Hi all
Thank you so much for the
and support earlier about my spectacular falling off of wagon!
I really did wake up feeling rubbish today, and the kindness of strangers as they say is sometimes the most touching of all!
Gless asked why it is I want to low carb.
The superficial reason I think is that I'm a shorty and that when I carry extra weight, it really shows. The other thing is that I love my food, and often feel a bit out of control with it. (As evidenced by this weekend!) I have yo yo'ed a lot over the years (not by that much - only back and forth between the same ten pounds), but enough for a friend of mine to say this weekend that I was a bit 'Oprah Winfrey'!?
Of course, now I realise that 'loving my food' is actually a poor euphemism for being addicted to carbs and sugar.
I've been reading so much thanks to this thread, and I realise that there's nothing to be proud of in 'loving' food that's bad for me.
The other thing, which Gless and others pointed out, is that what I was doing was classic emotional eating - a habit I've nicely crafted over the years. I absolutely turn to carby and sugary food when I'm down; I've read about why that's the last thing you need during those times - now I just need to absorb it.
The final other reason that I want to low carb is that I'm 35, and sadly, don't yet have children. I was with this ex DP for three and a half years. He absolutely didn't want children, and so we've split up. (I still care about him a lot, which is why this weekend was painful.)
I guess then I just want to get my weight down and try and keep my body as healthy as it can be - to hang on to whatever fertility I have left!
There is no new bloke on the horizon, and it could be a good while before I meet anyone, nevermind get to the kids stage. So, it's all a bit worrying. I may not be able to wave a magic wand and meet someone, but I can at least take control over what I eat, and make sure I'm healthy.
So - the burger and creme eggs and cakes and crisps and booze was really not a good idea, for lots of reasons.
I think I might be the only single person on this thread. I'm also slightly
whenever I dwell on the fact that I don't have DCs to design meal plans for. And everyone seems to have such supportive DHs and DPs helping them with this WOE! I mustn't stay down like this though and must chin up. Thanks all for the
again x