I had in all three previous pregnancies. This is, of course, complete nonsense. But it was a very vivid dream. Of to buy school shoes for 3 kids today, so lots of walking hopefully to find ones that fit and don't costs a small mortgage!

Hi Socks, I too had an horrendous dream, I'm wondering if its withdrawal from Diet Coke? I too, was drinking at least 10 cans a day I now try and limit myself to 2 a day and drink water the rest of the time. Its not easy but I definitely feel better for it!
Swimming this morning felt particularly hard work. I didn't eat yesterday, apart from breakfast, as I simply forgot and was so busy running around. I'm hoping it was due to that and not simply the fact I'm not so motivated?!
We can ditch the Diet Coke together!!

Week 3 17st1lbs so apparently I've lost 3lbs this week?! Although the chart didn't seem quite that low (the wii fit for some reason doesn't give exact weight when you do the body test) so maybe it rounded up and it's more like 2 and a bit. But still, very pleased. And the best bit is, my BMI is now below 40 for the first time in at least a couple of years! Thanks everyone for keeping me on track and motivated :)

Thank you very much for the info about the small cans lrb - Tesco (who I usually order from) don't seem to have the small Dr Pepper but it seems Asda do. So I might get some from there at some point if I'm really feeling the urge. I think that'd be just enough to satisfy the craving.

I did manage the walk to the shops and back (you're right in guessing there was nobody to ask today) - the way down was pretty easy, it's about 15 minutes. Then going between doctor/pharmacy/coop/pharmacy again. I then sat on a bench at the park for 45min while the DCs played (in their doctors outfits! :o) so I had a good rest. The walk back was a bit tougher, being uphill and having bags with me. So just chilling with the laptop for the moment.

Right, must get the tomato sauce out of the freezer (really looking forward to my low-carb dinner!) happy Monday everyone :)

Very quick update as am at work, but first weigh was a week and a half ago on 31/7, and I started at 14st 6lbs, bmi 40.8 and body fat content of 52.1. Today I am. 14st 3lbs, bmi 40.1, bfc 51.1. So going in the right direction ????. Hope everyone else has had success, will post properly later.

Well done fuzz and lrb on your losses, that's great!

The scales were flicking between 15st1 and 15st2 for me this morning, was 15st2 before my weekend away last week so I reckon I'm half a pound down since then, which I'm actually really happy with considering the meals out I've had. Concerted effort now to get below 15st by my holiday on 20th August - no meals out booked between now and then so fingers crossed!

Hope everyone else has had good news on the scales today

Hi all, I'm back from my holidays and determined to turn this tanker round. I weighed in at 220 lbs on Sunday morning . Heaviest I've ever been.

Took the dogs for a long walk yesterday and another one later in the evening, and I have avoided bread for a day and a half now as there's always too much bread eaten on holiday, and I already feel less bloated. Scales showed over 2 lbs off already this morning but that's just bloat and a good poo I think . Sorry, tmi.

Good to hear everyone's successes, in lots of different ways.

I think my strategy will be to try and avoid processed carbs and try and avoid the 3 S's - no sugar, snacks or seconds. But not going to beat myself up over the odd slip up.

This will be so much easier once the kids are back at school…...

Thank you Mess :)

Well done lrb! Is that body fat content as a percentage? I have no idea what mine is - although I remember a good few years ago, when I wasn't as heavy as I am now, it was around 50% so it must be far worse now.

Presumably building up muscle - which I do want to do, as due to my illness I am of course pretty weak - will mean I lose actual weight slower, but if it means my body fat content is still decreasing then I'll be very pleased! And isn't it that if you have more muscle you burn fat faster anyway? Or something I really don't have a clue about all this stuff. I do know that protein is really important for muscles though so I'm making sure I have enough hopefully!

I actually did a test . Am fucking delighted that I am actually, definitively just a fat porker.

Slipped and had lasagne in a cafe for lunch, but forewent the chips and garlic bread. And actually I'm still stuffed and it was 3 hours ago. Light tea for me and all should be good. Although I need to get some knitting done tonight, so I might not get all the steps in. Lazy day today...

We are supposed to be walking over Cefn Bryn tomorrow so I think I should make up for it then!

And yay to losses for fuzz and lrb!

I need to start weighing, not quite brave enough yet.

Slurping from a bottle of diet coke now, but only second of the day and it's 3pm.

I don't really feel like today has been good foodwise. Just feel a bit meh.

CQ :o at your TMI! Your plan sounds very sensible.

I wouldn't call lasagne a slip up if you skipped the chips and bread, Socks :) and yay for your BFN :o

Take your time weighing yourself, there's nothing wrong with going by how you feel in clothes etc. And I do remember once dropping a full dress size without losing an ounce - still felt far better for it!

Good grief I'm snacky today. Still only on my second bottle of water too. Finding it really hard to drink more!