Heartstart - welcome back! Sorry you've been having a tough time. But, you know, ultimately our own health is our own responsibility, isn't it? It seems so rewarding to comfort eat (or drink
) at the time, but in the longer term, there is little real reward for us.
However - it's all very well for me to say that - and it's very easy to say it to someone else. I know from my own experience that until I got myself 'into the zone', so to speak, I just couldn't get going. For me, there has always been one key, defining moment that propels me into serious, sustained dieting. This time around it was a day last year - around this time of the year. I was looking for a dress to wear for the MN Christmas meet up. I tried on a lovely dress. It fitted me (just), but it was a size 14 and already straining at the seams. (I'm 5 ft 2 in, so a size 14 going on 16 is going on 'outsize' for me).
I looked at myself in the mirror. The dress clung to the rolls of fat above and below my navel. It was a sleeveless dress, and my upper arms were all flabby and dimpled - that kind of dimpling that is about fatty deposits.
I was disgusted with myself and how I had allowed myself to get that far. I had studiously avoided weighing myself, even though I knew from my clothes - the few I had left in my wardrobe that fitted me any more - that I was piling the weight on.
It was way too late at that point to do much before Christmas, but I vowed that once Christmas/New Year had passed, I was going to get myself sorted out and that I would never, ever let myself do that to myself ever, ever again.
I set myself a date I was going to start and, most importantly, a plan for what I was going to do. In my case, that meant re-embracing low carb eating as well as signing up at the gym with my trainer. I pledged to myself that I was going to commit the time and the money to do it. For me
I think it's also a 'mummy' thing - we are so used/conditioned to doing things for others in our family that we sometimes forget to look after ourselves. In my case, I run my own business, and we had recently been able to pay ourselves a fairly decent dividend, so I ringfenced a proportion of that for my personal training costs. And I felt so guilty about doing it. How stupid is that?! To feel guilty about spending my money, that I had earned, on me?!