I felt so much more in control over the weekend and it's all gone out of the window now. I've resisted the temptation up until now but it's so hard.
Dh has been notable by his absence for over two weeks now. The week before last he locked himself in the dining room as soon as he got home and sat working until midnight every night. Last week he was round at his mother's place packing for her (she moved today) - she's fit as a flea, but couldn't be arsed to pack her things, wouldn't pay for the removals company to pack, so dh had to do it all. He was there every night (again) until midnight most nights. He's been there all over the weekend, and is helping her unpack now (because she can't even open up a bloody box herself). I want my dh back, she wouldn't even let me speak to him on the phone before dh went to bed because he's "too busy". My MIL is a MN joke but it's not funny at the moment!
I just need someone to talk to and cry at for a bit, I think. I don't do cyberhugs but just someone to listen would be really good. And if I'm sitting here typing and someone I'm not eating.