Healthy Revolutionaries!

[BloodiedGhouloshes]

Oh Okay, hardly original. :)

But describes us all. :)

Me today,

B- apple, yogurt, cashew nuts and honey
L- salmon and salad
D- honey sesame chicken legs with a greek salad.

O&DW FRs!

[SlightlyDampWellies]

[hugs] to Amanda who sounds so blue.

[Hugs] to hazel. People asking me if I am pg is a conastant bugbear and bane. TBH, she sound either bitchy or just outrageously inappropriate. You are very slim as it is. WHY would anyone ask such a question of any woman? [shakes head]

[SlightlyDampWellies]

Amanda you say you need to do something nice with the Dcs tomorrow... and choose something nice for yourself too. . It sounds like you really need a bit of comforting.

[SlightlyDampWellies]

to everyone. WE all sound a bit depleted.

I have been fine, except for the computer not working. I felt like a ghost yelling in everyone's ears as I tried to post without success. Today has been a day though.... Ds 3 had a fit out of nowhere. He was running around at softplay, then went over backwards like he had been felled and fitted. He has never fitted. I went to OOH and they think it was a one off because he was hot. I am about to ring my mother abroad to see if we have epilepsy in the family. The Dr is convinced it is a one-off. it was pretty bloody terrifying though.

Now have a glass of wine in hand. All Dcs are in bed. Planning to watch 'Ambassadors' and then bed.

[TheRealAmandaClarke]

Hi wellies good to have you back.
Poor thing that must have been scary to see your DS have a seizure. Poor sausage. Fitting with a fever is not uncommon though in small children. I hope everything turns out well and it was just from being hot. Oh they are a worry, little monkeys.

[MillyRules]

Sorry to hear about your little one Wellies but it does happen a lot with high temperatures.
Me today
one oat bar
egg tomato and mushroom fried in salty butter
handful of cashew nuts
4 squares of Green and Blacks Salty chocolate
Brie,walnut and sweet red grape salad with leaves and honey olive oil and balsalmic dressing
greek yoghurt with pecans and honey
lots of cups of tea
bloody headache today.....not mega bad but has lasted all day despite medicating.....grrrrr!!!

[MillyRules]

Im trying to cut out wheat at the moment as it causes me bloating and discomfort and not good for my ibs. Also, reading the book Wheat Belly.......anyone read it??

[MillyRules]

Ladies....how we all doing?

[TheRealAmandaClarke]

I plan to fast today.
Been comfort eating a bit his week.
DD up four or five times a night. Poor DCs having a tired grumpy mummy.
Fingers crossed for a good fast. It usually makes me feel good.

[MillyRules]

How did the fast go Amanda.
Me today:
2 chocolate hob nobs and cup of tea in bed (DH does this every morning)
1 glass milk
2 Falafels
Home made Chicken filled with garlic and parsley butter, creamy buttery mashed potatoes, peas, carrots and broccoli.
one baby Crunchy
lots of cups of tea.

[SlightlyDampWellies]

Hello everyone.

I am still about, just not in a healthy frame f mind!

I am seeing my diet counsellor tomorrow. So have given myself a few days 'off' thinking about dieting or food. :)

Hope everyone is okay.

[MillyRules]

wellies hope tomorrow goes well. I have to say that I dont diet or restrict food at all and I dont gain weight. I stopped dieting years ago and its lovely most of the time to feel in control rather than bein controlled. I hope you can sort out your food issues.

[TheRealAmandaClarke]

Hey FRs.
The fast became a "mini fast" * I like the feeling of being pretty darn hungry at dinner time.
I think I will do more of them and I'm toying with the idea of that for 5 days a week. So basically that would mean that as a rule, during the week I would skip breakfast and lunch and avoid all food until a normal evening meal. We shall see.
Still very tired. Also a bt miffed with dh tbh. I have resolved to ago I'd all confrontation (easier said than done). But I'm feeling the pressure of life
Wellies good luck for tomorrow.

[TheRealAmandaClarke]

avoid all confrontation

[MillyRules]

Want to say why your miffed Amanda. Can we help in any way?

[MillyRules]

Amanda I too like the feeling of being properly hungry and stopping as soon as im full but sometimes it is hard to tune into my body. This week Im going to seriously get back on the mindful eating as although I have been maintaining I still want to lose a stone.

[TheRealAmandaClarke]

Ah thanks Milly it's ok, just what I imagine is normal stuff wanting to cleave his skull open with an axe for couples with little DCs/ lack of sleep
Luckily the DCs are especially adorable.
Yes, I too think it is hard to keep tuned -in to real hunger. It works well for a while and then other things take over. It's hard for me to eat mindfully when tired/ stressed/ busy. I need a little headspace for it and I don't really have any right now.
When I got up this morning (6ish) I could have devoured any toasted bread product tbh. But I've had a black coffee, I'm giving the DCs their bagels and banana and now I feel ok. The craving passes and I'm hoping to be food- free until dinner time. That's where fasting helps me, because I just have to wait until dinner and cope with mild hunger rather than keep thinking "am I really hungry?" etc. IYSWIM.
O&D FRs.

[Hazelbrowneyes]

Hi all,

Good luck today wellies can’t wait to hear how it goes.

Amanda I want to give you a massive hug. I also avoid confrontation at all costs, but not with DH. Sometimes I need to confront him mainly to stop myself from wanting to hurl something hard and heavy at his head to clear the air. We don’t have children so I obviously don’t know how hard it is but I really can imagine. You sound like you really need some time out to be honest. Any chance you could call on some relatives to help? Visit for a day or two, they can take charge of your DCs and you can get some rest? If you rest at home, you’ll think “oh I need to clean, tidy, whatever” but if you’re away from home, you have to do nothing. Just an idea & I hope you don't think I'm speaking out of turn. I know it’s probably easier said than done but I know I’d be more than happy to help out a tired relative for a few days. Big hugs xxx

As for me, I’ve eaten too much food and drank too much alcohol recently and I’m cross with myself. Yesterday I had goats cheese al forno in Prezzo (delish) and followed it with a massive amount of cheese when I got home. Such a fool. I did walk a good few miles though as we went Christmas shopping (why does it just seem so stressful this year?) and I was shattered by the time I got home so just shovelled food in. Idiot.

So today I start again. It’s not long until my birthday and I have a new dress I’d like to squeeze into for a meal out. One of a bloody ridiculous amount of meals out, quite frankly. How on earth did we end up with a social life? We’re both bloody miserable human beings! I left the open packet of jaffa cakes at home (kicking myself for this now) and lunch is homemade tortilla (DHs speciality). DH has brought in some sausage rolls but I’m going to try to avoid those. I have dark chocolate should I need a snack but I’m hoping to avoid it. Drinks: 3 cups of tea max and water only. Tonight we have beef stir fry and I’m going to make a soup for tomorrow. I’m probably going to stay in tonight to sort out my wardrobe so I will stay off the alcohol.

I’m determined to feel better about myself by the time December gets here. It’s so pointless being so unhappy all the time.

[MillyRules]

Hazel im determined to drop this bloody stone too. Im eating really mindfully (hopefully) and will not eat until im really hungry, that feeling that you just have to eat or you will die feeling, ha ha!.
Amanda hope today works for you too.
Wellies let us know who the session goes?
Everyone else....how you all doing?

[TheRealAmandaClarke]

Hazel you're very sweet. Thanks. I'll be ok.
I do need some rest though. Maybe one day
I haven't really thought about Christmas shopping tbh. DS I writing to FC right now. But I'm not sure what about as he's only 3

Milly good luck with your mindful eating.

Wellies hope you had a good session (as it were) today.

Lego Baking Twinkle shoes thinking of you all.

Fasting is going ok today. It's tough as a meal approaches but I feed the DCs and have a white coffee while they eat and then the hunger fades. Looking forward to some fish curry soup for dinner. I hope to do mini fasts tues- fri after this.

[SlightlyDampWellies]

Morning all.

[hugs] to Amanda and yes, the reason I did not write yesterday is because DH and I had a riproaring fight and I too want to cleave his skull with an axe. And also about little DCs, lack of patience, lack of sleep etc.

Mindful eating is my ultimate aim too, Milly.

Hazel hope you are okay. It really resonated what you said about it being pointless being so unhappy all the time.

Thanks for asking about my session. It went really well I thought and the counsellor was really engaging and engaged as well and I felt good with her. We talked a lot about my food history so to speak.... weight gains and losses, how I feel about food, how I feel about myself, how my mother was with her food issues etc. She said basically I need to reprogramme, as I have developed these habits that are not working anymore, and I have screwed my relationship up with food so badly that it is like starting again. I am paraphrasing obviously, but that is what I got out of it. So for this week all I have to do is eat breakfast. No food diaries. No plans. No targets. Just eat breakfast every day and then stop thinking about it all. That feels kind of restful.

I will write more later, but DC 3 has started screaming (He is going through another phase) and I need to deal with it because it does DH's head in and I can forsee another row!

Hope everyone has a good day- O&D FRs!

[TheRealAmandaClarke]

Thanks Wellies for sharing about your session. I'm glad it's started well.
Suffice to say than men a very annoying and they'd better e wearing armoured underpants come the fucking revolution!

I managed a mini fast yesterday and am planning the same for today.
Had breadcrumbed fish and actifry chips with peas and then some canned fruit last night. Nothing to eat before that.
I actually can't think for long enough to plan tonight's dinner.
The mini fast thing is interesting (IMHO ) because this morning I have made porridge, toast/ bagels, sliced up apples, peeled satsumas and made drinks for everyone. I have had a white coffee (treat, should have been black really). At the time of making this food I felt ravenous. I love toast etc. now it's all eaten (apart from DD's who is on hunger strike ) I feel ok. I think I must have some real rigidity in my personality (definitely from DF's genes) because I find it much easier to abide by a set rule of eating nothing than having a moderate healthy breakfast and lunch.
Anyway. Et's hope it works. I want to stay this size or slimmer, not keep creeping up.
O&D FRs

[TheRealAmandaClarke]

(((hazel))) you are right. It is pointless and exhausting to not feel good about yourself.

[Hazelbrowneyes]

That sounds positive wellies I need to sort out the reasons why I constantly think about food. I think a lot of it is boredom to be honest. I have a desk job so I sit and snack pretty much constantly.

Amanda Well done on the mini fast. I hope your DD comes off hunger strike soon!

I’m ok. I feel good actually. I’m determined to be more cheery. I’m getting on reasonably well with DH which is helping – he’s a grumpy sod but seems to be making a real effort. I’m really trying to kick the drinking into touch for both our benefit and last night he really helped. We even went to the pub and both had soft drinks.

So, my food diary because I’m unable to let this go just yet

B – none
L – tortilla, 1 snack sausage roll
D – beef & veg stirfry, no noodles
S – packet of crisps (doh), 2 jaffa cakes (doh), 6 squares of chocolate (doh)

Not great but not the worst it’s been either (see, I’m looking for positives)

Weighed myself this morning but didn’t take measurements as I’ve lost the tape measure. I want to lose 7lbs by Christmas but I’ll be happy with 5lbs off.

Today:
B – none
L – homemade veg soup – swede, potatoes, carrots, parsnip with a shit load of paprika and curry powder as it was too sweet for me. I will probably have a bread roll with this.
D – sausages and something. Either sausages with potato and carrot mash or sausage casserole. I’m not a massive fan of sausages to be honest so I need to see how I feel tonight as to how I fancy eating them!
S – left over tortilla, chocolate. No crisps.

So, tiny steps. Today I’m focussing on not having crisps.

Last night I started sorting my wardrobe which kept me on my feet for a little bit and tonight I do intend to exercise. I’m also planning on properly snuggling up with DH on the sofa to watch some TV as we generally sit opposite ends and play with the ipads all night. I want to get out of that habit. I’ve not painted my nails in a while either so I might do that tonight as well. This is part of my problem though, I want to do so much in such a short space of time that I start to panic and end up getting nothing done. This is very much the case at work too.

[SlightlyDampWellies]

I really understand what you mean Hazel when you say that you panic and get nothing done. The whole looks overwhelming. I have started a thread in Good Housekeeping for exactly that reason- my house is - frankly- a goddam disaster and I get worn down by the daily stuff. The housekeeping thread is about small changes every day- and that is working really well, and I am proud of what I have achieved so far.

Today- I went and bought breakfast stuff. Deluxe cereal, deluxe greek yoghurt, nice honey and my fave nuts. If I have to eat breakfast then I plan to make it a luxury- a time of self nurturing. See... already I am reverting to making targets!!!!! But, hopefully I ca start to change my mindset. :)

Hope everyone is well and fine.

[Hazelbrowneyes]

Very quick