SDP great to see you!
I put on 3lb over half term but that was from my absolute low. I've been coldy and headachey and haven't felt like dieting for the last week, so my mojo has gone a bit. DH and I have also been out a bit, away for half term and then ferrying kids about this weekend so exercise fell by the wayside a bit - though made my swimming lesson on Thurs
and managed to keep up.
In answer to why am I here... Fat child, put on diets on and off, lost lots of weight at 11 and was roundly praised for it, whacked on loads more as a teen, lost shitloads at about 16 and became anorexic (though was 7.5st at 5'7", tbh there are plenty 17yos that size although I do have a very large frame and very visible cheekbones, collarbones and ribcage so poss looked worse than it was, anyway, had to have outpatient treatment for a bit).
Recovered, although i developed a terrible bingeing hanit in the process which is not uncommon in recovering anorexics. Went to uni at 10.5st, met DH and picked up his real ale and junk habit, went up to 16st, graduated, back down to 12st where I stayed for 8 years through playing sport and vaguely calorie counting. Although still with the bingeing habit and the odd throwing up session on top (sorry if TMI).
Got married. Got pregnant. Let rip on the cake. Whacked on 4 stone (16st OMG) lost 1 stone, got pregnant again, put on 1.5st (16.5st OMG OMG), lost 1 stone. Started chiefing, lost about 10lb.
It is going. Slowly. But my body and mind are sick of all this and so I have to be so careful as it's very easy for me, at the merest hint of deprivation, to slip back into the binge-get fat-diet-feel deprived-binge more cycle. Yet basic physics dictates that to be thinner (as I need to be, to be healthy) I need to diet to some degree. This is why I had to give up on 5:2, although it is a totally brilliant diet if you aren't a complete fuckup like me
Congrats to anyone who made it through the above me-me-meing, btw. The chiefs have been a brilliant support, and even though I'm not very good at dieting any more, it's made such a difference to have you all here 